soyou: you know, it's funny how i always say i hate seeing ghosts

soyou: but here i am, wishing i can see you

soyou: even just a glimpse will do. 

soyou: just once

soyou: please

soyou: i didn't even get to say goodbye

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soyou: you probably won't reply but 

soyou: i was walking along the streets when eunseo called me to tell me there's a chain car accident 5 minutes away from my house

soyou: 7 people died on the spot

soyou: and i was passing by that road intersection where a few ambulances were situated

soyou: it was horrible. so, so horrible. you don't know how much i wanted to text you, even though i knew you wouldn't reply

soyou: but i held back, jeongguk. i pushed the phone further back into my bag and kept it underneath all of my other belongings. 

soyou: because now that my shelter is no longer here, i have to be independent. back to the zombie kim soyou, but a much stronger kim soyou now

soyou: and i hope you're proud of me.