Play Balmorhea-remembrance on repeat. And loud. It wont be the same without it.

It cant be. Olivia stared to where the sky met the ocean. It cant be, it cant be. She spoke in a whisper. He cant do it. He cannot do it. She quickly got up and ran towards her car. He cant do it!

Where are you going?

Brandon, I have to stay alone!

She quickly got in the car and drove off. Tears flooding her eyes, as she drove back to her apartment, constantly getting flashbacks about Hayden. You cant leave me. You cant go.

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Everything will be so beautiful.

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You cant go without saying goodbye, Hayden, you cant! she cried and sped up the car.

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If I die now, ill die the happiest man in the world.

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Her mind circled back to memories of the last times, when it clicked.

The day before they left for the wedding, Hayden hid the cd from her.

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Feeling uneasy, she tried to control her breathing as she finally reached the apartment and ran out the car, into the house.

She ran into his study, turned the lights on, and scoped each and every inch of the room. Looked through all the cupboards, drawers, went through every record, every magazine. She threw the bundle of magazines on the floor and screamed. Where is it! she cried out.

She screamed and trashed the whole room, but couldnt find it anywhere. WHERE IS IT!

She got up and ran to the living room, scoping every place. She checked he drawers and all the decoration pieces under the tv.

The cupboards, the tables, the bookshelf.

She ran to the small coffee table and pulled out the drawer.

And there it was.

The CD, labelled, My Olivia.

She picked it out and put it into the DVD player and turned the tv on.

She sat right in front of the tv, on her knees, and stared at the screen.

In the video, Hayden sat on his chair in the study.

My darling. My Olivia. Forgive me because I didnt keep my promise. My soul, Olivia. My love, my everything. Were face to face again. I wont be able to keep the promise I made to you in the beginning, my love. I wont be beside you. Olivia burst into tears.

But I know youll forgive me. Because you know how to forgive the ones you love. I love you more than the world. Do you remember the story we read once, about a little prince? I got mad when you said I was the fox in it. Yes, I am that fox. You made me a pet, just by your love. I was unable to ever run away. You taught me to wait, and you directed me towards love. Olivia cried and looked down.
Olivia, you created me again. I love you more than anything in the world, I love you more than life itself. But I am sick, my one and only. I dont have enough strength for myself. I dont have enough strength to protect you from myself. That day, I took you on the road to make you happy, but I broke your wings while flying. I dont know what happiness is, Olivia. I understood the fear when I saw it in your eyes. I feel as if I am a worm that fell madly in love with a rose, and is eating its leaves like a wolf. Im going away, my darling. Where my love cant hurt you. A place where I can love you without hurting or breaking you. You call me Cheri. Too much of it is poison, Olivia. Its poison. You made my life better than it could ever have been. Im very happy while going. You should be happy too.
Also, forgive me. if not now, then forgive me some other day. Uncountable kissed for you. Kisses as much as the stars for you, my darling. He brought his fingers to his mouth and kissed it, then pointed towards the screen.

And the video ended.

Olivia screamed and ran her hands over the screen, No, no, no, no, no!

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The divers brought the small dinghy close to the body, and put the body in the boat and sent it to the surface, there, the police officers and doctors put the body onto a stretcher and put it in the body bag.

While zipping the body up, the doctor put the arm on the dead body, noticing a butterfly tattoo on the bodys left hand.

Inform the family. The police ordered.
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
The butterfly remained incomplete.