We were trying to fix the satellite today. We were. But it didn't fucking work. The signal strength just stayed at 40 the entire time. Mom didn't even try. She kept saying she didn't know what to do.
I need to get my television back, I mean, last year the routine made the summer feel more organized,  but this year it just drags on and on with me doing whatever I can to pass the time. I rarely know what day of the week it is and I find myself constantly looking for the chance at my next internet hotspot so I actually have some proper human contact.
What's gonna happen when I get back to school? What's gonna happen when the new season of TV starts? When Sleepy Hollow comes back. I was fine waiting for Doctor Who last year since I didn't have any channels that played it, but Sleepy Hollow is lower key and therefore access to it off their usual airing is hard to find...especially when you don't have Internet and when you do its school internet where most websites are blocked. And where am I gonna find 40 minutes of free time to watch it? It was hard enough finding anime watching time last year in class.
and yes, Kissanime works at school for some reason. Don't ask me. But apparently the word "Cosplay" is completely blocked. Anything having to pertain to that is blocked.
It's a bit early in the day to be writing but I'm kinda pissed and sad and alone and I probably won't be doing anything other than fricking around all day anyway like usual. I forgot which episode of Fairy Tail I was on. I think it was 75 though. Also, I still have volume 15 of Kuroshitsuji to finish. I have a feeling I'm gonna end on a cliff hanger. By the time anybody reads this I'll probably know though.
Sigh
I really want to write more depressing messages to my friends that'll send when I get online but I've sent so many already. It'll just screw up my Kik big time when I connect...which will be probably September third when I go back to school.
I didn't get to bed until four last night. I considered an all nighter but the last time I did that I got sick due to unrelated causes.
I kinda just want to go back to bed and sleep forever, waking up only to write. That's the point I've gotten to. I only live to write. And where's that gonna get me? Poor. Poor without enough money to survive, living in my internet free home for the rest of my life and never finding anybody to mooch off of because nobody wants to date an Asexual and I'm not betraying my sexuality just for a boyfriend.
I'm set up to take a business course in college...but all my ideas are big city ideas. And there's no way I'd survive a week in a city. I'd be hit by a car instantly. Anyway, I can't expect to have any money for Internet or luxuries. And by luxuries I mean, like, anything as small as furniture for my house which will probably be a mini barn in the back of somebody's house or something. As long as I have a working bathroom I'll get by, I guess. I don't know. I'll probably never have enough money to even open a business in the first place. And I'll go insane working under somebody. Especially if they mistreat me....and you can guarantee that happening....I have the kind of personality people just take advantage of.
I'm sorry. I'm ranting. But I've just been in a bad mood since yesterday and I don't know why.
I'm gonna leave before this gets more out of hand.