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[Warning: Distressing content ahead!]

I'm on my last year of middle school. My life as a sixteen year old is just the same as the others.

I have a bestfriend, a crush, nice parents, good grades and have I mentioned bullies?

You see, I was being bullied before—but now I decided to fight back because I'm sick of getting stepped on anymore.

I started fighting back this punk ass bitch named Min Yoongi. He and his friends have been bothering me since the start of middle school for some unknown reason. And to my luck, he has been in my class every damn year. But at least he ain't my seatmate because I'm sure I'd go nuts if that ever happens.

This change brought a lot of good things to me. Like meeting my best friend, Sulhee, whom I saved months ago from her bullies and now we're super besties.

She was being bullied by the campus Queen named Rina and her oh-so-ugly subordinates.

I guess you could say it's because of jealousy. Sulhee's our top student and yeah she's got everything. She's rich, smart, beautiful and kind.

That only screams like the rightful "Campus Queen" right? So I think that's the reason why that bitch Rina has been bullying Sulhee all this time.

But lately, Rina has been hating on me a lot. I was cool with that as long as she's stopping to bother Sulhee anymore.

But let's get into the love story.

I know Sulhee has a crush on the leader of our school's basketball team, Min Jaehyun, who's a year older than us and is unfortunately, Yoongi's older brother.

But he's nothing like Yoongi. Jaehyun sunbae is super kind and always smiles a lot. I remember that time when some goons were trying to mess with me outside the school and fortunately, Jaehyun sunbae was on his way home when he saw me and decided to help me get away from those fucktards. I really owed him a lot from that time.

And to spice things up, I heard that Jaehyun sunbae also likes Sulhee. How fucking fascinating is that?

It's still a better love story than twilight.

Moving on, how about we go to my love interest?

Okay, so his name is Kang Daniel. We're on the same year and guess what? He plays basketball too and is currently the mvp of the team.

I don't know why but it always has to be a basketball player that's automatically becomes your crush in every goddamn story ever.

Now that I've introduced the characters that have played a huge part on my story, let's figure out everything that went wrong in my life shall we?

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"KANG DANIEL WHY ARE YOU SO FUCKING GORGEOUS?!" I screamed my lungs out as I cheer for Kang Daniel and his team.

"Hyerin can you shut the fuck up? It's not like he'll hear you anyways." I glanced at my side and saw Min Yoongi with his extremely familiar bitch face.

I immediately scowled. "You can't tell me what to do, jerk." Then I continue cheering for the game.

I grinned when I saw that Yoongi and his friends have already left to find other seats.

"Hyerin, I think you should lessen down your voice too. Does that not hurt your throat?" I looked at Sulhee who's also sitting beside me.

"Damn it Sulhee, you always worry about me. I'm fine, don't worry okay?" I reassured her. She just smiled and focused on the game again.

I'm just so thankful that I met an angel like Sulhee, who's always there for me and is kind-hearted to anyone. That girl couldn't even hurt a fly.

That only strengthened my resolve to protect her always because she doesn't deserve to be bullied. No one deserves to be bullied for fucks sake and I wish I could say it louder for the people at the back.

The game came to an end with the victory of our school's basketball team.

I swear I almost sounded like a dying seagull from all the screams I've did.

What fucking shocked me was when Kang Daniel was given the mvp award again and was asked what was his inspiration these days, he then smiled and fucking looked at me.

Like yo I even looked at my back then I remembered I'm on the last row of seats so obviously there's no fucking people behind me.

"Oh what's her name?" The announcer asked him as I saw him smile sheepishly while looking straight into my eyes.

"Jang Hyerin." Never have I imagined that Daniel would call out my name like that in front of the whole fucking school.

And just a short time after that we became together. Real quick bitch.

I don't know how that happened but shit it did.

I remember him telling me how amazed he was when he saw me saving other students from getting bullied, and how it gave him inspiration to play harder for the benefit of our school.

Who would've thought that saving others would give me so many great things—like a fucking boyfriend.

Sulhee was so happy for me when I told her that Daniel and I were officially together.

I've even teased her that she and Jaehyun sunbae should hook up soon so that we can go for them double dates.

But I wasn't kidding, I really talked to Jaehyun sunbae to step up his game and ask Sulhee out. Well I guess my plan worked and he really did ask Sulhee out but those two still didn't become a real couple. Yes they'd go on dates but that was it. Told me that they're still too young for this thing and would actually wait til they both graduate from high school.

They were the most wholesome lovers  I've ever known. Something that would really earn my respect.

But things got so complicated. Everyone just got so busy.

Jaehyun and Daniel were both busy on their team. Sulhee was busy on maintaining her grades. And me? I was busy studying just to be able to pass this year and that shit's still too hard accomplish.

Daniel and I were doing great...not until after the finals. When we're just waiting to graduate middle school.

He hadn't been fine this past few days. I mean it looked like there's something wrong going on. So of course I wanted to confront him. And I planned on doing it tonight, on our second monthsarry.

"What are you so hurried for? Let me guess...going on a date with peach boy again?" I chuckled at her nickname for Daniel.

"Yeah, I need to talk to him about why he's not doing fine these days." I muttered.

Sulhee nodded. "Okay, just be safe and don't go home too late!"

"Copy that, angel." I smiled as I hug her tight. We always do that whenever we're leaving. You know, those things bestfriends do.

She hugged back. "You do know that meeting you was the best thing that ever happened in my life, right? And strangely enough, I do feel like even in our next life, you and I are still going to be the best of friends ever. I just—I just love that thought."

"Damn, why does it feel like you're saying goodbye? Well you're not going anywhere because tomorrow I'd still treat you to pizza on that last bet we made okay?" Sulhee giggled before giving me a bright smile. "I'd like that."

I pulled away from the hug and started to walk to the school gates.

"I love you Sulhee! Remember that you were my girl first before some Min Jaehyun would replace my ass!" I shouted while forming a big heart with my arms above my head.

She laughed for a good five seconds before shouting back too.

"You know I love you more because you were my savior. You saved me when I thought the world hated me. That only means, no man can ever replace you in my heart. Never ever."

"Never ever. Well that's a good song." I even said before giving Sulhee one last smile as I walk away.

I reached the coffee shop where Daniel and I would always hang out. I immediately saw him sitting there with a completely troubled look on his face.

So I decided to ask him now.

"Yah Kang Daniel, is there something wrong? You don't look that fine—I mean boy you always lookin fine but for some reason, I feel like you're not feeling fine." He immediately sighed and ruffled his hair.

"I—I don't know anymore, Hyerin. I don't know if I can continue doing this."

"Continue what?" I ask back.

"Us." He replied. My eyes went wide for a sec.

He immediately spoke. "I mean, I love you—I really do but it's because of Rina."

That name was enough for my blood to boil. "What did that bitch do? Don't tell me she's already poisoned you and now you want her."

"No Hyerin—I would never want that devil woman. Over my dead sexy body."

Ayeeee

"But that bitch just threatened me." He continued. "She said she was gonna make your life a living hell if I didn't break up with you. Said that she's actually in love with me and shit that was so disgusting and I was like hell no but this slut had her trump card."

"And what was that?" I asked. Slightly amused by how casually he badmouths Rina. That's my boy.

"Remember that I actually passed that great dancing school in Busan? Well Rina said that she'll make sure I'd never get accepted there because you know her—she has her stupid connections because she's a rich bitch. I don't want that to happen and hell I'd never want her to mess with you and make your life a living hell."

He paused before giving me that look. That look that means this shit's gonna end up sad.

"So you're...breaking up with me?" I choked back my tears that were threatening to fall.

"As much as I don't want it, yes. If that's the only way Rina could truly leave you alone. And me getting through my dream school. You know Hyerin? Maybe we're just too young for this. Too young to be in love and forget that there are actually other things to prioritize first. I love you but I need to this for the sake of the both of us."

I was just lost for words. I understand his intentions but this is just too soon. I didn't sign up for this shit.

"And unfortunately, my parents suddenly decided to take me back to Busan for good. Start a new life there and some shit I obviously didn't agree to." He was so close to crying but I was closer as I just started sobbing.

"I know, someday you're gonna find someone....someone better than me. Someone better than a coward who'd pick some dance school over his girl. Life really fucked me up and I'm nowhere happy with my decisions but remember that this is all for you. Even if I have to hurt you like a motherfucker—"

"Just stop. Stop blaming yourself. I understand okay? Even if it hurts so much. It's fine. I'm—" I didn't even have the energy to continue what I was saying. I just cried as Daniel quickly pulled me into a hug.

"I'm just thankful that I met you. You were my first love, Daniel."

He chuckled. "Stop lying. Remember that you once told me that your first love was clearly that kid who saved you when you were being picked by some kids on the playground when you were like six? You know that guy, Min Yoo—" I immediately cut him off.

"That was a joke okay?! Besides that guy basically grew up to be such an asshole that he is right now and I still couldn't believe he was my first—" I stopped myself. "Do we really need to have this conversation right now?"

Daniel just laughed, his face totally looking like those of a cute rabbit.

I can't believe I'm letting go of this precious guy.

"When are you leaving though?" I asked.

His smile eventually turned to a frown again.

"Tonight. Please don't kill me."

"What the fuck, man." I groaned.

This shit just went too soon. Way too soon man.

"Damn it, I wish you could've stayed longer. I mean—I wish we could've stayed longer together. Like it's just our second month for fucks sake?!" I let out. Daniel started to calm me down.

"Goodbye's have always been so painful but please remember that we're doing this out of love."

He quickly embraced me while I just sobbed harder.

I could feel his tears fall as he lowered himself down to kiss my forehead.

"We were together for a short time but surely it was one of the most beautiful moments in my life. Thank you Daniel
..for making our times worth a while."

And I never thought that day could get any worse when I received a call from Jaehyun sunbae that evening. I remember hearing his sobs while I listen to his next words.

"Sulhee...she's gone. She—she got into a car accident. Her bus fell on the river when she was on her way home. Hyerin, she's gone now. And there's nothing we can do to bring her back."

That day, I lost the two people I loved the most in this entire goddamn world.

I was basically out of my mind until a week after Sulhee's death, when another bad news was given to me.

I never thought I'd see him cry like that when I accidentally passed him by on that park. I just know I had to ask him why.

"Hyung he—he's dead. Some group of guys ganged up on him when they saw him drunk in the alleyway and took advantage. Police said that maybe those bastards took revenge on my brother for some stupid reason. I just can't believe it. He was just here and then one second after he's gone. Truly gone."

You were right Yoongi, those bastards took revenge on your brother for some stupid reason.

And that stupid reason was me.

If only Jaehyun sunbae didn't save me that day, none of this could have happened.

It was all because of me.

I lost the most wholesome lovers I've ever known, the love of my life went to Busan for good, at the very least, that bitch Rina was a woman of her words and she truly leaved me alone and transferred schools, and my mortal enemy, Yoongi, stopped bothering me for a whole year.

Well I know he's still mourning on his brother's death. And I truly understand that feeling.

Because we all have lost someone.

•••

i actually cried writing this bitch don't touch me

also i fucking love kang daniel back off thots