KILL ME

I'm so fucking stressed ._. So I left my best friend almost a year ago (it'll be a year in 8 days) and I'm having such a hard time. I miss him so much and I really love him but I'm scared to go back because of stuff he did in our friendship before ;-;

Also I'm really far behind on my art project because I can't focus for shit and my anxiety is being a bitch. I'm just overly stressed, want hugs, ice cream and anime. Maybe some plushies and blankets too.. that's ideal right now. 

Also my niece's grandfather has been scaring me a lot recently. He's harmless and "thinks I'm hilarious" but he gives me really bad anxiety attacks and likes to get in my face. He made a joke a while ago that we were "suckin' face" when he was showing me a place I could go in there if the cigarette smoke got too intense and I wanted to cry I was so scared. I was probably over reacting but I'm 5'8" and he's around 6'5" 450 pounds, so he towers over me and fucking loves getting in my face and making jokes that honestly scare the shit out of me.