• She asked me to look into her eyes, I avoided, thinking she might see through me.. •

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Nandini's pov

Love enters in your life only when you are least prepared, it comes with slow and steady steps but it do create a havoc inside your soul and when it exists from your life, it goes out like a storm exists from the city after ruining it totally.

Navniti mansion:

It's 11 in night and still Am sitting on the slab of window, gazing at the twinkling stars which fascinates me the most, I've already created loads of theories in my mind about stars, if anyone ask me to sit whole night here then without even a second thought I'll sit here with a peaceful mind.

Just then I heard a slight knock on the door, so I asked the person to come in and next RJ came there with some bags in his hands, I looked at him confusingly but placed my foot on the floor and with eyes asked him what's that?, He smiled and gestured me to take a look.. This really made me excited, RJ at this odd hour in my room that too with bags, that means he definitely has some beautiful surprise for me. So I walked towards him with a excitement all over my face. I took one of the packet in my hand and gave him a knowing smile.

Nandini : "I like your unannounced visits.."..I winked at him and he smiled wholeheartedly.

RJ : "I exactly know why you like that.."..He gave me his dazzling toothy smile and I looked at him with grin.

Nandini : "Because you bring gifts.."..I opened the bag and there is a very beautiful dress in it..

Nandini : "Wow! I saw this last week..That's really pretty! ..I loved it.."..I exclaimed in happiness, that's really an amazing graceful dress, I still remember I saw this dress one week back and this dress had instantly grabbed all my attention.

RJ : "open the second packet.."..He asked me with a soft tone and I instantly grabbed the other packet because now all my excitement has crossed the patient line, my enthusiasm is like of 4 year baby who got her favorite candyfloss. That's seriously me! Actually who doesn't like gifts? Obviously everyone loves gifts, and even I do.

And there is another beautiful dress, simple but elegant which brought sparkle in my eyes. I can't believe both the dresses are same I liked one week back.

Nandini : "That's the same one, it's very sophisticated!"..I commented with a grin plastered on my face. Then I looked at RJ and hugged him tightly. "Thank you so much RJ! "..That all I can muttered.

RJ : "Wohho! Save your hugs princess.."..He stated with a playful smile and this made me broke the hug with confusion all over my face.

RJ : "I didn't brought all these gifts for you, but your secret admirer sent this..".. he told me with a smile and his smile gives me the indication of my secret admirer ..

I blushed profusely and instantly texted that secret admirer..

Thank you for such beautiful surprise, I loved the dresses but I would have appreciated more if you have given me personally. I'll settle this with you tomorrow! .. missing my secret admirer ;)

Am still standing with that sheepish smile on my face that's so so unlike me, I really wonder what name should I give to these unnerving emotions within me. I start blushing even with the mere mention of his name, when he's around me I just feel like looking at him and forget this whole world. I don't know what spell he cast on me all I know is this that whatever it is, it's really soothing, peaceful, sensational and overwhelming. I don't know what am talking, am making any sense or not but it's very true when it comes to him I loose my sanity.

RJ: "Ahem! am still here"..his teasing tone brought me back from my Manik's land. And now i felt more embarrassed as he must have caught me lost in my own fantasy land.

Nandini : "I know you are here Mr. Rahul Jaykar, stop being a teaser and tell me how you got all these gifts?.."...I tried hard to sound as firm as i can but this stupid smile is never leaving my face and i can easily say that am glowing more than stars today. God! he always has this effect on me, but is it more than liking?, how to find that its more than liking?, is this love?, oh god! why its all so complicated.

RJ: "Well! Miss. Nandini Murthy if you want to stay in your dream world only so i think i should leave.."..he again teased but this time i started blushing badly.

RJ: "You know what Nandini, you have the most shining and peaceful smile. Don't ever stop smiling.."..his voice is genuine and his eyes are filled with honesty only, he is such a sweetheart and obviously my best friend. I think i can trust him and most importantly i can talk about my inner dilemma with me.

Nandini: "RJ, when you all are with me na i just feel like queen of this whole world,"...i twirled around with happiness clearly evident on my face.

RJ: "easy girl, easy. I think you have loads to tell and am very much interested in knowing everything. So lets sit and talk.."..he held my hand and made me sit on the edge of the bed.

• Nothing can't be peaceful than his memories and nothing can't me soothing than his handsome smileys... •

Nandini : "Firstly you tell me, from where you got these gifts?"..I asked as soon as we sat down and he smiled as if he was expecting this to be my first question.

RJ: "Actually your Mr. Secret admirer asked Dhruv to deliver these gifts at your home, I was coming to this side only when i met Dhruv outside so apparently i took the gifts from him and came over here instantly.."..He answered me patiently and all I was doing was only smiling and smiling, god! Why doesn't this smile fade away, I feel like hiding my face in my palm and blush as much as I can just like heroines used to do in 80s Bollywood movies. See! I started talking nonsense now, should I visit a psychiatrist? Is am going insane?. No! No! Nandini calm down, you are fine, everything is fine, just stop thinking about him, but how to get rid of this handsome face? , His beautiful charismatic smile?, And his deep brown eyes?, Oh God! Why you made him so perfect?.

RJ : "Come back to earth!"..His teasing tone brought me back, oh god! He must be thinking I lost my brain, but am wondering did I lost my heart as well?, Now again this idiotic things. Nandini calm down, let's just talk to him. Shh! Calm..

Nandini : "RJ? Have you ever missed anyone More than your life? I mean have you ever been in thoughts of someone 24*7?"... I asked with uncertainty, desperately and impatiently but truly speaking I have no idea what am feeling right now, it's like am in his memories all the time, it's like am no longer me, it's like I came to life after I met him, and all these feelings are unknown yet so known to me. Sometimes I feel like all this has happened earlier also, like I have experienced this same dilemma long back, it's like am living an already lived life once more.

RJ : "what if I say yes?"..He has a smile on his face, but something very unusual in his eyes, he is looking at me deeply with some deep emotions buried inside him, it's like he's trying to communicate way too much just by his eyes only. But I chucked all my thoughts and came back to the topic, right now I don't want to flaunt my reading eyes skills, my subject is Manik Malhotra so I'll focus there only.

Nandini : "Will you tell me how it feels?, I mean what does it actually mean?, No! Actually I mean......Umm! I don't know what I mean".. god! Am fumbling now, what's wrong with me?. But he has a bright smile on his face.

RJ : "Ask your heart, what it actually means?, How it feels when you have only one person in your mind and heart?, How it feels when you start relating every other thing with that one person?, how it feels when that one person becomes your center of world?, how it actually feels when that person is around you and what it actually means when he's no longer there with you?. Gee! Ask your heart.."...His soft smooth tone made me ponder on his each and every question. I started thinking deeply now, when am in his thoughts am at peace, when I relate things with him I have a never ending smile on my face and joy in my heart, when I think nothing beyond him it makes me feel like he's the king of my world and am his queen, when he's around me all the things start shining, everything is very colorful, I feel like am alive, but when he isn't there with me I just feel like nothing is left in this world, it's too dull all around, I become all crusty and cross which is so un-me.

I can't believe I already had all my answers and I was looking everywhere for them, but still the confusion is there, Is this what they call love? Do I love him?. Do i really love him?.

Nandini: "But RJ...."..before i even can ask him he instantly held my hand and looked directly in my eyes as if he has already listened my question and he is trying to say Yes! you are in love..

RJ: "Listen Nandini, whenever we are in fix there is only one person who can light our path and that's we ourselves only, no one can give you a better solution than you, yourself, just try to ask your heart what it feels, what does it want? and what's that brewing inside you?, ask your heart and you'll definitely get all your answers.."..his tone is comforting and RJ is the one trustworthy man i met, he is really someone whom you can rely upon with even close eyes, I listened his words meticulously and tried to process all that in my mind.

RJ: "Take care, i should leave now.."...he kissed my forehead and left. But now am more confused, I really have no idea what has developed inside me and am not even able to identify it, it's really very difficult sometimes to even analyze your own emotions.

I laid down on my bed and just when my eye fell on a teddy bear which Mukti has given me when i came back from the hospital, I still remember her words when she had handed me this beautiful teddy.

Mukti: "Nandini, this teddy has seen all your ups and downs,I know i haven't shown you this to you in this one year but now i really think that its the time you can fill some gaps although it may be painful and difficult at the same time but now i really want you to cherish some of those beautiful memories which has been tainted. Nandini, Jab khamoshiyon awaaj deti hai na toh shor kitna bhi jyada kyu na ho hume un khamoshiyon ki cheekhe sunayi de he jati hai. I only want you to be happy and safe, till the time you have a smile on your face, I can fight with anything and everything.."....her words had left a big impact on me.

Mukti from always is over protective about me, Her concern is something you can't measure, but when that day she was talking to me i saw infinite pain in her eyes as if some memories are haunting her. From start i know they all are hiding something from me but i never questioned them back because i trust them, i have full faith on my friends that they will be with me all the time and won't ever do something which isn't in my favor.

I picked the teddy from the side and laid it on top of me, I don't know why but i feel connected to it, i feel like mukti had given me a hint that day about this teddy perhaps! i didn't understood.

I checked my phone in hope of him to answer my text but i guess he slept, on the other hand sleep is far away from the doors of my eyes, I think it's the longest night for me but today only i'll give all my answers to me and tomorrow will be the brightest day of my life.

A closed my eyes and started reminiscing all the times I spent with him.

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Am not well! Don't expect much from me! Have a beautiful life ahead! ❤

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