"There's always that one stupid mistake
that changes everything. "

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Survivor Series

"I really thought this would be the big PPV where they would let you shine." Brie pouted while I shrugged trying not to be affected by the sudden turn within my storyline. I wasn't even sure why it was adamantly required for me to miss out the PPV, I could have been attacked on Smackdown for crying out loud.

It all just made me realize more how weary they were to work with me even now that I was cleared. I understood my time was limited before I had to rest my body again but that's why I wanted to make the most of the time that I had, not kick it back and miss out on an amazing PPV.

"I thought so too, to be honest I was ready. I'm freaking dressed in my gear right now and was warmed up and they send Bryan to be the bearer for fucking bad news. Can you believe that?" I half-groaned knowing I should have been paying attention in support of the blue women but I couldn't when I honestly wanted to be apart of it.

"Well that's just wrong. They could have had Carrano call you in beforehand instead of having you in that mood. Honestly where is Johnny to prep them about these things, sometimes they are so inconsiderate" Brie shook her head and it made me homesick but not to Florida or San Diego but to my sister.

The last time I had been in the WWE was with her in my corner every step on the way, having my back and her not being there was proving to be harder each day.

Especially because she was the only one who understood how my mind worked with the company. How when everyone believed I was fragile, I knew I was stronger. She had been the one who saw all the hours I put in to get there, not John who had been nursing his own injury but her and Bryan.

"Nicole.." Her voice lowered as my tears fell as the loneliness sunk in when John hadn't been answering his phone. I needed his voice to comfort me and give me some good reason as to why I was left out. Its what I usually had, the best of both worlds with Brie ready to tear down the building with me while John calmed the storm. It might have been a segment but Carmella was right, I was Needy Bella..

"I just hate how this place is now. I mean its amazing for the women and all that, but it isn't the same. There is so much competition that I'm honestly not needed, I used to be a top heel and now I'm just fucking floating around because they have that already. " I croaked, shaking my head so my tears could stop but they wouldn't when I felt so overwhelmed.

"You have no competition, you and I both know that. There is no substitute for Nikki Bella and it sucks that you aren't representing tonight but you need to make sure that you're so badass they won't be able to keep you from the next even if you aren't in the championship scene" She spoke slowly to make a point and I nodded.

"I guess I just miss home to be honest. I mean I haven't been working much but John's always so busy so I just stay in the apartment by myself" I mumbled, I knew I could fly out to Brie but my off days mostly coincided with Bryan's and I knew I could be a bit of a third wheel at times so I tried to refrain from it. My needy ways first started with my sister...

"Well since it is our birthday this week, there is no way you are not coming down here. We can celebrate getting older and hopefully wiser and you can go loco on drinks while I am your designated driver" She smiled rubbing her belly and I giggled.

"That sounds like a plan, I should go and actually watch how the match ends. I'll talk to you later" I smiled.

"Winston! Come say bye to your mom!" She screamed and I rolled my eyes but smiled once I saw his cute face.

"Bye Win Win!" I half squealed and sighed as I hung up and sucked it up, washing my face and changing into something else.

"What up Nikki!" I heard one of the twins and smiled as I grabbed a quick coffee before joining them, watching the match with their craziness.

"I thought coffee was a combined thing, now you're having it behind my back" I heard his voice filled with amusement as he sat beside me and I smiled slightly.

"I know, I guess I couldn't wait" I shrugged weakly, I didn't have much energy for interacting with Allen when every time I looked at him I saw the mistake I had made. I thought I could be mature about it and just put it behind us but I couldn't and he clearly had.

"Speaking of waiting, I was waiting for you before the show started to catch our coffee together. "

I sighed and sat back, "why?"

He was surprised by the question and searched my eyes for what I wasn't sure.

"What's wrong?"

"What?" I frowned.

"You seem drained I guess" he shrugged and I felt the lump rising again, and hated him for noticing something was wrong.

"Stressing over a match all night that keeps you up only to find out you're cut kinda drains you?" I shrugged briefly glancing at the screen watching as Team Red sealed the victory.

"I'm sure they would have won with you in their corner. I don't see the great Nikki Bella being eliminated" he smiled while I hadn't seen myself kissing him either.

"I..."

"Hey you!" I jumped slightly due to the surprise as Charlotte leaned over AJ, hugging him from behind.

"Hey Nikki" She smiled, offering me a brief wave before seating herself beside him.

"Congrats on the win" I raised my foam cup to which she giggled before talking to AJ. I guess I should have been happy she kept him company so I could head to somewhere else to wait until Bryan finished up.

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"Xander broke it..." I heard Tommy groan up ahead causing me to chuckle to myself but was surprised by the voice that responded to him.

"What do you mean he broke it? Don't you have him like trained?" Nicole questioned while she had disappeared on me earlier before my match.

"He is a big fucking dog. I can't stop him from knocking over something."

"I know but..."

"Hey guys." I smiled as I approached them and noticed she still seemed a bit down on her luck. I had been trying to cheer her up earlier and I was sure it had been working until Charlotte was explaining something to me and next thing I saw the chair beside me was gone.

"Hey." She avoided my eyes before staring up at him. "You should get your house like dog proofed or something I don't know. I should probably go."

"Ni..." I began but she sent me a weak smile before waving and disappearing around the corner causing a small frown to edge on my face.

"Did she finally remember the kiss and realize she cheated on Cena?" He chuckled lightly folding his arms.

"No." Was all I said realizing what he said was true in a way, she was avoiding me because of what had happened.

I was an idiot to think I hadn't fucked everything up by kissing her, by pinning her against the car. I wasn't sure what had come over me and there was no amount of alcohol that could help erase it. We were both sober and even though I swore she kissed me back and I hadn't imagined it, I swore I felt a moan vibrate against my lips? The moment she pushed against my chest I saw the regret all over her face and I knew I messed everything up.

"Then what's going on?" He snapped his fingers in front of me and I shook my head, walking on to which he followed while I briefly glanced around knowing he wouldn't quit pestering me.

"I kissed her. Again. " I whispered or more so lowly spat as I took my gloves off feeling sudden anger fill me.

I figured she was busy preparing herself with how personal her feud with Carmella had become and that's why I hardly saw her over the last few weeks but deep down knew I had been wrong. She could barely look me in the eye whenever we did bump into each other...

"AJ Styles homewrecker" He almost sang.

I glared.

"I'm kidding, man. " He raised up his hands as we entered the empty locker room with most of the guys celebrating at the gorilla while he had been replaced by Shane on the team.

"I don't know what the fuck I was thinking. I spent a week travelling with the guy and then the moment he's gone I just..."

He sighed. "Fuck Cena. "

"She does" I mumbled while he laughed out.

"Or how phenomenally jealous you are."

I didn't respond when I didn't really see John as a friend, more of a colleague because he liked to talk wrestling and I figured why not hang out with a guy who had succeeded greatly in the business.

"She's hot. Not my type which is good considering I'm soon to be married but I didn't peg her for your type either. You seem like a simple Jane type and she's so... Fake?"

My jaw clenched and I sighed because she wasn't, "she's not fucking fake. She's an amazing person and she makes me laugh. The shit she says isn't shit but is so damn good. You should know, she travelled with us"

"I do know. I don't think she's fake at all, I did though. Mostly because of her relation to the face of the company. "

"Then why'd... I don't have time for this shit" I groaned knowing he just wanted me to spill my thoughts about her.

"Then go kiss someone who is available then? The way you're flashing in that wrestling gear I'm sure many women are taking the invitation but I'm guessing its for Bella." He smirked.

"Flashing?" 

"I won't even point that out. Look, who cares about Cena, he left her here all alone and that's his problem." He shrugged not doing a good job of steering me away from the idea but then again Tommy could care less bout anyone in this place so he didn't see the consequences which I was currently dealing with.

"She didn't like kissing me. Not at the club where she fucking called me John and not last week which is why she's avoiding me."