I didn't have the guts to say no

I've loved him for such a long time

He can't see and I feel horrible. I'll never get to know whether his eyes were going to be a nice chocolate brown, sky blue like mine, or a beautiful emerald.

He'll never get to see his brown hair swooping to the left side of his face. The soft skin I wish to feel under my fingertips. He won't get to see that the angelic tenor singing is his own.

I don't enjoy the kisses and hugs from my boyfriend like I used to.

I desperately wish to taste his lips. To feel the softness, and place my lips on his plump ones. I have to restrain myself not to kiss him.

I bet his cuddles are the best thing in the world.

I wish I could say 'I do' to him.

I wish I didn't have to pretend to be in love with someone else.

I wish I didn't have to kiss anyone but him.

I wonder if he imagines what I look like. My blonde hair, blue eyes, really tall.

I tell him my outfits everyday, hoping he can imagine my fashion style.

Does he love me like I love him?

The tears sting my eyes as I cry to sleep every night, knowing I'll never have him as my own.

I know I will never get to kiss his lips for just a second.

Why?

My wedding is soon and my fiancé invited him.

I wish he didn't have anything but eyes.

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