she thinks of all the people she's let down, as she lays in bed that night.

the way she's lied to her brother, and lied to herself. the way she lied when they're all worried and convinced somethings wrong.

she disappointed all her friends, they talk she be never answers. its hard when you don't know what to say.

she disappoints her mom. for the first time her mom says something almost breaks her to tears

"im worried if you'll ever hurt yourself, cause you know that'll hurt me"

once again she lies, because sometimes shes worried that she'll hurt herself too

and shes worried about the people she hurts in order to sink further into her lies

to sink further into the things that hurt her

to sink further into her mind

her terrible, terrible, mind

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