His fingers gently swept away the hair that had formed a dark curtain around her head and left him bereft of looking at her face, she tried not to tremble as his fingers gently cradled her face and made her look at him, his onyx eyes reflecting longing and something else, something tender, something so new but also familiar, the look in his eyes made her want to curl up into his arms, but she was scared, she didn't want to be vulnerable in front of him, she didn't want to express her fears, her aspirations and her dreams to him, she was scared that the minute she did it would cease to matter for him, it did for everyone else, even if she knew that he wasn't like everyone else, she was still scared.

He seemed unrelenting in his cause, his voice gentle and his tone making her want to hug him and never let him go, his eyes compelling her to talk to him, to tell her deepest secrets, to trust him with her fears, to trust him with the parts of her that were hurting, yet she didn't want to, her heart hurt enough already. She didn't want more hurt and pain, and so she yelled at him, cursed at him, he changed, he changed for that girl, and she hated it, she hated that her Shiva was not her Shiva anymore, the fact that he changed himself, that he put in so much effort for her, she remembered how he stood up for his identity and his clothing when he was mocked by Rishita in the Haveli, and now he changed? And for whom her? Anger steadily took over every other emotion she felt, she was itching to throw something away, to see it break into pieces like she did, like she had been ever since she saw him with her.

Shiva felt the familiar onslaught of anger evade him at her words, she was always like this jumping to conclusions, she knew so well to read in between the lines, she understood him without him having to say anything, she stood by him with out any questions asked, and yet she couldn't see that all he did was for her, all his effort all his pain and all his love, everything was for her.

He wanted to scream at her, shake her until it got into her pretty little head that he loved her, only her no one else, but he knew he couldn't do that, not yet, she cared for him that he knew, but he didn't know if she loved him and he was scared to find out the answer to that question, but he had to. Putting the plate of food aside her wrapped an arm around her waist, her hands formed tiny fists against his chest and she looked away from him, pouting like a petulant child, the anger that had overwhelmed him was long gone, how could he stay mad her? Her with her sparkling eyes, wide smile and infectious laughter, he craved to listen to her little giggles once again, he promised to himself he would have her smiling and giggling in his arms, soon.

She tried to move away from him as he wrapped his arm around her, pulling her flush to his chest, she squirmed and fisted her palms against his chest so as to stop herself from holding onto him. Oh how she wanted to hug him and never let go, she wanted to stay in his arms, the feeling of his muscled arms and the heat he radiated was too tempting to stay away from, she wanted to cave and just stay there, held by him.

His hand cupped her cheek and he made her look up at him, her eyes filled up with tears at his tenderness, oh how she had craved for this, for him to hold her gently and lovingly, to hold her through her pain and stand by her, she wanted him, no one but him could make her smile like she did, no one but him to make her almost explode with anger and no one but him would make her want to cross hell over an over again, only him and just for him, all she felt, and all of her, for Shiva.

Gazing at her teary eyes made him want to cry too, he didn't like the sight of tears in her eyes, the light brown depths of her eyes that used to sparkle with joy were now staring at him with so much pain, he wanted to take all her pain away, he had to, her pain hurt him manifold.

"Raavi, tere liye tha, sabb kuch tere liye hi tha, koi aur nahi nahi mere liye, tu hi hai"

"Toh phir usse aane kyun diya, mujhko khud se door kyun kiya, talaak kyun de raha tha"

"Tere liye toh jaan bhi dedu, par meri jaan ki kya tulna tere saamne Raavi, tu inti pyaari itni sundar, aur main junglee aur jaahil, ekk poora gawar?"

Raavi's heart hurt with more pain as she heard him speak, her heart broke for the man in front of her, even now he was breaking trying to keep her together.

"Tu aisa nahi hai Shiva, tu toh sabse accha hai, agar tu nahi toh koi nahi Shiva, agar tu mere laayak nahi toh main iss duniya ki laayak nahi, tere bina reh nahi sakoongi, dukh dard se ubarna seekh gayi par tumhare bina jeena nahi seekh paaungi, toot jaaungi main"

The broken heart he had been nursing had put itself together after every word she spoke, and unbridled joy and love filled his being, he could love her way she deserved to, nothing could stop him now.

"Tere laayak nahi hoon, par kya karoon tera hi hoon, kabhi kisi aur ka bann na hi nahi hai mujhe, tere bin sab adhoora lagta hai, I promise kabhi nahi rulaunga tuhje"

"Agar tu mere laayak nahi, toh koi mere laayak nahi yaad rakh, tu mera sab kuch hai Shiva, pata nahi kab bann bangaya, abhi tere bin nahi reh paauingi main"

A few whispered sentences was all it took for her to crash into his arms wailing like a baby, holding onto him for dear life, never to let go of him. She sobbed harder, the pain she had been holding onto finally being let out of her, her arms went around his torso and she hugged him tight, he pressed a kiss onto her forehead and she smiled as she sobbed, his arms held her tighter.

He looked at the door, still left wide open, Krish was standing outside, with tears in his eyes, Shiva smiled at him and nodded, Krish gently closed the door and walked away. Letting them be in their bubble.

She couldn't stop smiling as he sat her down on his lap and fed her the food, she bit on his finger lightly and giggled at his shocked expression, he smiled as he heard her giggle, he would let her bite him over and over again if it meant she would giggle and laugh like she was.

As he kept the plate back and walked back into their room, he was greeted with a hug, right at their doorstep, he didn't want to let go, and so kicking the door shut with his foot, her lifted her slightly, her legs came around his waist and he smiled, content at having her in his arms.

"Jaan hai tu meri"

"Tu mera sab kuch"

She nestled further into his arms and he walked towards their bed, sitting down with her still in his lap, smiling as she nuzzled her nose into his chest.

"Jaan"

"Hmmm"

"Change karna hai mujhe"

"Main nahi chod ne waali"

Shiva shook his head amused at her, well he was wearing jeans and a T-Shirt, his jeans were comfortable enough, he supposed he could get rid of his shirt with her in his lap, guiding her hands to the bottom of his T-Shirt he indicated her too pull it off of him, raising his arms as she pulled it over his head, as soon as the shirt was off of his body she cuddled deeper into him, her palms roving over his torso, curious and exploring, he tucked his head into her neck, nuzzling at her and she burst into a loud giggle, his beard was scratchy and it tickled, Shiva smiled and kissed her, nuzzling once again, enjoying the way she was giggling in his arms. Happy and content. All was well again, as he sat there with his whole world in his arms.

I just need you and some sunsets

                                                                       -Atticus

A.N: So this one is like a little re-telling of the ShiVi scene in today's episode! I hope you like this one ~