Lately, if I sing a song enough... then I start putting emotion into it.

I think that's the missing piece of the puzzle that my friends just can't seem to grasp. You can sing a song amazing, great... if it has emotion it means nothing. But that means I start getting sad...

I'm sitting in my closet, the door open... sorta regretting it cause my butt hurts and it just makes it worse but whatever.

I might start crying and I have no good reason. I'm just going to keep replaying the song so that it's not quiet. I can't deal with quiet.

Part of me wants someone to read this and idfk but another part of me doesn't want them to read this because my problems are the most insignificant shit. I don't even know why I want to cry.

Nothing bad happened to me, I have a good life and nothing's wrong. I'm fine... I'm just a little lonely but who isn't?

I'm gonna

Now people are mad at me because I had an attitude, you don't know what I'm going through... I'm hiding in a closet, do you think I'm okay?
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Everyone thinks they know me, because I guess they do.

I'm the nice kid, always helping others out.

Do I ever feel anything other than happiness, the answer should be no.

But I can feel the lake of emotions pooling under the surface, waiting for the day I stop pretending I dont feel them.
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Nathaniel shook her hand, remembering when he really knew Natalie. That seemed so in the past now...

When he thought about it, she was never nice but he thought he knew her better than this. Turns out she wasn't what he thought she was.