I loved Allah so much in my childhood that if I sinned I'll promise never to do it and ask for signs that he forgave me. I always got signs.

I was now in elementary school,  my third year precisely. The memories of that night still troubled me but I try to let go of it. The way I got pleasured touching the opposite sex at the age of six still troubled me. I cried myself to bed because I didn't want to sin or break my promise to my mom.