When I started this diary I did not expect a major character death yet here we are.
One of my internet friends was confirmed dead and his husband died 3 hours later. I'm numb.

On a more positive note: I've been Wattpad spammed by Nerd_Of_Too_Much
Thx bruh. I'm flattered.
Senpai hath noticed thou.
And I know you're reading this now. How's it going.
Hmm.
My internet friends are ignoring me. Probably mourning.
RIP Ethan
RIP Dylan

Hmm.

I kinda feel like crying.

Okay, so I didn't cry..,but I did laugh for two minutes straight. It felt really good but I think my emotions are shot.

I have to think of a 50th chapter special since I've got 4 chapters left until then...also every time I download music I'm gonna post a list of the songs. Like today for example.

Into a fantasy- alexander rybak

I'm alive- Celine Dion

My heart will go on- Celine Dion

The veldt- deadmau5

Guts over fear-Eminem

Wake me up when September ends- green day

House of plywood-JP Cormier

Gold- imagine dragons

Hold back the river- James bay

You and me-life house

Marry me- train

Cocaine cowgirl-Matt Mays

Cheerleader- OMI

Black Buffalo-one bad son

Night changes- 1-d

Dear Vienna- owl city

The power of love- Celine Dion

Make it stop(spetembers children) - rise against

Dead hearts- stars

Thriller- FOB

Happy little pill- Troye Sivan

Riptide- Vance joy

End up here- 5sos

They're either canadian songs or the titles of chapters of Lullibies, that Sufin fanfic I was reading.

I feel
Really sick
Right now
I don't know why.
Anxiety?
Or maybe it's my stomach
Being
An ass
Again.
Stupid stomach.
I hate you.

Still don't know about chapter fifty.

Food maybe?? Although I'm not a food kinda person. Hm.

I'll explain the situation in my family more clearly. That's what I'll do.

13 days till DW
15 days till BD