"And she was always blind
to the fact that love, too,
is sometimes broken."
Rm Drake

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"John.." I whined and he frowned lifting his head seeming confused. "Nevermind" I smiled and sat down beside him and rested my head on his shoulder.

We had walked beneath the mistletoe which on a normal holiday he would have pulled me underneath and tipped me over with a loving kiss but he seemed distracted. I didn't blame him though, he was busy as always and the fact that he was able to fly down to Phoenix for Christmas was amazing. Many of the wrestlers hadn't been so fortunate as most of them were stuck here as well away from their families.

I placed a soft kiss on his cheek before making my way to the kitchen to join Brie and hugged her from behind before I rubbed my hands over her belly.

"Omgosh I almost thought you were Bryan" She giggled which led to me laughing as well.

"So Bryan has two melons rubbing up against your back?" I held back any further laughter as she rolled her eyes.

We had just finished a good lunch that we all had prepared, well minus my love as his flight had been delayed so he had just flown in and gotten here as soon as he could. He caught my eyes briefly on him and winked at me before giving a teethless smile that showed the dimples I had fallen for so many years ago and I smiled in return before focusing on my other half.

"You know its still weird seeing that belly so huge." I stared at the bump very visible as she wore a white dress that hugged it beautifully.

"I know, I will be missing it though" She sighed giving it a gentle rub and I smiled with a mixture of emotions.

Ever since I got the call to go on the road back in August I hadn't really seen Brie which had been pretty much the time that she found out about her pregnancy. Maybe it was because she was glowing more than ever, a similar glow to when she married Bryan but even greater. Don't get me wrong, I was ecstatic for my sister, I was just slightly sad that we were not going on the journey together. We had always planned it all together, her me and JJ would raise our happy family together and JJ had a headstart and she was trailing behind. I was content in my life with John but it didn't mean I didn't long for the things I always wanted.

Her eyes fell on me and even though I wished she hadn't, she knew me better than anyone which pissed me off half of the time but she moved closer. "You do know, this little baby will be like a third yours. So technically we'll be sister moms"

I laughed and hugged her, "oh I didn't mean for a hug to happen but okay"

"You know you love my hugs" I pouted squeezing her shoulders even tighter as I buried my face.

"I tolerate your hugs. There's a difference, you're always wearing heels so when I hug you, my face gets squashed in those." She pointed towards my cleavage as I let her go.

"So? It provides a comfy cushion" I rolled my eyes before seating myself at the small table watching John talk to Bryan and my mom in the living room.

"How's work?" She questioned handing me some coffee sensing that I wasn't ready to join the rest just yet.

"Its awesome, I'm happy to be back" I smiled as I had fought in a good match back at TLC.

"Happy to be back and enjoying the storyline too?" She hesitantly questioned and I knew it would be coming up soon, when I had agreed to it I knew it would be something that would test me and Nattie turning on me earlier in the week added to it but it was helping both our careers in the end.

"Of course the storyline not so much but I'm working with Nattie and Leah doing some good matches." 

"I know you're professional, but I'll sit here sometimes and watch and be like is my sister okay with this or is this some surprise factor?" She shook her head and I wondered how it must have been from the fans perspective but especially from the people I loved who knew how those things used to twist a knife in my back were sensitive to me felt.

"Most of it I know will be said. You know our life we put out there, people love Nena and I love speaking about him. So if its bitter its okay" I shrugged not wanting her to worry too much about it.

"Even if its them rubbing it in that you won't have kids or a ring?"

"Yes Brianna"

"Don't give me that tone, I'm just checking. It gets to me sometimes cause I'm not by your side so I'm basically outcast and a fan on the side. You are terrible at answering your phone." I ignored the motherly tone in her voice and tried thinking when I had missed her calls.

"That one week was only cause I forgot my phone in Baron's bag."

"Baron Corbin?" Her eyes immediately met mine seeming slightly confused.

"Yeah." I half smiled not sure what her next words would be. Baron could be a pain here and there but he tended to provide good company, nothing compared to John or Allen but if I was alone unlike before we travelled together he would join me and even tell me what to say to rile Nattie or Carmella up. Or he'd just be asking for some random advice on something his fiance wasn't sure about.

"You're resorting to hanging out with a wolf? Oh you really must miss me." She laughed.

"Baron is nice. I had lunch with him and his wife yesterday, they're so cute." I smiled as it had been the first time I had actually hung out with her and she was amazing. She had flown in for the week knowing our schedules so I had taken her out for breakfast while Baron had an appearance and we met up again after.

"Well call me hopeful but I believe John might change his mind on the marriage thing. I doubt he'd let you go through all this torture." She added and I had thought the same thing when he hadn't really commented on the segments and simply told me to push through but I had gotten my hopes up before.

"I doubt it, that boat has sailed but let's stop being antisocial and join our family"

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"I saw you posted some surfing pictures awhile back. Where'd you go?" JJ questioned while I had been tuned out of the conversation for a bit and being JJ probably loved catching me off guard..

"Oh that was in Florida I think. Shinsuke took it for me, he is insane on a surf board" I shook my head as he seemed to become one with the ocean while the ocean and I just seemed to be separated.

"When were you with Shinsuke?" I heard John chuckle and frowned.

"When they pitched up at our house to go and surf, are you getting old?" I giggled and he shook his head with a small chuckle and kissed my forehead.

"You want another glass?" He smiled and stood up as everyone seemed to drift in their own world and I nodded. He disappeared to the back and I frowned seeing his phone light up as it must have fallen out of his pocket. I glanced and frowned deeper seeing a message from 'S'.

S: Lol babe, you forgot your suit jacket in my room but you're welcome to pick it up before your flight later ;)

I immediately sat back as Lola spoke to me as John had called my name from the other room asking which I preferred. I mumbled a response which she screamed back while I felt my world tip.

Maybe I had read wrong? Maybe it was the wrong number. Someone on set that he didn't bother to know the name of and they had sent the wrong message that was meant for their boyfriend or spouse.

"Uhm thanks" I smiled as he handed me the glass and took his seat. He briefly unlocked his phone and I heard a small chuckle from him.

"What's so funny?" I questioned hoping I sounded casual, normal and I watched as he locked it again before placing it into his pocket.

"Poor joke from one of the crew accompanied by telling me to have a safe flight" he shrugged before focusing his eyes on everyone else.

I did the same but all I could see was that message lingering in my mind.

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I walked along the somewhat deserted street considering everyone in town was either in restaurants with their family or in their homes. I had made an excuse of craving ice-cream and luckily my mom hadn't questioned me declining her tagging along. I had hardly remembered the drive over here, it all felt like a blank.

I sighed and walked up the steps and gave a brief knock before I could even dwell on the reason I wasn't home with my family on Christmas day the door opened.

"To what do I owe the pleasure?" The kind blue eyes met mine with a small smirk.