He slammed me up against the wall harshly, the feeling of the bricks digging into my back as his hand tightens around my throat, my eyes watering from the pain but that's the only sign I allow to show. He enjoys when I cry out, so I have learned to not make any more noise.

"My beautiful little butterfly, why won't you grace me with the sound of your voice?" he taunts as a large, calloused hand makes its way between my legs and inside my panties. Helping himself to what ever he wants from me.

When my body responds automatically he grins, his clammy breath sliding across my cheek to my ear as he whispers, "You have no idea what you do to me my love. No idea." he licks a path from the corner of my mouth to my ear. I shiver in disgust, some times my reactions happen without my consent.

He pulls his hand out of my panties, then licks them clean while making sure to hold eye contact with me. I know better than to look away, now. When I was first brought here I fought so hard, I never could win. Now, I have been here for two years so I have learned what he likes, doesn't like and what is expected of me.

He says he loves me, that we are dating and together. But I am locked in his bedroom, chained to the bed. I can move around the room and go to the bathroom but he got rid of all of the windows that look outside, except for the giant glass roof he had installed. I wasn't getting enough sunlight and started to get sick so he turned the roof into glass. I am allowed out of the bedroom once in a while but that is only when he is in a good mood or he wants to celebrate something with me. For the one year of me being here he took me out for supper, as much as I wanted to escape, it was actually a nice evening.

"We will have time later for me to allow you to get off, but first my love we need to talk." he kisses me and I kiss him back, I know if I don't he will beat me. He picks me up under my  thighs and carries me over to the bed, laying us down so my head is on his chest.

 Today is exactly two years since he kidnapped me saying that I was perfect for him. When no one came for me after a year I had just given up, I mean, since I am stuck here I started thinking that life could always be worse.

He doesn't really beat me, yes he slams me up against the wall and will backhand me once in a while but he is very dominant. The only time he has ever beaten me was when I would fight him at every turn. Back when I thought my family or friends would have fought tooth and nail to find me. But after a year of not even seeing my face as a missing person I knew no one cared.

"Since we have been together for two years my love, I was thinking that maybe we need to discuss taking the next step in our lives. I'm thinking we need to get married and start thinking about having a family." he smiles down at me, a hand gently stroking the side of my face. I look up at him and see he isn't joking about this. So I put on my loving smile, and play the shy card, he likes when I do this.

"You really mean it?" I ask in a soft voice, he chuckles before adjusting so we are nose to nose.

"Yes baby, I love you so much. You are my whole world." he leans forwards kissing me passionately. I wrap my arms around his neck and kiss him back, his teeth bite down on my bottom lip and he pulls causing me to moan into the kiss. It hurts, but he likes it and anything I can do to make him happy makes my existence better.

"Yes, let's get married. I love you too Simon." I say as I fake cry, making my eyes tear up. He wipes away my fake tears, believing them to be happy tears. He kisses me and proceeds to start getting handsy. He strips me naked and helps himself to his own happy ending, never being considerate enough to let me finish.

He takes off the condom and cleans up before climbing back into bed and pulling me close. He kisses me a few more times, before we both adjust while still cuddling so we could go to sleep.

"Good night my love." he snuggles into my neck, so I wrap my arms around his neck and cuddle in getting comfortable.

"Good night love." I press a kiss to his chest like I always do, he humms in contentment and we close our eyes falling asleep together.

His alarm goes off at exactly five thirty in the morning, another day. He pulls me closer, snuggling close. I stay still, not sure what kind of mood he is in yet. After a couple minutes he pulls away and climbs out of bed, grabbing clothes and going into the large bathroom and having a shower. I stay in bed, he didn't say anything which means he doesn't want me to join him, this I was thankful for.

He comes out wrapped in a towel, he has a nice firm body. Toned but not huge with muscles, his arms are my favorite feature. I hate that I have started to enjoy my time with him, I even find myself unconsciously doing things for him just to see him smile. He kidnapped me, locked me up, has all but broke me and yet I still find myself wanting him.

"Are you ready to spend the day with me my love?" he asks, coming up to me with the keys to my chain. When he takes a day off of work, he allows me off my chain on one condition, I am to stay by his side and if someone is around I don't speak unless spoken to.

I smile and nod my head yes, he smiles back and unlocks my cuff. He rubs my ankle which is red from the cuff, he frowns then looks up at me with guilt in his eyes. I hate when I see conflicting emotions in his eyes, it makes it harder for me to be upset about my situation. But slowly I feel myself falling for him, but he takes care of me and actually looks after me. If anyone else had cared about me I would have at least been reported missing.

"You go have a hot shower my love, take your time today. I want to treat you today in celebration to us taking the next step in our relationship. When you are done and dressed come down to the kitchen." he smiles as he hands me what I am to wear for the day, he kisses my cheek and gently pushes me to the bathroom. I am so excited, usually I am only allowed to shower once every three days. I had just showered yesterday, so for him to allow me another one today and for it to be hot shower I was happy.

"Thank you so much love. I promise I will." I agree excitedly, he chuckles and gets dressed as I rush into the bathroom. I turn on the water, adjusting it the way I like and climb in. I stand under the showerhead as the hot water flows down my face, my chest, thighs and runs down each of my legs making my whole body relax.

I take a little extra time and shave just to make sure everything is the way he likes. I wash up with his favorite scented products, he loves the smell of coconut on me. Says it works with my body chemistry and is his favorite smell so that is all I am allowed to use. Once I finish rinsing my body and hair I shut off the shower and get ready for the day.

Once I was dressed in the lacy matching bra and pantie set, and cute little white summer dress that he picked out I brushed out my long blonde hair and left it to air dry. My hair had natural loose curls to them so when it air dries it looks adorable on me, or at least that's what he says. I finish off with some coconut body mist and go straight down to the kitchen.

I can smell food cooking, that's not normal. Usually he makes me cook for him on his days off while he watches me. I walk in and see him at the stove frying sausages and eggs, I can smell the fresh coffee and see toast is even down. He turns and smiles at me, this makes me smile and I walk over to him.

"Do you want me to help you love?" I offer, he shakes his head no as he hands me a cup of coffee mixed the way I like it.

"No my love, you sit down. Let me cook for you today." he winks and goes back to the food, so I take my coffee and sit down at the table at my regular spot, watching as he cooked. He is always so confident in everything he does, even when I can tell he isn't comfortable he still exudes a confidence that shows he is capable of doing anything. 

I have found lately he seems more relaxed around me than normal. I mean he has always had a caution towards me. I guess I don't blame him either, the first year here I thought if I lulled him into a false sense of happiness that I could escape. That was a mistake, not only did he lock me away and not visit me unless it was to feed me or satisfy himself, but he also made sure to drill into my head what was expected of me.

The day he really broke me was the day before one year of being here when he allowed me to watch the news and check on the internet to see for myself that no one was looking for me. I searched the internet for anything but there wasn't anything at all. He had told me he never intended to keep me locked away but because I was being so difficult he didn't have any other choice. If I would just cooperate and learn to live the way he wants, he told me I would have my freedom within his control.

That is why he took me out of the house for our one year, he saw the defeat in my eyes when I realized no one cared about me, except him. He knew he had broken me, that was when he started trusting me with little things. Once I had a full understanding of what he wanted is when he started unchaining me when I was good. I got a taste of being out of the bedroom, regardless if I was stuck around him or not, that is all it took.

"What would you like to do today my love?" he asks as he loads two plates up with food, I am confused, why would he ask what I want to do?

"Umm I don't know honestly." I answer, he sits down and sets down each plate then takes a seat beside me.

"Well, I was thinking to get married I am just going to set it up with an officiant and have our two witnesses. Thankfully my brother and his wife have already agreed to do it." I felt my heart sink, his brother is in on the whole kidnapping and keeping me away from the world. It wouldn't suprise me if he is the reason no one has ever looked for me because he is a police officer.

"Fantastic news." I say hiding my disappointmet.

"So if I can have it set up for this afternoon, we will need to go shopping. Now you won't get a big expensive wedding dress but I will take you to buy a beautiful white summer dress whcih will be good enough, and maybe spoil you with a spa appointment together. Would you like that my love?" he smiles, eyes raking over my body.

"A spa treatment would be amazing love." I agree, not really wanting this but a massage would be lovely.

"Good let's eat and I will make some phone calls while you clean up." with that we both went quiet, focusing on our food. Before I know it food is gone, coffee is gone and his gone to his office to make calls. I tidy up the dishes, put everything he used to cook with away before very quickly washing dishes just to get them done.

I had just finished wiping the cupboards down when he walks back into the kitchen with a large smile on his face. I was confused at first, until he spoke.

"You have proven to be an amazing choice my love, not only have you learned quickly what I like and dislike but you have been left alone, in the kitchen in broad daylight and didn't even consider running away once. I want so badly to give you the freedoms you deserve especially in our house. So I think you are ready, I am not chaining you to our bed any more love, but do not mistake this for a weekenss." his eyes darken with the promise of punnishment if I don't behave with my new freedoms.

"Thank you my love," I bow my head trying to appease his anger over the thought of me running away, "You have done so much for me and taken very good care of me. I have no reason to leave you, I love you so much." I try to come off earnestly, which to be honest, is easier now then it was even a year ago.

He smiles widely and comes close, wrapping his arms around my waist and just staring into my eyes with a soft smile. I wrap my arms around his neck and hold eye contact with a small smile on my face. His beautiful eyes are just captivating, I love how they are a beautiful honey brown with some dark green around the iris's.

There I go again thinking I have feelings for him, I can't. He is a monster that kidnapped me, he has kept me against my will and taken liberties with my body that were not his to take. Like my virginity.

"I love you so much Penny, you are the best thing to have ever happened to me." he whispers as he pulls me closer. I hold tight, knowing he is getting emotional. God what has he done to me? I have learned him so well that I know what he needs before he even needs it. No wonder part of me feels like I could love him.

We get dressed and leave, he confirmed that his brother and his wife will be at the court office for three thirty pm, and from my understanding they started out the same way. He kidnapped her and she fell in love with him. I was always told its stockholm syndrom but living the exact same life as she did, I wonder if it really is. I mean, you spend a lot of time with someone and if they are as direct as Simon has been with me, then I knew exactly what to do to make things easier on me. 

He treats me good enought that I truly believe that it can always be worse, I mean its not like I am living in fear for my life, its not like he abuses me and leaves me lying in a puddle of my own blood. He is strict, he takes percaution but he isn't mean and he makes sure that I have everything I could ever need. If that isn't love then I don't know what is. Maybe I have fallen in love with him.

He pulls up to the mall and I take a moment to just look at him, but as soon as we park he is out of the vehicle and over to my side to open my door. He is a very strong believer in being a gentleman. I wait like I know to do, so when my door is opened and his hand is offered I take it with a loving smile.

We take our time, walking hand in hand. He finds a jewlery store and gets a ring for both of us, a dress and a cute pair of low heels for me. We go for our spa treatement and he allows me to get my toes and finger nails done, my hair is cut and styled beautifully and I even got my massage. He did it because the masuse was a male and that was a big no go, but I still got one.

It was finally time to get married, we pulled up to see his his brother Jay and his wife Christina waiting for us. I kept my head down, and waited to be spoken to just like Christina did. It must have been a control thing becuase both brothers want the same thing. Only I noticed the signs of physical abuse on her the moment we got out of the vehicle.

I feel so bad for her, but they are legally married and I would make her life so much worse if I tried to help her escape. We both seem to have accepted our fate at this point in time.

"Such a wonderful day Simon, I am proud of you and your soon to be wife." Jay claps Simon on the shoulder, Simon returns the gesture.

"Yes brother, it is a day to remember. I am even allowing my little butterfly the same freedoms that your wife has earned." he chuckles, I can feel eyes on me but I know better then to look up.

"Is that so, just be careful with that. This one tried to decieve me once after our wedding and I had to resort to a more drastic teachings." I hear Christina's breathing pick up, he chuckles.

"Yes well my beautiful little butterfly has been better behaved then yours since day one brother." I can hear the smirk in Simon's voice as his arm slides around my waist. "Shall we love?" he asks, I turn and look at him with a smile on my face.

"Of course love, when ever you are ready. I am ready." I am actually excited, I never have to worry about anything in my life except keeping him happy and giving him children. I can handle that. With that we went in, there was paperwork to fill out which Simon did for me I just signed where he told me to.

It was a short cerimony and before I knew it we were married. Jay and Christina came back to the house, so Christina and I were told to cook a meal as the boys were inviting their family over. Jay made sure that Christina had instructions to tell me what will be happening with the family.

"I am escaping tonight." is the first thing she said to me when we were finally left alone. I stopped from grabbing stuff to cut up a salad and stared at her.

"Are you sure you have thought this through?" I ask quietly, unsure what to say or do. I don't want to be apart of it if she is going to fail, yet part of me doesn't want to leave at all either. Then again she didn't ask me to go with her either.

"Yes and I have already accepted that if I can't get away I am going to kill myself." she admits, showing me the gun she has strapped to her side. The doorbell rings and she smiles and pulls me into a hug.

"Good bye, please escape while you can. Your family misses you dearly. Jay has been writing them fake letters from you. They think you are studiying abroad and fell in love." she tells me before she takes off out the back door.

I turn around to grab salad again, then think about it, I know what she is planning. If I don't say anything I could be in a lot of trouble. I can't escape, I also can't let my family know the truth either.

I stepped out of the kitchen into the hallway, Simon notices me first and I am now somewhat frantic because I don't want to lose what we have gained so far. He sees this and comes towards me, backing me into the kitchen. That is when he notices that his brother's wife is gone.

"Where is she?" I can hear the anger in his voice.

"She told me she was leaving and if she can't escape she is killing herself. She has a gun love." a tear falls down my cheek without my consent, I was actually worried that he would punish me.

"She admitted to you?" he asked I nodded my head yes but didn't look him in the eye. His finger grabs my chin with more force then necessary. "Words my little butterfly." he is angry. I stare him in the eyes before speaking.

"Yes I was going to make salad for tonight and she told me her plan. She showed me the gun. She also told me to run and I told her I don't want to." I admitted, my cheeks reddening at actually admitting it.

"Good girl." he kisses my forehead before wrapping an arm around me and leading me out to where Jay is.

"Brother your wife ran, she has a gun and will kill herself if she cannot escape you. Yes she told my wife and I suggest you move quickly." Jay's eyes widened before he glared at me.

"You put this idea into her fucking head." he raised his hand to hit me but Simon stood in his way.

"Focus on your wife, this is mine and she did nothing wrong." he growled, Jay took off running and I stayed cuddled up with Simon. 

"Oh dear, that isn't good. Well then shall we just order in food?" an older woman I have never met before spoke.

"Wonderful idea mom, where would you and dad like to eat?" Simon asked as a very loud gunshot went off causing me to jump and flinch while moving closer to Simon who pulled me close.

"Hmm, guess Jay won't be back. Yes, I want pizza tonight. I know it isn't a fancy meal after your wedding, but do you really need fancy?" who I am guessing is Simon and Jay's dad spoke. THe men left the room to order pizza and the older woman sat beside me wtih a kind smile on her face.

"Life is what you make it darling, remember that." she smiled kindly patting my leg, I smile knowing exactly what she meant. That means I made the right decision by staying becuase I could always end up dead.

The End.