I don't feel like I fit in with them, the people mourning. That's probably only because I cover up my sadness, mostly with anger and after that I'm numb. I can become numb very quickly, it's my normal state half the time. Sorry, you probably aren't here to learn about my life/wellbeing.

I'll get on with it, I guess.

All I can be is an onlooker...

I won't let my walls down
You'll never see me cry
And if you do...
Then I've failed to hide
The sorrow inside

Hey guys, I'm completely fine.

They are taking the death better than expected.

It's okay to cry.

I know but I can't, I have to protect all of you. I'll deal with it on my own.

*But you won't will you?*

I will, when I get around to it.

*When will that be?*

I don't know, stop bugging me.

*Ugh.*

It's okay to cry.

You have to let it all out.

I'm sorry but I can't...

I'm truly sorry.