Shikamarus pov

"live for my sake you three. That's all I ask of you now"

I hugged my knees as memories of my dead sensai ran through my head. Its too much. Dealing with all this grief is too much! Not to mention I haven't been able to cry since he died.

Dose that mean I didn't care enough?

I clutch my head as I surpressed the urge to scream. I didn't care? That can't be right! I loved him like a second father that can't be right! Why can't I cry? Why can't I cry-

"shikamaru!" my thoughts were cut off by nejis voice "stop pulling your hair shikamaru. You'll hurt yourself!" he gently pulled my hands away.

I looked down in shame. I can't believe I let neji see me this way. He gently placed his hand on my cheek and made me look at him.

"let it all out" he said gently "there's no need to hold it back anymore"

And just like that the dam burst. I clung to him and muttered all kinds of nonsense. Neji didn't mind though. He rubbed my back and told me that everything was going to be OK. That he was going to be there for me through it all.

I smiled as I lay my head on his shoulder. What did I do to deserve someone as beautiful and kind as him?