I need to get out of my own head
Before it crumples me up
Struggling to breathe, to resurface
I'm drowning in an ocean way too big to hold them
I lose my thoughts
They drift by, a piece of driftwood
Floating then sinking
I'll take all I can get

When a walk might clear your head
But you'd rather end up in bed
Exhausted and energised in the same moment
Who wins
Will I keep picking the easier option
Wanna run away, til it all gets easier

I'm sinking fast and I have no place to go
Wanna run with me til no way is home
Home isn't right without the people by my side
I write lyrics, I'm a lyricist
I draw, I'm a storyteller, a counsellor, a friend, I read
I'm overwhelmed by all the things I do
I should quit it
Stop trying to find my own happiness the way others have found it

I'm an individual and I'm lonely
Keep throwing rocks at stone pillars
Look! They broke
While I'm fine
I need no-one
Why does my heart tell me I need someone
A listener, a place to be
No longer pleasing others, just a place to find peace

No longer relatable, no longer trying to please
Man, I wish I could be like that
Not let the trends or manipulation get me
Just be me with no drawbacks or neccessities

This mask has never broken
Stayed in place for too long
Now you'll find it's stuck with superglue
The ghost of their past only now deciding to show
As much as you try to hold onto who you used to be
It's only a glimpse of the past you see

My words, fears and images
Take root in a fictional universe
Trying to escape but only bringing closer
The dreaded concoction of salt water
If my fears are what they want, I'll write them on a page
And I'll let them decide the flavour of glaize.

With the enemy working against you
But who says they want to hurt you
I'd keep locked in a prison if it was my choice
Run from the empty space that formed in my heart
I can't get over the illusion
That a different choice woulda made it right

Loneliness is not something you choose
It often doesn't come in twos
Why even if you're in a room full of people
You feel the familiar heaviness, emptyness and betrayal
I don't wanna socialize
But when I do, it doesn't make a dent
No-one cares cause you're not depressed
It's not a mental illness