"An apocalypse he was,
shaking everything inside me
to its deepest core."
SV Writes

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"I'm so happy to be back with you guys" I smiled as we did a cheers celebrating together as due to the Royal Rumble it was a sort of reunion for the brands as well.

"We're happy to have you back girl. Look forward to many more tags with you" Trinity winked as we downed our drinks.

I had teamed up with her and Becky which had been quite fun. Yes I loved proving myself as an individual but tagging was always fun and pushed you to your limits as well.

John had flown out as soon as the show ended to film for one of his movies so we didn't have any time to really celebrate his win. I wondered if he would actually be around for his reign or turn into a Brock Lesnar. So instead of being at dinner with John as we usually did after a PPV, or we used to. I was seated in the hotel restaurant with my friends.

"For awhile there I thought we weren't good enough for you anymore. I see you are besties with a certain wolf" Renee teased.

"Oh shut up. He is a good friend and is good company, you're all just jealous that he has his exceptions." I mused and they chuckled.

"How far along is Brie now?" Sasha questioned.

"She's giving birth around Wrestlemania which is exciting for me cause of course the wrestling baby will be born around then. But I am afraid both Bryan and I will be on the road you know?"

"True. Hopefully you won't be. I can't wait for her to pop it out. She's probably going to be so adorable, just imagine if she has her dark hair and then Bryan's blue eyes" Nattie smiled and I nodded along.

I really should make more time for my sister, that I knew as I felt distant and I was on the road while she was mostly on her own considering Bryan was on the road with me.

"Seems the phenomenal one is not taking his loss very good." I heard Jon as he sat down having gone to get us some more drinks before sitting beside Renee and I frowned seeing AJ at the bar.

The conversation soon drifted off Brie as they began discussing what they thought would be happening in the next few months leading up to Wrestlemania.

I smiled but moved away from them and made my way over to AJ as the bartender poured him a drink. "Hey Styles."

"Nicole." He chuckled, briefly glancing at me before sipping from the glass. "Do I seem that lonely?"

"What do you mean?" I frowned as I hopped onto the stool beside him.

"You were celebrating with your friends." He pointed over towards them and my eyes fell on them. They hadn't really noticed me leaving and if they had they probably assumed I went up to my room so I turned my attention onto the phenomenal one.

"I guess you do." I mumbled as the look he had at the arena seemed to still be there as he focused on the drink in his hand.

"Where's John?" He questioned and I realized here I was yet again by his side when John had left me. If I had wanted to prove him wrong I would have gone after him back at the arena instead of playing good girlfriend for John. If I was a caring friend I would have checked up on him before I left with mine.

"He flew out, has somewhere to be in the morning" I mumbled.

"Mmmm..." He nodded.

"You have a rematch" I reassured him, lightly pressing my hand on his whilst watching him down the whiskey.

"I'm not mad about a loss. I had a good run.." He shook his head and I doubt he even noticed my hand on his so I removed it and placed it onto the straw of my cocktail as I crushed the ice.

"Then what's wrong?"

His eyes still didn't meet mine and I wanted them to.

"Its what losing the title makes you realize. You have it, you're on top of the world right? And then you're not. Then you're back to being the guy seeing his kids once a week while your ex-wife's new husband sees them for the rest." He rambled and I was surprised at his words but realized this probably wasn't his first drink for the night. I wasn't sure what to say to his words..

"You're AJ Styles. No man can compare to that." Was all I managed to say as my hand was back on his to which he scoffed and shook his head.

"Kids get older, some grow out of the wrestling phase and then where am I? Clinging onto this place because I have no one waiting at home because this is my life..."

I pouted slightly more to myself as I was used to the happy go lucky AJ and even would have preferred the angered Allen right now. I didn't like seeing or hearing how defeated he was.

"They never stop loving you. Getting older means outgrowing certain things yes but they won't forget all you did for them. They'll understand.." I began hoping my words would make him realize that while the world knew he was phenomenal, his kids did too. They adored their dad and I saw it when I had hung out with them backstage before.

"My oldest was asking me Dad, when are you going to get yourself a girlfriend?"

"Maybe he has one and wants some tips" I giggled making him laugh out. I smiled as he did...

"Maybe, its probably that. He wouldn't be too concerned about his old man." He sighed.

"Old man..." I shook my head and noticed my hand was once again on his and hoped it provided some comfort. "You're a DILF to many. I've seen those fans."

"Dilf?" He frowned and I shook my head. "Is it a bad thing? Is that a new lingo"

"Nah, its a good thing." I smiled, holding back a laugh at the fact that he didn't really know what it meant.

"So you think I'm a Dilf too?" He frowned.

"Maybe." I mumbled glancing around the restaurant until I heard his voice again.

"So if you could you would fuck me."

"Allen!" I narrowed my eyes as he clearly had known what it meant and was clearly not sober as he had never been so blunt before.

"I'm not that out of touch" he chuckled, nudging me.

"I feel like you might have had one too many, Allen"

"I'm okay." He smiled, staring at my hand on his and then gazed at me, "you look too beautiful for a hotel bar, Nicole"

I rolled my eyes and stood up, "come on, I'm heading up anyway so let's get you to bed"

"I think I want to stay down here for a bit"

I shook my head and removed his glass from his hands. "I think you need your bed, Allen Jones"

He stood up and followed me and I tried to steady him so he didn't stumble as much. He wasn't crazy drunk but he wasn't that sober either.

"Want to get your hands on the DILF hey?" I heard him as we stood in the elevator and I honestly didn't know what to say to this man.

He sighed, "I'm sorry. I know you're still mad at me for kissing you. Once, twice, how many times are we on for mistakes now?"

"I'm not mad." I was mad because he made those kisses seem like nothing which made the guilt grow deeper while telling me he liked me the next.

"We don't meet for coffee. You avoid me in the hallways, its okay. I know how this works, this ain't the first time you've given me the cold shoulder" He shrugged and I frowned as intoxicated Allen maybe didn't recall the talk we had outside the restaurant this morning. "Of course the woman that catches my eye will be taken."

"I thought it was just kissing.." I sighed.

"It was just kisses, didn't mean that's where I wanted it to end." He confessed as we moved up in the elevator and I avoided looking at him as flashes of me in his motel room came to mind when he had stopped it. "Come on"

I held his hand as we made it to my floor. I luckily had two beds in my room out of habit and opened the door before locking it. "Okay you can sleep it off on that one."

I pointed over to the bed and searched my bag for some appropriate night attire for myself but saw him seated on the bed becoming frustrated as he tried unbuttoning his shirt.

"Let me do it" I rolled my eyes and slowly unbuttoned his shirt. I mean he walked around shirtless all night so me taking off his shirt to do so was no big deal.

He laid back and ran both hands over his face.

"I think I can handle my pants, darling." He lazily stated and I sat beside him instead.

"I kissed you once, you kissed me twice. I'm outnumbered" he spoke.

I slowly turned my head to find him leaning in close. I closed my eyes as his hand moved to my face and as soon as it did his lips were on mine.

I kissed him back too quickly I suppose and felt my head hit the bed and moaned into his lips. Allen was a gentle soul yet his hands slipping beneath my dress felt anything but, but I didn't want him to stop when the kisses were all I could think about.

The kisses had caused tension, arguments and so many emotions and this morning I had believed due to that it would have been best to end it. But as his tongue slipped past my lips I didn't want it to end.

His fingers trailed my skin and touched my underwear. I tensed briefly having not expected it but I didn't stop him yet again.

I moaned as he pushed his body against mine and I immediately did the same and bit his tongue as he slipped two fingers into me. He broke the kiss and placed kisses into my neck as my fingers locked into his hair. I knew I should have stopped it, he was drunk and I knew how guilty he felt after a kiss but I didn't.

"I want you.." I breath instead of a protest and his fingers left me and soon were replaced and my eyes closed slightly. But snapped open as he roughly moved in and out, it was rough unlike AJ was.

"Fuck" he breath into my neck as my fingers dug into his back and I moaned loudly as his thrusts picked up.

"Yessss..." I choked out as a moan escaped as well causing his eyes to focus on me and he immediately pushed his tongue past my lips. He groaned into them as his hands took mine from his back but instead placed them above my head.

"You're so beautiful." He breath before kissing me again.

He pushed hard into me as he bit into my neck and my fingers pressed into his lower back not wanting him to stop but his fingers soon found their way to me as he harshly rubbed over me and I pushed my body against it. His groans met my moans as we both found our release.

After a bit he laid beside me and I realized he was sleeping. I smiled slightly as I stared at him, I should have felt guilty but all I felt was happy.

I pulled his arm around me and he groaned before pulling me close to him. And for the first time since I returned to the roster I felt completely at ease and sheltered and allowed myself to drift off trying not to think of the consequences that would follow...