A/N

Ok so I know I am very late. I am being shameless and saying sorry again for the late updates. To be honest I had time to write but the long gaps between my writings made it very hard for me to put my thoughts on the paper (screen). My fingers couldn't move and my mind refused to work. No ideas seem good enough. Also the minimal use of English language during this lockdown somewhere effected what little command I had over it. I found myself doing many mistakes while writing. I was stuck.

And then some angles slided in my dm and my emails. They motivated me to write. I am aware I didn't reply the mails as well as comments and messages cause I thought why not give them a chapter instead of another sorry ass excuse (I was not being rude or arrogant). 

I love you all so much.

So let's talk about the chapter. Now this is going to be a little confusing because I was confused (Please appreciate my honesty).

I tried thinking like Austin and putting his thoughts on the paper (screen). And as we all know that Austin is in a fucked up situation right now so his thoughts are a mess. But still if you guys don't understand anything please dm me and don't put hate comments.

I used to enjoy criticism but now a days I get upset reading them. May be it is because the personal problems I am going through. 

Now I will shut up and let you all enjoy the chapter.

But before that, as a sorry note and to make you all a bit happy.

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CHAPTER 32:

AUSTIN'S POV:

"Angel", I called out and both the heads turned. FUCKKKKK!!!! This is going to be hell. Earlier, it was difficult to distinguish between both of them, but now one can easily tell who is Adria and who is Andrea.

Andrea, the girl who thought me what love was. The girl who was my escape from the tiring college studies and the fake people around me, the girl who suddenly disappeared, turning me into a monster, now looked way different from what she used to 5 years back. She was all bones, her eyes which light up after seeing me were still lifeless, her cheeks shrunken, her hair was not golden brown anymore instead they were coloured jet black and chopped just reaching her shoulder. 

She looked the same yet different. On the other hand,  Adria, the girl who brought light to my dark world, who made me fall in love again, the girl who was successful to calm the monster inside me, the girl who changed my life still looked the same she was 3 days back. 3 days back when she stabbed me and ran away with her ex. It angers me, not because she stabbed me, I deserved it but remembering how she leaned on him, how she cried on his shoulder makes my blood boil

."Austin", Andrea comes running towards me bringing me back to the present. I was in a wheelchair, Martin helping me with it. Andrea ran towards me and hugged me tightly. Now that I saw her face from near she looked more like the little girl I had loved.

"What happened?", was her first question. I saw her worried expression as she was examining me. I touched her cheek, my heart filling with happiness to finally see her again. 

"Nothing, my angel", I smiled at her. "I missed you", I kissed the back of her hands. Even though our lives were messed up right now, I can't deny that I missed her. At least until I misunderstood Adria as her.

"I missed you too", she then knelt in front of me and took my hands in hers. Her eyes filled with tears. "I missed you so much Aussie, every day, every second. I was living in hell and I knew you would get me out of there. I knew you would find me. I..", she cried keeping her head on my lap.

Now that I know a little about what really happened with Andrea I was no longer angry at her for leaving me. Instead, I was angry at myself for not being there to save her. For letting her suffer 5 long years.

"I am sorry it took me long", I said while creasing her hair.

"It's ok", she looked up and smiled at me. "Let's go I want you to meet someone", she dragged my wheelchair and settled me beside her. "Austin, this is my sister Adria and Adria meet Austin", Andrea said smiling.

I moved my eyes to her again. And fuckkkk. The reality hit me hard again right in my ass. Again I realize how fucked I was.

Adria was looking at me, her eyes filled with guilt. Her face as if she had seen a ghost. She was scared. And as always I was the reason. Yes, she stabbed me, but the situation she was in justified it. I have done the worst things to her but she forgave me and now it was my turn. I wanted to hug her, console her, say sorry to her but with Andrea beside me, I can't. She has been through hell and I don't want to know her what happened between me and her twin sister. It will break her, even more. "Hi", I said looking at Adria. She gave me a confused look but nodded. 

Seeing us like this Andrea was about to say something but Augustus stopped her. "Now now, just start eating already all of you. I am so hungry I can't wait another second", he said and then we ate in silence.       

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After the breakfast I warned everyone not to talk about the sad things. I wanted Andrea and Adria to relax a bit before dropping the bombs in front of them. Also the coward inside me was trying to run from the situation.

"And the way Miss Chow looked when she realised it is Austin who was dragging you out, was epic", Augustus said and he and Andrea started laughing loudly.

"Yeh, and I was so scared, Miss Chow was the most strict teacher we had", Andrea said.

They were remembering the time when I confessed Adira in her classroom and dragged her out without even asking permission from the teacher. I was 'the popular ex-student and my dad one of the trustees, so everyone from the school knew me even when I all ready passed the school and now was a university student.

Andrea and Augustus were laughing remembering the good old days while I sat there smiling at them. But half of my attention was towards Adria, she was sitting beside Andrea silently. Her eyes meeting mine at times but she quickly averted them.

Everyone in the room had messed up emotions. 

Andrea was trying hard to finally forget her past, laughing and maybe dreaming of a beautiful future with me. If only she knew everything about the new me and the things that happened between her sister and me.

Adria was numb, I could see that she was. Who won't be, her life was full of chaos right now. I bet she even had enough of being confused.

Augustus was hiding his rage. He was furious at Adria for stabbing me. Even though I have already forgiven her, he didn't. And knowing him, I don't think he will forgive her anytime soon. I could see that he was deliberately trying to bring up more things about me and Andrea just to see Adria's reaction. I could even see his faint sadistic smile when he saw her face drop after every sentence.

And me, for the first time in life Austin Damon Hawk was confused and fucked. I was clueless about everything. My feelings, my love, my future, my emotions, every fucking thing. Every fucking thing was a mess. A mess that was drowning me into it. I had no idea what to do. And there was so much to do. I have to tell Andrea everything that happened in the past, I have to confront Adria and meet her with her father and most importantly I have to sort my own feelings. Cause at this point even I don't know who I want to be with.