One of the lessons that I am still learning is Life isn't a safe predicted formula. but I like to think of it as life is unpredictable. I know this because I felt it first-hand. When it was just my second year of high school my life changed. I mean changed big time.

I started to eat less, I wasn't lively like I used to be. I changed because I was trying to be like the perfect person. I learned that my life was a mess only because I was shown that. I 2020 was the year of my sophomore year of high school. This was the year of covid. But it begins in the beginning of the year.

At the beginning I was doing the same thing that I always do, Cross Country. I was running one day and halfway through the work out I felt faint and dizzy. I was shaking bad and didn't know what was going on. I stopped thinking that i need water, so I drank some. It seemed to have stopped. The next day I was in the middle of class and started to shake. Just randomly shake. I didn't know what it was, but I needed to know.

Turns out I have Hypoplasia. Which means that if I don't eat within a certain time frame I start to shake because my blood sugar tanks. But it's not diabetes. I was also diagnosed with extreme anxiety. This was not in my plan for life. I want plaining in having anxiety, nor having to schedule my eating times. I wasn't planning on any of thins but it comes to show that life isn't a safe predictable formula.

You must do things to you own beat. I learned that. The things that I did just to figure all this out was extremely painful. In 2021 I had about one doctor appointment a month, if not more. It was all because I was had mental issues that I didn't know about. I started to tick. i was ticking uncontrollably but didn't know why. It was brought to my attention that it was due to anxiety. I wasn't aware at that time that I had it, but I now do.

I didn't calculate this in my plan for life nor all the things that I learned. I know now what I need to do to live the life that I want too. This was just some examples that i must see that there is nothing safe nor predictable about the formula of life.