WARNINGS (yes there are a lot);
•Sexual scenes
•Nude scene
-though not very descriptive
•Some drinking
•Somewhat mentioned abuse
•Crude language
•Fighting/violence
•Successful suicide
•Refers to god and the devil/Lucifer
-if you are offended by these names do not read
-if you are offended by the way either entity is represented than stop reading
-Lucifer is not a good character in this story for those who will be offended
-And she goes mostly unmentioned due to a change in plans, but Lucifer does have a sister

If you are okay with these warnings, than feel free to read. But do heed these warnings seriously. And if I misrepresented anything, or anyone has problems i apologize. Feel free to
PM me comment if absolutely necessary and I will try to fix what I can.

Otherwise, hope y'all enjoy- if you can

It was not forbidden for angels to visit
Diaboli loco but such godly creatures tended to avoid such a place. Diaboli loco was literally the place of the devil and occupied, more often than not, by the devil's creatures rather than god's. Diaboli loco was a place created by the devil and god at request if the devil's sister, Lydia, as a free territory where neither it them held power and good and evil coincided.

Despite this, angles rarely visited. So I found myself surprised to spot one across the main floor, entering the large double doors.

He looked unsure of himself. His golden-blonde hair fell perfectly over his face. His wings were tucked in and at any graze of them he'd flinch them tighter to his back and turn his head to see who or what had touched them.
My eyes took in his toned body that could be made out from where I sat. I tapped my finger of my drinking glass.

"Oh, he's cute"
A girl trilled from behind me.

I had to bite my lip to keep from growling at my friend. Yani moved from where she stood to sit on the table in front of me, effectively forcing me to remove my crossed hooves from the wooden surface.

I glanced back over to the angle who was still appearing lost as he scanned the room. I wondered if he was looking for a certain someone. If so, who? Perhaps he was looking for a girl to take to a private room. That was often why angles came here. Either to drink, party, or have sex. If not all of them.

The thought of him with another girl. Doing those things. Even though I didn't know him it still bothered me to think about it. I growled under my breath

Yani looked at me, her piercing silver siren eyes meeting mine when I turned back to her. Her wings ruffled and a grin crossed her face.
"Someone has a little crush" she giggled.

I hissed at her, sitting up.
"No I don't."

She laughed.
"That reaction alone says you do" she smiled at me.

I sighed and laid back in the chair and let my eyes find the angle again, who had just sat down and ordered a drink.

"Even if I did. You know he tracks me like a dog." I sighed, staring blank-faced at the drink in my hand. "I'll never get away from him."

"Oh stop being such a pessimist. He can't even touch you here- he doesn't even know you're here. So take a chance girl!"

"Yani..."

Her eyes shined.
"I dare you."

"Ugh, Fine." I agreed after a second. I downed the rest of the contents in my glass before getting up and making my way across the room to where the angle now sat in a booth in the corner.

He was the most reserved angel I've seen. Most of the time angels are the life of the party, girls of all species clambering over them, wings out on display, taking shots with pixies, gambling with vampires.

But this angel, he only had one drink. He sat alone with his wings tucked in and his head down. I felt some of my confidence falter. His calm aura made it hard to feel the fiery drive for him I had just felt not even a minute ago.
I sat down across from him. He looked up and his eyes widened a bit.

"Hello angel" I spoke, making my voice smooth and gentle sounding rather than the sensual voice I'd used to subdue men in the past.

"Hello." He responded.

His voice was deep and rich. Now up close I could see his face in detail. He had a sharp, attractive jaw, full lips, and his eyes were a beautiful brown.

"You look ... handsome." I smiled gently, looking him up and down.

"Thanks."
He hesitated.
"You don't look too bad yourself."

I opened my mouth to say something when a dryad approached, sitting directly next to the angel.
"Hello, I'm Orchid, but you can call me anything you want. What's your name angel" she cooed.

Her voice made me sick. I had expected some sort of competition for him. I shouldn't have let my guard fall.

"Uhh, my name is Cassian." He said.

Lilac leaned forward, definitely giving Cassian a generous view of herself.
"Say, Cassian, you're really hot. Why don't I get you a drink? And maybe you can pay me back with a little something." She winked.

I hissed and hit her leg with my tail from under the table. "Excuse me, Orchid, was it? Cassian and I were talking about something important. So maybe you can go try being a slut elsewhere."

She glared at me.
"You're one to speak."

I didn't let her comment bother me. I had heard it all before. We both stared at each other for a moment before she looked at Cassian who shrugged. Offended and rejected, she glared at me again before stalking off, her hips swaying as she did.

I looked at Cassian.
"Sorry for that Cassian I-"

"My name isn't Cassian actually." He laughed.
"That was just a fake name. I used my friend's name just incase things went south. My real name is Ashitaka. What's yours?"

I smiled.
"Oh, uh, Marian."

"Well, thanks Marian. I don't think I'd have been able to get her to leave if you hadn't been there. My friends say I'm too kind, but really I'm just too much of a pushover."
He laughed shyly.

"Pushover or overly kind, either way your cute." I mused before sitting up, realizing what I'd said. "Oh, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to-"

"It's quite alright." He smiled.
"Please, allow me to get you a drink."

"Are you sure?"

"Yes, as thanks for saving me from that dryad."

I nodded slowly. He stood up and I rose with him. We started our way over to the bar. I spotted Yani and smiled to her as she waved. I was about to wave back when a wing blocked my view of her and a hand slipped into mine.
I looked over to Ashitaka who smiled gently. I squeezed his hand and smiled back.

Some time later I had finished three or four shots of the strongest drink they had. Ashitaka had only purchased one and had tried to stop me from getting the other two but I was far too insistent.

Eventually the feeling of wanting returned, but much stronger than before. I wanted our lips together. I wanted his hands on my body. I wanted his body against mine. I wanted to be alone in a private room, nothing between us. I wanted him.

His wings ruffled as I stood up. I took a few steps towards him before I was standing between his legs where he sat.

"Marian?" He questioned.

I placed a hand on each of his legs, pinning him. His eyes flickered down and up twice before he met my eyes again. I smiled and leaned in to whisper to him.

"I want to go to one of the private rooms."
I told him.

He stayed silent, pursing his lips and staring at me.
"Marian, are you sure-"

"Yes." I stayed, not missing a beat.

He glanced around.
"F-fine. Come on."

He put an arm around my back and rested it on my waist and hid us with his wings as if to keep our identities from prying eyes.

I had to try my best not to walk too fast. I wanted it so bad and having to wait was more than taxing.

Eventually we got to a room. Each of the private rooms was designed like this one- a bed in the center of the far wall from the door, a closet, though empty, in the right corner and an attached bathroom to the left side.

From being here long enough, I knew these rooms were cleaned every night by some sort of magic.

Ashitaka closed and locked the door. I turned to him and approached him. He faced me and found himself against the door. I was hit with some hesitation for a moment before his arms wrapped around my back and pulled me close to him. He allowed his eyes to scan my body up and down.

"Why was I hesitant to say yes? You body is so perfect."
He murmured.

I smiled at him, trying to ignore the feeling of him against me and focus on his eyes. His eyes, now up close, I could see were different shades of brown and had flecks of gold in them. I leaned in and kissed him. He kissed back passionately, no hesitation.

His hands started to trace my sides, moving up and down from my shoulders to my hips and back again.

His touch was so different than anyone else's. Where as theirs was always pure lust, I couldn't sense something stronger behind his hands. Love.

When we broke apart we were both slightly breathing heavy. He started to back me up slowly to the bed. His hands started to slip underneath my shirt as our lips connected again.

There was a rush of cold as my shirt was removed over my head quickly as we both broke for breath. He pushed me onto the bed and hovered over me, his arms on each side of me and his knees on the bed to support himself. His face was close enough I could feel his breath on my lips.

Panting some and my heart racing, I spoke.
"Move your body, use your body
Lose control. Rub it right up against my body.
Take my body; make it yours."

He started to move against me, speaking himself as well.
"We're gonna light this room on fire.
Yeah you and I will burn it up tonight.
The two of us are gonna fuel this fire.
No way in hell we're slowing down tonight."

He leaned down and started kissing me again.

*in the main floor*

Yani sat alone at a table. She had seen the angel leave the room with someone under his wing, and judge by the red and black skin and fur, the hooves and tail, Yani has guess it was Marian. Especially since she hadn't seen her friend since she went to talk to the angle.

Yani really hoped this worked out. She cared for her friend and knew that the way Lucifer treated her was not fair. But no one could deny him, not even his own sister, not truly.

Yani sighed and took another sip of her drink.
Suddenly screams broke out. Her head snapped up as a black smoke formed in the main floor and a clearing was made around the smoke. People gasped as a being emerged.

He wore no shirt, exposing his red skin and black tattoos all over his neck, chest and arms. Great big horns were on either side of his head and his tail moved back and forth as he scanned the crowd. His eyes eventually landed on Yani. The crowd was almost deathly quiet as he moved through them. Yani felt her heart start to speed up as he approached.

The music started up again as he left the floor and walked up to her.

"Yani." He growled, his tail lashing.

"Lucifer." She greeted, trying to act nonchalant.

"Where is she?" He hissed.

"Who?" She asked, picking up her glass again.

Lucifer sighed.
"Marian."

"Who's that again?" She joked.

Lucifer growled and grabbed Yani's wrist.

"Tell me where she is, siren, or I swear, I will pluck every feather from your body in front of the whole of Infernum until you are a bloody pulp."

"F-fine." Yani stuttered.
"Sh-she's in a private room. With an angel."

"An angel!?" He roared, digging his nails into her wrist.

Yani screeched and yanked her now bleeding arm back as he let go.

"I'll deal with you later." He hissed.

Yani then flew off towards the exit, leaving before Lucifer could stop her.

He growled and stomped down the hallway where the private rooms were, knowing where they are from previous times of retrieving his lover.

*in the private room*

I sat up, pushing Ashitaka off of me just before the door swung open. My heart sank as Lucifer stood in the doorway. A few creatures stood behind him, taking in the scene of myself with Ashitaka. I had simply my undergarments on, and Ashitaka wore no shirt.

"Come Marian. We're going home."
Lucifer hissed, paying little to no attention to Ashitaka or the creatures behind him.

Flashbacks of previous times came to head. I didn't want to go through that, not again. No, this time, I would not let it happen.
"No." I said.

"Excuse me?" Lucifer questioned, his voice dropping.

"I said no!" I shouted.

"How dare you-"
He took only a step towards me before Ashitaka threw himself between us, displaying his wings and shielding me with them.

"She said no. You don't control her here. Even if you are Lucifer, your magic is unusable here and no one has to bow down to you."

The crowd gathering grew a bit louder as more people gathered. There had never been this much of a scene before and my checks heated at the number of creatures around.

Lucifer growled.
"You dare challenge me?"

Ashitaka glanced at me.
"For her, yes."

Lucifer laughed.
"You do know she's an whore, right? She's a good for nothing, useless, whore."
Ashitaka looked to me. I hid my face and shut my eyes. My ears were angled down abasing my head as I tried to block out the words that were the truth, yet hurt. They stung because they were the truth.
"She comes around here at least every week, and I have to come pull her out of here."

I met Ashitaka's gaze before he turned back to Lucifer.
"I don't care. She obviously doesn't want you, and yet you won't let her go. And that I can't sit here and watch."

My ears perked up. He was the first one to ever really stand up for me against Lucifer.

"Is that so? Fine. Then you won't be standing. You'll be dead."

Lucifer launches at Ashitaka, who meets him halfway. They go tumbling over the floor. Yells break out in the crowd as the two men grappled at each other.

I watch the fury of claws and feathers before I hear a horrific snap and Ashitaka scream in agony. Lucifer gets up and stands back as Ashitaka holds his wing, which has a bend in a place there was not one before. Scratches from Lucifer's claws bled out. Ashitaka was still as he lay on the ground, still alive but unable to get up.

I cover my mouth.

Lucifer speaks.
"Angel wings are sensitive. But also fragile. Now then. Ashitaka, nice of you to show Marian a good night, but I'm afraid this is where it e-"

I ran towards Lucifer and pushed him, making him almost fall over. He regained balance and glared at me only to have a hoof come towards his face. He stumbled. I went to swing a fist at him, but he caught my hand and pull me close to him. Shadows began to envelope us. I tried to push away but his grip was tight on me.

When the shadows faded away, we were in our bedroom.

Lucifer finally let me go as I pushed away again.

He growled.
"Again? Again!? What have I done wrong, Marian? I gave you shelter, I gave you all the food you could eat, all the jewels you could want and all the service you'd ever need! Are you that ungrateful!?"

I wanted to scream, I wanted to punch him, I wanted to run away.

But I was too scared to even say anything.

He approached me and I started to step backwards. He only continued to press me until I hit the wall. This situation had happened so many times. Too many times. He grabbed my arms and pinned them against them down by my side.

"If you're so desperate. Then you'll get it from me. Not from Azriel. Not from Jerod. Not even from Shelia. And certainly not Ashitaka.
You get it from me, and me alone."
He hissed as he started to force me to the bed.

I started to almost cry as he began to undress himself. Then he came over and straddled me, like every time before. He stripped me naked.
And he did things any other girl would only fantasize of.

But they were things I hated. Things I wanted to leave behind me. Things I wish I could've stopped.

When he was finished having his way and I was left broken and shaking, he stood up, dressed and tidied himself, leaving me utterly devastated.

"I have things to attend to."
He spoke, not even bothering to face me.
"Don't think your punishment is over."

He left the bedroom, the doors locking behind him.

I cried.

Having tried before I know those doors can only be unlocked from the outside or by his power. And the windows were barred. And the room was specific bounded against my magic.

He had me trapped.

I stood, tears still falling to get some clothes.

I pass by the full-body mirror and look myself over. Small horns poke out from underneath my wavy black hair. My eyes are dark, almost a black. My face is round and my features relatively soft. My shoulders are narrow and my hips wide. My legs are similar to that of a goat. And rather than feet, I have hooves. My skin is a dull red and the fur around my wrists and ankles are black my my hair.

I stop looking myself over and go to my clothes drawer. I pull out a dress that I got a long time ago. I pull it on over some undergarments garments.

I sat on the bed, awaiting his return.

Then I started thinking.
And I started crying.

Why should I stay?
I'm never going to get away from him. He's never going to let me go. And he doesn't even care about me. No one ever has. His sister is the only one who ever showed any compassion, and even she has stopped trying. I'm broken and no one and no thing can save me.

I got up and crossed to his side of the room.
I pulled open the drawers until I found what I was looking for.

I pulled out a dagger. It had a bejeweled handle. It was not practical, but the blade was functional. I looked myself in the mirror again.

I could see why he didn't care about me.

I'm useless. I exist to look pretty and to be his lover. Nothing else. But I give up. I don't want to suffer anymore.

"I'm sorry Yani. I'm sorry Ashitaka. But this is what needs to be done."
I raised the dagger to my chest.

I heard the door unlock.

But it was too late as the dagger Pearce's my heart and I fell back, my vision fading. The last thing I saw was Lucifer over me with the only hint of emotion besides anger I've ever seen.

He had tears in his eyes as I drifted away and left the world.