Okay, so many people can get offended by vents because they don't understand maybe just the word vent or so, or don't know how deep my vents get, or even didn't see my first book where it shows some of my vents, so this is a huge trigger warning for you that I'm more then depressed and it may offended you badly and you would get more depressed or so and I am just saying, don't have to read, I'm not taking blame for you reading my vents, you read my things on your own risk, all of my vents are heavy, they all are and so now we all know and you can honestly skip this chapter Because I can't even like the shit I'm going through, so I will probably ramble or tell a story time or so on the next one, I'm really an interesting person, but again this is a huge trigger warning, you might get upset, I dunno, but yeah, again trigger warning. THIS IS A TRIGGER WARNING FOR YOU, okay and also, these are not my words, these are lyrics because I vent through lyrics, maybe this isn't as bad as my regular vents but maybe is for some reason, it is kinda just a thing that calms me  down, it's a really nice vent reliever or like relaxer, probably wierd, TRIGGER WARNING

I am personally okay, just calming senses Jesus Christ for the last fucking time for fucks sake,

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Okay, thank you

These are not towards anyone here on Wattpad in general

These are great songs btw, I'm not lying, I am sorry the more I write the more calmer I get

I'm sorry *not* that I'm an asshole.

Weather changes moods
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He's the one who likes all our pretty songs and he likes to sing along and he likes to shoot his gun
But he knows not what he means
Knows not what he means
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- In Bloom - Nirvana

Trigger warning, might be offending to people who are optimistic
The world is a vampire,
Sent to drain
Secret destroyers, hold you up to the flames
And what do I get for my pain?
Betrayed desires, and a piece of the
game
.......
Despite all my rage, I'm still just a rat in a cage, then someone says what is lost cannot be saved
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But can you fake it for just one more show?
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- Bullet With Butterfly Wings- Smashing Pumpkins

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YOU MIGHT GET UPSET BY NEXT LYRICS, READ ON YOUR OWN, SELF HARM THINGY

PLEASE HEAR ME JESUS CHRIST,
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ONE MORE TIME, BEFORE ME GO, TRIGGER WARNIN

Today is the greatest day I've ever known, can't live for tomorow, tomorow is much too long,
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Pink ribbon scars
That never forget
I've tried so hard
To cleanse these regrets
My angel wings, were bruised and restrained
My belly stings
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- Today- Smashing Pumpkins

Trigger warning for people who don't like so many apologies

What else should I be?
All apologies
What else could I say?
Everyone is gay
What else could I write?
I don't have the right
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Everything's my fault,
I will take the blame
Aqua seafoam shame
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Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
All in all is all we are
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-  All Apologies- Nirvana

Trigger warning for people who are offended to my bottling up or unhappiness

I'm so happy, cause today I found my friends, they're n my head,
I'm so ugly
.....
I'm so lonely
That's okay, I shaved my head
No, I'm not sad,
And just maybe im to blame
For all I heard
I'm not sure
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I like it, I'm not gonna crack
I miss you, I'm not gonna crack
I love you, I'm not gonna crack
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- Lithium- Nirvana

Trigger warning, it has memories with family, a good one, and with an ex, sorry if your offended by how people remind me
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I'm sick of sight of without a sense of feeling
And this is how you remind me
This is how you remind me of what I really am
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It's not like you to say sorry,
I was waiting on a different story
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And you've been wrong,
I've been down
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These five words in my head screams, "are we having fun yet?"
Yeah, yeah, yeah,
No, no
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It's not like you didn't know that
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- How You Remind Me - Nickleback

Trigger warning, it is about someone dead, might trigger people with people who passed

This time, this place, misused, mistakes, too long, too late
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I love you, I loved you all along,
And I miss you,
Far away, far too long,
I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go
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- Far Away- Nickleback

Trigger warning, I is about a fucker who I hate, might not like anger or so, I dunno

I wake up evening with a big smile on my face, and it never seems out of place
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When you see my face hope it gives you hell, when you walk my way, hope it gives you hell, now where's that picket fence lav? And where's that shiny car, and did it ever gets you far?
You never seem so tense lav
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And truth be told I miss you, and truth be told I'm lying!
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If you find a man whose worth a damn, and treats you well, then he's a fool, you're just as well, hope it gives you hell
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Now you'll never see what you've done to me! You can take back your memories, they're no good to me!
And here's all your lies, you can look me in the eye, with that sad, sad look that you wear so well!
.......
- Gives You Hell - All American Rejects

Trigger warning, maybe make you sad or relate or some shit, I dunno at this point
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But you know that when the truth is told, that you can get what you want or just get old, you're kick off before you get halfway through, when will you realize Vienna waits for you?
Slow down, you're doing fine,
You can't be everything before your time
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Too bad, but it's the life you lead, you're so ahead of yourself, that you forget what you need
Though you can see when you're wrong
You know you can't see when you're right
You got your passion,
You got your pride,
But don't you know only fools are satisfied?
Dream on, but don't imagine that they'll all come true
When will you realize, Vienna waits for you
Slow down you crazy child,
Take the phone off the hook and disapear for a while
It's alright, you can afford to lose a day or two, when will you realize the Vienna waits for you
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-Vienna - Billy Joel

TRIGGER WARNIN YOU MIGHT NOT LIKE DEPRESSION, I DUNNO, MAYBE TRIGGER PANIC ATTACKS

"I'm from the future", that's the last thing they'll hear me say before I uncontrollably shake, so please allow me to shed some darkness, step into the summer time zone,  oh
I don't care if you people like me, it won't make a difference if you don't
.........
- Tighten Up - The Front Bottoms

Trigger warning, it talks about leaving, maybe you don't like goodbyes and like ten thousand hugs from ten thousand lightning bugs instead, you have been warned

You know what I thinks really sad?
I know how really sad you are
..
Just wanted to let you know before I say Au Revoir
You probably know what that means
She says, "that's french, I know what it means, you don't have to be so mean, if you wanna leave, why don't you go?" Right before I walk away I'm pretty sure I hear her say, "Adios"
I bet you think I don't know what that means
Adios, adios
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Rock and roll, rock and roll, you probably don't understand what I mean
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- Au Revoir-  The Front Bottoms

Trigger warning, it talks about objects like pools and love, TRIGGER WARNING

There's comfort in the bottom of a swimming pool,
I'm holding my breath for you,
And there's no doubt in my mind, that if you could then you would try, to crack my rib cage open, and pull my heart right through
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But I'm a creature, of a culture I create, I'm the last one on the dance floor, the candelier gives way,
And I am permanently preoccupied with your pass
I've been around long enough now to know that good things never last, they never...last
There's comfort in the silence of a living room,
The tv is on for you,
Hide in your basement as your house burns down,
Your teeth are loose inside of your gums, they will eventually fall out,
Follow an orange extension cord,
Under a carpet, to a closet door feeding a black light that will someday day make me very,very rich
....
How low?
How low is your self esteem?
How low could be?
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I will stop cutting my pants into shorts, I will address the issues I cannot ignore,
And I will do the things you might like
And I will be alone
Probably for the rest of my life
- Swimming Pools - The Front Bottoms

Trigger warning, it talks about me, and I'm pretty disappointing, so trigger warning

Either swallow it down, or spit it out, but either way let's move along,
I'm radioactive, I'm in peices,
But I am still feeling strong enough to walk away from all of this
The car is crashed, I just don't care!
My followers abandoned me cause papa bear was unprepared
If only you could hold me my sweet, sweet Joanie, I know I would be so brave right now,
Maybe I'll get back to you,
Maybe I haven't learned a thing,
Maybe this is the last time for you but
It's not the last time for me!
I love the things you have to pay for and knock you down and make you dizzy
I got distracted along the way
Shaking hands and looking busy
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Oh, my one and only
You ever think that maybe, I can be one of those things that you hate at first
But eventually learn to love, and then trust and then touch, and then cut, yeah, I bet you will, yeah I bet you will,
I took alot of day trips
Tryna get away trips
Sorry that I've cold lips
Nothing left to say lips
I'm calling double or nothing
On everything that I have
I finally am what I am, a
Fucking bag of bags
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- Joanie - The Front Bottoms

Trigger warning, it is still related to this day, maybe one person will know who it's to, but I dunno maybe your trigged by ackwardness

Ackward situations followed by ackward hugs, and these bullshit conversations take what little air is left inside my- nothing but I'm writing like I had too much to drink, letting go of what we lost
Come to terms of how you think of me
I love what you done, cut off ties, turn and run, build me up, take your fall, let's trade into a wall, and i said, " I personally think it too cold to have the windows open", but you want to smoke your menthol cigarettes
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You can never win with any of the personal problems you put yourself in, and I wish I could pretend to be all the things you see in me, but I'm not that guy, that guy just left, he had his collar up, and there's smoke on his breath
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Is drinking really good after the buzz?
Cause I got some problems and im talking loud
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- Ackward Conversations - The Front Bottoms

Trigger warning, it talks about sleeping on the floor
I would sleep better on your floor,
Then I would ever in my bed, and if your carpet
Makes my face itch,
It would still be heaven in my head,
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She said ," sometimes things just don't work out, the way you want them to,
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It's better me then you, break your neck, and I will love you like the bird that cannot fly, you will be fine"
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I will stop doing all those things the doctor tells me not to do,
But i don't think he understands
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- Jim Bogart - The Front Bottoms

Trigger warning, even though some of this shit may never happen to you
All I want is nothing more
To hear you knocking at my door,
Cause if I see your face once more
I could die a happy man, I'm sure
When you said your last goodbye,
I died a little inside
I lay tears in bed all night
Alone without you by my side
If you loved me,
Why'd you leave me?
Take my body
All I want is, and all I need is,
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- All I Want-  Kodaline

Damn, this is not alright, how the fuck I end up on the other side of life?
No more hanging with my friends
No more riding bikes
No more brushing Barbie's hair
No more flying kites
No more school
No more learning for me
No more youth, no more juice, no more hula hoops or Suzy Q's,
Wish I could kiss my momma goodbye,
And is she ever see me this she be traumatized
No this is not alright, but nothing is,
I barely got to live, I'm justa kid,
Look at me now, look what you fucking did, I'm fucking dead, no this wasn't my fault,
Now I'm speaking with the  lights off,
I don't think they hear me,it ain't no more tv, no more dancing, no more sleep overs or no more candy,no more camping, no more kisses from my daddy,
Cause I left and died. All because this stupid bitch wanted to text and drive
- Frozen - Joyner Lucas

TRIGGER WARNING it's suicide, this one is actually not one to lighten the mood or be an asshole

Go ahead and call me a coward say that I'm not strong because I'm not like you, go ahead and call me crazy because  I live in a maze, tell me how about you,
I think I live in my head, sometimes I think that I'm dead, I hide behind my youth, no, I've been losing my mind and I'm a little behind step inside my shoes, cause I've never been happy with myself and I don't need no one feeling bad for me, trying to offer me outta and throw have at me, wanna give me advice and then laugh at me, behind close doors, just close the doors, let me be myself, just me and myself, I'm tired of living
...
I know that sounds crazy to everyone else but I'm depressed as fuck,
Stressed as fuck
Ain't no medicine that could cure what's the test as drugs
I mean, I need extra love. And that ain't even enough. Said that ain't even enough
And where the fuck is god?
Damn, maybe I ain't believing enough
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I'm probably going to hell
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I ain't picture my life like this, they don't know what's it like. Like this, pretending I'm happy so I can smile and laugh like you,
Sometimes I wonder if I ever act like you, could finally fit in and maybe relax like woo,
Or would you feel lost without me cause honestly I feel like the world is better off without me
And my mind's spinning
....
I don't care how they feel about my feelings
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I guess I'm not the ordinary people, of John legend, and I've been suicidal since nine, shit, okay, the day I was nine
I've been tired of being bullied
Cause, stay out the fire
Grandma told me I should take it one day at a time but damn it, look at me now fuck
- I'm Sorry- Joyner Lucas

Trigger warning, real shit right here, might make you sad or triggered
I don't want to be nothing like you,
I don't want to he just like you
I don't want to be anything like you
I don't want to be just like you
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I don't ever wanna get tripped up, I don't wanna get drunk and high,
..
Look, I don't wanna ever go to jail and shit, serve time and get bailed and shit, be a bum and start stealing shit, fuck around and die and go to hell and shit,
Yo, I don't want to be jobless,
And I don't wanna be heartless
Run around, and try to start shit,
Picking fights, thinking I'm hot shit, yeah, I don't wanna become vengeful, and ain't into what you're into, pray to God I don't run into someone just like you, my own issue, hope one day, that shit does hit you, cause you so goddamn judgemental, and I don't want to- look
I don't nothing like you
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Uh, I don't want to be hopeless,
A pretty girl with no focus,
A single mom with like three kids,
Never had much, never own shit
And no school, no diplomas
Dropped out and don't know shit
Steady sticking my nose in on your business, spreading rumors, uh, I don't wanna be chasing guys
Half ratchet. Half saint defied, giving all your friends lame advice
....
Content with my fucked up life,
Little attitude, acting up tight, never had a clue but I love fights, no,
I don't want to smoke cancer sticks,
Going out every chance I get,
I love the truth but I can't handle it
.....
I need someone to look up to,
A role model I could run to when I feel lost and confused, and I'm outta touch with my young roots, I need confidence all that I can
....
Look, I love how you handle on your own, glad you're the king of your own castle, you handle life when it's thrown at you, never curl, never 'fo fragile, I need you to be here, regardless, teach me how to be there for my kids, show me how to be fearless often, I need a real guidance, I am scared of options, because of me, I've got a clear conscience
Because of me, I'm not scared of monsters,
Because of me, I'm not afraid of failure,
My life is blurry, I made it clearer.
And God forbid, if you died now, I know that I'll be well taken care of, I know you'll be there waiting for me
- Just Like You - Joyner Lucas

Trigger warning, I'm just fucking tired and relate to this shit, Jesus I don't know if it fucking offends you
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When all the kids at school all talk about their parents, and Romeo Jr. Has to say they're not together and junior will dream one day when he's a man, and what he'll do to avoid the fifty percent chance of his kids feeling the way he feels
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Dear Shakespeare, could you write a happy ending please?
We just deserve a happy ending please!
Please...
Every sting from every tear drop
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- Romeo & Juliet - Hobo Johnson

Trigger warning, it talks about a monster I know, might actually trigger, but either way I'm still tired and just got numb after awhile so it doesn't fucking get me shook and even tho I say vents in front of the book in one word it's not enough to show that it's not going to be fucking light subjects because I never seen in my life vents being light, and never fucking needed so badly so many fucking trigger warnings even if no one fuckin is bothered or fucking so

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My dad taught me the stories about the birds and the bees and how the bees turn into a wasp and take half of everything, he sounded sure that a bird doesn't need a full nest but a bed for our bird heads to rest,
He told me son you'll never dunk
What?!
It's family tradition,
Basketball isn't for us,
Our legs just aren't that springy my great great uncle almost did but he didn't!
He told me son, beware of the monsters that roam the depths of your head, that either make you real real sad, or real real mad, or real real jealous and that's real real bad!
Boy breathe!
Nicotine intill you fall asleep like all of our family
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Shape shifting monster who can sometimes take the really nice woman and though that seems super fucking frightening, sometimes the scary monsters makes a really, really, great vanilla pudding. He has courage, but sometimes the courage isn't
Quite the kryptonite,
As the monster runs rampant through the house, sometimes the monster makes you feel strong, but it seems as if the monster eats your muscles all along, fucking picking out your self respect right out it's scary teeth
...
And the monster doesn't sleep it just schemes and friends on the next tasty meal it gets to eat...it gets to eat

Trigger warning, heart ached, also this might offend the person who I know and talk to, fuck it, I don't fucking care tho
Only peach scone will remember this one, don't you peach scone, you might not like me venting after this one scone, so skip it

Hi, what's your name? How are you? How's your life? Oh you got a crush, are you in love, if so what type? Is it just platonic, strictly just as friends, or the type that ties you two together till tomorrow ends? If it is, disregard Everytime I called you handsome, though it was meant sincerely, it was my imagination drifting, brush me off like the dirty on Jay z's shoulders, so I can fall to the ground and collect myself so I could. Take over your heart, or  at least your spare time, and I loved the thought of being with you, or maybe it was the fact of not being so alone, the second ones way sadder then the first one but I dunno
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Man, fuck, I really love being in love, but I really loved not crying on the fucking-
We coulda got a cup of coffee and I would act friendly, and I wouldn't pull any stunts but I am a fucking stunt puller since birth, so I don't know what to tell you,
When I tried to confess my love for- scones! I just wanted to tell you, really quick, shh, I loved these scones, just the diversity between the selection, the raspberry, the blueberry, the strawberry, even pumpkin even though that's a fucking squash
How do you make a scene out of a fucking squash? I don't know, oh my God it blows my mind oh man!
What did you say? I was so sorry to interrupt, oh yeah, your crush made you mad the other month? What was he saying? What was he talking about?oh my God, that was crazy, what do I think? Hm, like me think about it, hm, hm, hm ,hm
She was being mean that time? I'm sure she'll turn around at some point..
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Man, I really love being in loved, but I'm glad I'm not anymore crying on the phone
Man, I used to love the thought of being with you, or maybe it was the thought of not being so alone
I dunno, the second one's way sadder then the first one, but I dunno
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- Peach Scone - Hobo Johnson

Remember that? Oh boy, I did, and let me ramble here. I remember sending lyrics and falling asleep, waiting for the answer, and then right when I batted my eyes open, I open my eyes and I say the friendzone, and I remember rolling on my back and staring at the ceiling, hearing a faint crack in my puny heart of learning what a crush really means, and I felt my eyes watery, and I rolled back and sent, "no, no, it's fine!" And a smiley face, even though I rolled on my back again and felt hurt and more numb. Then I felt like a baby, I mean, he is happy, is healthy, not in the hospital, and I'm crying over this boy? So I made my self not fucking cry like a baby and deleted the messages all together so I would stop staring at the rejection and feeling more depressed. I completely got kinda ignored by him, it was ackward i guess, but later would ramble about like it was nothing on my side, like always, picking my feet and peices of a heart up and not letting anyone see. I didnt push him anymore, I didn't try to show my feelings anymore. I healed, Jesus Christ, I have a boyfriend and I mean, you still get pain, shouldn't had healed like that, but who was there to comfort me? xD not peach scone, he barley answered and probably would feel ackward, not my mother *when does she with my emotions?* And so who? The cow on the moon? No, I was a baby over it anyways. Don't feel bad scone, live and learn, I absolutely still am gladly your friend!

Trigger warning, it's actually kinda happy, but you might not like sad to happy or happy to sad, even tho this is a random book with random chapters and I don't fucking hide my emotions and try to make you fucking laugh every goddamn time and still put fucking "vent" on top with a frown in face, surely it means happily and light and not common sense that it's not

*Me*
This is a story of a girl, who cried a river and drowned the whole world, and whole she looked so sad in photographs, I absolutely love her when she smiles, now how many days in a year she woke up with hope and only found tears, and I can be so insencere making her promises never for real, as long as she stands there waiting wearing the holes in her soles of her shoes, now how many days disapear when you looked in the mirror, so how do you choose? Your clothes never wear as well the next day, and your hair never falls in quite the same way, you never run out of things to say!
- Absolutely- Nine Days

Trigger warning: just summer and me and depression, I dont like it, you might not either
Depression, anxiety, teenage suicidal,
Why girls?
Pretty face with pretty bad dreams, no one knows I cry in my sleep, waking up feeling like shit, it's a normal thing to feel like this, I don't care, I'm feeling down, I wanna stay home, never go outside, summer depression comes every year, I just want to disapear, depression, summer depression, there's so much time to question my life, summer depression, it's my summer depression, my worse habits is my own sadness, so I stay up all night, wondering why, I'm so tired all the time, all my friends are doing things, that's good for them but I'm nothing
.......

- Summer Depression- Girls in Red
Trigger warning, you might laugh

Gucci flip flops, fuck it, hit your bitch in my socks
- Gucci Flip Flops - Bhad Bhabie

Grandma had arthritis in her hands bad, she was popping pills like rappers in society, I'll FUcK YoUr bItch fOr the iRony, ilL seNd mIchY aT yO hOe iF ya HoE keEp EyeIng mE
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Aye, I'mma explain why you probably never see me, I push a Lamborghini, chocha magic like Houdini, my body shaped like Jeannie, booty dreamy, waist is tiny, yes I told him to get tidal so he  stream me when he leave me
I go hard in the both, biggie vibes, gimme the loot, I'm a classy millionaire, bitches ain't got the clouth
C-l-o-u-t-h cause you can't spell it either, if I call him, he coming home, running, Derek Jeter
Bitches must be eating ass because I swear they're bottom feeders
Hoe, you should know that you are my son, I should have scrapped you as a fetus, all these bitches rocking inches cause they following the leader, I should switch it up on hoes and rock an afro like Lupitas
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- Plain Jane - A$AP Ferg ft. Nicki Minaj

I'm a bad bitch, fuck the bitch, bitch get slick imma cut the bitch, I'm a bad. Bitch, sucked some dick,  if the bitch get slick, ill cut the bitch, I'll cut up the bitch,I'll get the bitch, had to fuck up the bitch, man, fuck the bitch, won't shoot her but I will gun-butt the bitch, when we say "fuck up the bitch" dick up the bitch
- Barbie Tingz - Nicki Minaj

Trigger warning, I'm never fucking doin this again and just putting *vents* as always, and also, me just rambling the last parts, might not like rambling

I had to make the last part funny XD it made me snort, this chapter was a bit dark

Yes I'm a Nicki Minaj fan, almost ever album bitches, older are better, you're welcome. xD

I am fine, really, just kinda relaxing to do, again

Seriously tho, I will hit your bitch in my socks XD