I don't want to be here. I want to leave.

I want to distract myself with some other thing. But my ride out of here is not ready to go.

I just ruin everyone's chances at a happy ending. I haven't even told some people, maybe I never will.

If I was here with less people or if I wasn't here at all I might not ruin every chance we have at a peaceful resolution.

I don't want to be here. But I can't leave.

Screw life, screw it all. What does it matter if I do something irresponsible.

No-one's here for me cause they're all fighting their own battles.

And my feelings aren't the most important.