Aphmau's POV

Don't play song yet

What?

"Zane I don't have time for your jokes...." I start, Zane, interrupting me with a nonjoking-like tone.

"I'm not joking, a background was just revealed about her and she's Sylvana......."

I feel Aaron rest his hand on my arm reassuring, as shocked as I was.

No...

It can't be.....

"My mother is dead Zane........she and my dad died in a car crash when I was 9...." I state, feeling suddenly like I was slightly.....wrong.....

Am I.....wrong?

"Well let's just hope she doesn't die in this one, Aaron, get in there now." Aaron nods, turning to me quickly.

"I got her okay, don't worry....." Though even when saying this, Aaron flinches a bit, like there was a bit of hurt in his eyes from a dark past.

Aaron joins the others in the O.R. as Zane gestures for me to follow him.

"C'mon, we gotta talk...."

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"What did your aunt that raised you tell you before she passed away?" Zane asks, setting me down with a cup of coffee in his office, me still sitting there too much in shock.

I gulp, even with the coffee, my throat felt like a barren desert.

"She always said that my parents passed away in a car crash when I was 9 and that she took me in afterward until she died when I was almost done with med school...." I explain, while shaking slowly.

What was going on?

What about Dad?

Is he alive too?

My Irene.......

What type of sick trick is this?!

Haven't I had enough?

Enough of this crap........

"Well it seems like there are a few things that they hid from you, and the only one who can explain to you what you need to know........is Sylvana." Zane advises, sipping from his black coffee, looking to me with that familiar pity.

If I had a nickel for every time someone looked at me with pity.......

I could probably buy myself out of this life.....

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I shuffle slowly down the hallway, turning a corner to enter an ICU room, finding Aaron there hunched over some paperwork, noticing me enter the room, watching me with tired eyes.

The woman was still asleep, a long bandage covering her bald head, her body patched up and her eyes closed, tubes in her nose, the heart monitor beeping slowly.

"Hey.......she's doing okay......how are you?" Aaron comes over and hugs me softly, letting me lean into his chest, as I observe the woman from the corner of the room, focusing on her face.

I knew I saw her eyes somewhere.

Though I shake my head slowly.

"I just can't accept its her........I've accepted my whole life that she was gone.......so how am I suppose to accept now that she's......here?" I ask Aaron indirectly, kinda also asking the ominous aura in the room.

"I know Aph.......it'll be hard at first....but just think about it.......you have your mother here.......your actual mother....." Aaron says, looking to the woman as well, then back to me.

"I'm pretty sure she'll explain everything when she wakes up...."

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I just sit at the chair near the bed, resting my cheek on my palm as my elbow rested on the armrest......

And I just stare at her......and stare....

And stare........

Not knowing what to say.....

Not knowing if to feel overjoyed or to feel confused or both.....

Okay yeah......I'm confused.....

But the thing is.....

When I look at her.....

I can grasp at a few distant memories in the back of mind.....

In the midst of many memories.......

To when I was very young.....
*Play Song*

Screams.....

Clamouring.....

Gunshots......

Goodbyes.......

Death.......

I mean......just why......

Just why, that when I thought everything wasn't going absolutely crazy and dark......

My "mother" shows up......

Wait......

I think....

I remember......

A voice....

A song......

A lullaby.....

Oh I don't know what's in the stars

Never heard it from above the world isn't ours

But I know what's in my heart

If you ain't mine I'll be torn apart

I don't know who's gonna kiss you when I'm gone......

"So I'm gonna love you now......like it's all I have..." I whisper, shock rising in my chest.

"I know it'll kill me when it's over..............." I start, then a familiar voice interrupts me.

My head shoots up.

"I don't wanna think about it......I want you to love me now..."

 Have a nice day my crystals!