Tuesday, 5:00 P.M.

Grim Reaper

Grim Reaper:
Hey are you okay?

Me:
Yes! What happened to me?
😂😂

Grim Reaper:
Nothing. You just didn't
text me so, that felt odd.

Me:
Haha no. I was a bit taken
wIth some meetings and discussions

Grim Reaper:
Oh. You guys are releasing
something new? That's quick!

Me:
No...

Grim Reaper:
Then meetings for?

Me:
I don't really know if I should
inform you.

Grim Reaper:
Only if you are comfortable.

I promise it won't be out
of here.

Me:
Actually I was leaving Dawn.
Our contract ends this month
and I'll not renew it.

Grim Reaper:
WHAT???

WHY??

Me:
I want to settle with my
family.

Grim Reaper:
oh. Will you leave living
your dream for it?

Me:
Being a singer was never
my dream.

Grim Reaper:
So you're leaving your
profession for your dream?

Me:
No. I am just leaving it

Grim Reaper:
But why?

Me:
Just because I don't fit here.

Grim Reaper:
It's been years in this
profession and you get to
know this all of a sudden.

That you aren't made for it?

Me:
Don't really know..

Grim Reaper:
What about your fans? And
your band members?

Me:
As far as my band mates are
concerned, I have informed
them. Though they tried to
persuade me coz they love me
but it's their personal affection
towards Mi Yi.

I think I have failed as Mia

And if I continue with this it'll
just effect them as a whole.

Grim Reaper:
Where are you getting all this
from?

Do you even know how much
you've been liked??

You are the main vocalist!!!

That's so selfish on your part.
Just because you don't feel like
it doesn't mean you'll be
leaving everyone with whom
you've connected yr self.

Me:
Idk I just wanna leave

Grim Reaper:
And where will you go?

Me:
Basically, I'll go to my
parents who are abroad.

There I'll marry some
doctor or someone and we
will have a little home
with a beautiful garden.

And we will stay far away
from the chaotic life with
a society that's like a family.

And then we'll have kids and
then we will be bringing them
up and that's it. I just wanna
be happy! I don't have any
ambitions. I don't wanna be
famous.

Grim Reaper:
Everyone wants to be happy
Mi Yi. Everyone. It's just where
you find it. You can either
think that its unattainable
where you are or you can
make it happen.

Me:
It depresses me... You know
I love people. I love humankind
a lot.

But humanity depresses me.

Grim Reaper:
Don't be a paradox!

Me:
I am not. I am a very simple
person indeed.

I look around people and that
makes me happy. It makes me
happy how everyone is so
beautiful in their own way.

That's my source of motivation.

But, if I am the cause of their
unhappiness. I should disappear.

Grim Reaper:
This seems to have more
to it. Tell me what happened.

Me:
I recieved a letter a few days
back I mean I recieved many.

And I was just reading all of
them what the fans had to say.

And there was this one which
clearly said that my voice makes
them feel nauseous and sucidal
as if provoking them to end
life. As if the songs meant that
there is no meaning to life and
it's just an existence...

It clicked me that they took the
context wrong. But I was helpless...

I made someone depressed.

Grim Reaper:
That's clearly their issue
that they took the context
wrong. And not yours.

Me:
But I did get why I recieve
so much hate.

Grim Reaper:
That's because you are great!

People tend to get jealous
and bring down people they
think are a threat to their
comfort zone.

You are being unreasonable
really.

Me:
I am not. You won't understand.
What people mean to me.

Grim Reaper:
Oh if people mean to you
so much...

There are countless ppl who
become happy listening to
your songs. People who have
started to live again because
of your lyrics.

What about them?

Me:
...

Grim Reaper:
What about your fans who
are ready to go through
anything to protect you and
support you?

Me:
...

Grim Reaper:
What about your bandmates
who trusted you so much to
give you the position of the
lead vocalist?

Me:
...

Grim Reaper:
You're pathetic Mi Yi

Speak something!!!

Me:
What should I say? I
want to end this. I have
endured much. Everyone
giving me outcries of
people connected to me but
what about me? It has been
years and I have been tolerating
actually everything.

What about my mental health?

Honestly, I'm described as
the happy person around.
The one who always thinks
positive & thinks about the best of everything.

I'm always that friend that
you can count on to cry on,
tell secrets, and help you never
loose faith. But what about me?
I'm falling apart & feel like
I cannot be fixed. Like I could
easily be forgotten. It's like I'm
falling deep into an ocean of
nothing.

Grim Reaper:
No. You are not an easy to
forget person. You are someone
every one will remember till
the end of time.

And not only as Mia! Also as
Mi Yi. I don't really know you
but as much as I do. You are
an absolutely lovable person!

Me:
Idk...

Incoming call : Grim Reaper
Accept / Decline

Grim Reaper:
Pick up the call!
I promise I won't judge
you.

Incoming call : Grim Reaper
Accept / Decline

[Hello?]

[*Sniffle* why is your voice
muffled?]

[I guess the network.]

[Ahh *sniffle*]

[You know you can share
it with me. I know it is
tough to trust a stranger with
your personal issues but
all I can do is ask you to trust me.
Not as a fan, look at me as
a fellow army. We help each other,
right?]

[What should I say...
The more deep I go the
more I loose my hope.
Everyone doesn't think that
of me, what such a happy girl
crying her eyes out at night.
That doesn't make sense.

You ask me why I look depressed
one day & I say I don't know
but really I'm sinking. I'm
sinking deeper and deeper &
wont ask for help but I feel
no one would care.]

[Why would no one care?
Your members, your fans,
your family. Everyone cares.
I care.]

[But I'll never be able to
explain my grief.
Cause I actually don't know.
Why am I sad? I have practically
everything. Nice parents, nice
friends, a successful career. Then
why am I sad?]

[Because you are not able
to live life according to your
ideals.]

[What do you *sniffle* mean by it?]

[Believe it or not everyone
has their own set of
accomplishments. What I feel
is an accomplishment for me,
it may not be the same for you.

Successful career may not be
as successful to you. Success is
a paradox. And its meaning
changes from person to person.

For me success will be
providing my loved ones with
the care and love they deserve.
It might not be same for you.

For some it's fame. For some
it's wealth. Everyone has different
definitions of success.

And it's not all about your
career. There's a life beyond
that.]

[You're a nice man Chinmae shi]

[Huh?]

[You're a really nice man.
Even your definition of
success is nice. I would love
to meet a person like you
sometime.]

[Well um... Thanks?]

[Haha you're welcome.
Well, so, let me find my
success. Or what is success
to me.

Thank you Chinmae shi. You
devoted so much of your
time and energy in me. I
am beyond grateful. Count
on me whenever you need
anything.

Thank you so much.]

[If my words could
help the world not losing
such a talented artist and
singer. It's all worth it.]

[Th-]

[And I forgot to add
beautiful.]

[Aish! Thank you. I don't
have words to thank-]

[Then don't.]

[Huh?]

[Don't thank me this
much. It feels as if I'm
a stranger to you.]

[Uh.. okay.]

[Bye then take care.]

[Yes too take care
Meishi. *Giggles*]

Call ended

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