I lay on my bed completely awake. The alarm had gone off early. I guess instead of a 8:30 I set it for 4:30 by mistake. I sighed loudly. I wont be able to go to sleep anymore. And then I do not require the alarm nowadays. I wake up with my nightmares. Or rather nightmare. Because it is the same one every night. Now if you are wondering if I have gone crazy like Potter and have dark lord nightmares. Then you are perfectly wrong.

What I see is even more scarier. So I got up and fetched the darts from my bedside table. I lay back down again and started throwing them. It helped with my anger issues and with my aim. My aim was perfect now. Three darts in the centre of the bulls eye of the proffesional board. I got bored. I hadnt yet recieved my Durmstrang letter. Headmaster Karkaroff did not expel me. But then the letter should have arrived by now. I sighed again and got up to brush my teeth as my stomach gave a grumble. I brushed my teeth as I thought about my last year. I lost control and injured Vlad. But the rascal completely deserved it. I shuddered at my own thoughts. How could I think such a barbaric thing? I rinsed my mouth before spitting in the basin and took a look at my teeth in mirror. Clean and white. Unlike me. Had Dad not arrived in time that day I had no idea what I was going to tell them. How did me and Vlad both end up in the hospital wing? Me unconscious by exhaustion him fallen off the third floor corridor. But Dad told Karkaroff that with anger most witches and wizards lose magic control with anger. To prove his point the light bulb over Karkaroff's head burst. After some more argument and light bulbs he had decided to not expel me.

I walked out of my room to get breakfast. It was just 5 in the morning. Dad wont be awake. So maybe I will have to make my own breakfast I thought as I crept down the stairs not making a noise. I reached the book shelf that covered the entrance to the bedrooms and I heard voices. I put my hand to where my wand should be but I was wearing my short pyjama shorts. I dont sleep with my wand. I crept up near the book shelf to hear the voices and recognized Dad and Dumbledore. They were arguing over something. I couldnt hear it clearly. Dad had spread the 'Muffliato' charm. Great! I sat on the step wondering whether or not to disturb them. But my stomach made my decision. I hadnt eaten dinner properly last night and my stomach grumbled again this time more loudly. I got up and pressed the spot on the back of the bookshelf. It slid open to reveal the drawing room. The drawing room had a dark green couch two chairs and another book shelf. Along with that there were two men there. One with long white beard and hair and kindly electric blue eyes that pierced your very soul when he looked at you through those half moon spectacles. He had tied his beard in a knot at the end. He was wearing emerald green robes. He smiled at me when he saw me. The other well, he had a scowl plastered on his face. His,knuckles were white and his eyes betrayed the fact that he was furious for some reason. He looked dishevelled. The old guy must have been woken in the middle of his sleep. He wasnt wearing a shirt just the grey track pants. His dark eyes dangerous as ever were glaring at the old man. His hair black long and somewhat greasy hung at the sides like curtains.

"Ah, Shine we were talking about you."

"Why are you not in bed?"

They both said it together. Both their tones different. "About me? I asked Dumbledore the look on my face turning to confusion. My eyebrows rode up in surprise.

"Dont you dare breath a word of the discussion to her Albus." Dad growled at him and I looked at him in confusion.

"What is going on?"

"Not your concern." he said silkily in a dismissive tone.

"If it is about me it is obviously my concern." I replied. I was not going to let him tell me off. "She deserves to know, Severus." Dumbledore said looking at him.

"Deserves to know what?" I asked in a real calm voice. The suspense was killing me and I dont know how I managed to keep my calm. Maybe some habits rub off when you live,with a person for long.

"Why dont you go to sleep?" Dad asked me and my stomach rumbled at the same moment answering his question. "Then go and get breakfast." he said again in that dismissive tone. I cocked my head to the side.

"Tell me what is going on first."

"Sirius Bl-"

"Just shut up Albus. She doesnt need anymore things to worry about than she already has. One more word and I swear I will murder you with my bare hands."

"Even though I doubt that you would comply with that threat give me one reason why I should not put her on her own gaurd. Do you really wish to protect her by giving her fake ideas of the world? Do you really believe that it would protect her? Saving her from her own monsters is not as important as saving her from the real monster."

"Albus she does not need to worry about Black. I am strong enough to protect her."

"Sure you are Severus. But does she not have a right to defend herself?"

"What the hell is going on? Just stop talking in riddles you two and tell me okay?"

"You will be attending Hogwarts this year."

"Okay. I still dont get the connection. But why am I attending Hogwarts?"

"Because I say so." Dad said and I snorted.

"Oh c'mon not again. Seriously you dont control my life. Tell me the real reason and maybe I will agree." I said in a calm voice. I knew the answer. I had been expelled. Why else would he say that.

"Because that means he can watch over you better." Dumbledore's answer caught me by surprise. I mean c'mon. Watch over me better? Seriously? Because it was not at Durmstrang that the defence teacher had Voldemort at the back of his head. It was not at Durmstrang that a basilisk took a girl into the chamber of secrets. Sure there were moments at Durmstrang as well when I was in danger but it was never from the dark lord.

"I have been expelled right?" I asked coolly.

"No." "Yes." they both gave me contrasting answers at the same time.

"Severus tell her the truth." Dumbledore ordered and Dad literally hissed at him. He scared me for a moment.

"WHAT THE HECK ARE YOU TWO GOING ON ABOUT." I shouted after some more hissing and arguments. I stood there suddenly realising my anger burst. I took in deep breaths even as my eyes darkened and a growl built in my throat. My animagus was bursting to attack them. I had learnt to divert my anger to my animagus transformation with Adrian to control my anger. But the plan backfired at moments like these. I calmed myself soon enough and poured me some cold water from the jug. Diverting my anger to the animagus transformation was the best option beause that prevented unneccesary power outbursts.

The water calmed me and I sat down on the chair crossing my legs and arms over each other. Dad looked at me concern on his face clearly visible. I put down the glass of water with a bit of noise.

"Now tell me." I said.

"See. You saw what happened right now. Do you realize how angry she will be if I tell her the truth? She will go down and murder him. Not that it is,any of my concern but I dont want her turning murderer because of Black."

"What news? What do you mean? Why will I murder Black? Its not that I dont want to. I want revenge on my mom's death but the Azkaban dementors wont let me."

"You heard her. I bet that this clears who is right?" Dad smirked at Dumbledore and I narrowed my eyes at him.

"Yes Severus but I still think she has a right to know."

"Know what, Dumbledore?" I asked and Dad answered my question.

"Black escaped Azkaban today." he said with a scowl on his face.

"What?" I shrieked.

"I said Black escaped-" I held up my hand to cover his mouth. "I heard it the first time." I muttered. I could feel my skin heating up. My anger was flaring. And I knew it had nothing to do with my animagus form. My adrenaline rushed up. I felt my palms feel the familiar tingle. I could feel my sight reddening. "How?" I asked through gritted teeth.

"Calm down Shine. He will be in before sunrise." Dumbledore said in a feeble attempt to reassure me. I tried deep breathing. "Humor me." I said to Dad. I badly needed a distraction. The man he tried to murder me. He murdered my mom. He did not care for his wife or his unborn child. If anyone deserved Azkaban it was him. And the stupid dementors had let him escape.

"Those stupid Weasley twins." Dad started. "Those idiots put dungbombs in my drawer on the last day of school. The desk was so smelly. I put the two in detention and made them clean it up."

Fred and George. The guys will never end their antics. Which brings me to Hogwarts. The thought process change helped me control the anger. I am easy to distract. That is my plus point as well as negative.

"Why am I attending Hogwarts then?" I asked my anger gone.

"Because that means I know you are safe."

"But Dad-"

"No buts Shine."

"Dad I am the team keeper."

"They can certainly find a new one. Besides we do play quidditch at Hogwarts."

"Yeah but. I was in line up for captain since Hermann graduated last year and I am good enough." I muttered.

"If you get into Slytherin quidditch team you will be captain."

"Now Severus we cant have favoritism." Dumbledore interjected.

"What about friends Dad? No one will like me because I am from Durmstrang. Maybe the Slytherins but no one else."

"Dont worry about that you are likable." Dumbledore said and I couldnt help the blush that crept up my cheeks as he added, "And I am pretty sure it wont matter to the boys." and Dad glared at him. I did look good. I had the typical pureblood Black figure. Tall and slim. I was almost as tall as Fred and George. Almost. My face had got thinner and features sharper. My emerald green eyes were framed by thick long lashes. Only thing is,i had really pale skin. Freakishly pale. But there were no blemishes. It was surprisingly clear. I smiled a thank you at Dumbledore.

"So should I get the paperwork done?" he asked. Flattery worked in a way many other things cannot.

I nodded a yes. I would attend Hogwarts this year.