This for the kids who never felt affection,

This for kids whose parents wont accept them,

Saying they love everyone except them,

iKnow what its like to feel alone,

iKnow what its like to to need a home,

iKnow what its like to not know what it's like,

to have a love you can call your o w n.

Those voices that were triggered by the congesting traffic in your head, those voices that screamed at you, jabbed and twisted at your heart strings as you knelt and bled. 

Those voices that taunt at you when you win, that taunt at you when you lose, kept you up at night, and formed the desire to hide at daylight.

Those voices, those voices I told you about when I was young, those whispers, those words, those syllables spoken with such abhorrence that they sucked the oxygen dry out of my lungs.

iScreamed, you came, I cried,

You told me to be quiet.

iBegged, you walked away, I asked you to stay, you left and told be to pray.

So I prayed...

and prayed...

and prayed.

There came a point when I thought that my tear covered letters where in line getting delayed,

When really, deep down, I was wondering if my prayer would give me back my dragon slayer.

The one that promised he was going to protect me from the big bad wolves, only to abandon me chasing me to run to the very thing that ate at my soul since I was twelve. 

- So in your place, above my shattered heart, guarded by my frail arms, beneath my trembling lips, replaced in your place a teddy bear.

I've learnt to embrace my nightmares and twist them into a beauty, let them swallow me, let them indulge in me. It is my only form of medical care.

"God I'm sure of this I swear
Even if I never make it—it's okay
Because I know that you're there."