I've gone to the beach two times.

My Dad has another woman and I've known that for plenty of years.

He's gone somewhere with his woman and he's making excuses that he has work because he doesn't know that I know about his woman.

I asked him when we're going to the beach because I can't go with a bus it takes forever and my mum doesn't have a car.

My dad answered that we're going in two weeks.

I started crying in front of my mum because I'm the only child among all the children she knows thay hasn't gone to the beach.

My dad has a car but as I said we can't because he's a jerk.

When I cried in front of my mum she said I'm crazy and that I need a psychologist.

I told her to stop insulting me and said that my friends go to the beach with busses because they wake up early but I can't wake up at 7 because I sleep at 2 am because of the hotness at night (Not that way) and I wake up at 12 so that's why we can't go with a bus.

She said I'm the only child like this and I couldn't take it anymore so I said, "JUST STOP"

"Just call your father if you wanna go with a car. We can't go with a bus because you need complexity."

"Stop."

"JUST ASK YOUR FATHER TO TAKE YOU THERE"

"STOP TALKING ABOUT MY STUPID FATHER AND JUST STOP BEING SO CRUEL"

and then I went to the bedroom and closed the door and then I started writing this.

I feel horrible.