Imagine being Shawn's best friend, now you have to go your separate ways.

I was 11 years old when I kissed Shawn. We were kids, so we thought it was funny, so we became friends. It started out to be a day, then when the other kids were grossed out, we laughed. From that day on, were joined at the hip.

we did everything together, we still do. We were there for the breakups, family deaths, and a divorce. We were each other go-to. We hang out every single day, and the odd day when we wouldn't hang out, we have an hour conversation on the phone.

We were always in group chats with our friends and constantly texted each other privately.

We were the attractive people at the school, and when a new student would arrive, everyone would warn then that our attractiveness cam with a warning sign. Screw with them and you have to deal with the other.

We had the same dreams, the same wants and usually the same needs, but now things were changing.

Shawn was going to college in Toronto, I was going to Vancouver.

I told Shawn the day I got accepted, I was happy and so destroyed at the same time.
I had never cried that much, I have never had that much confusion.

Yes, my parents divorced, but Shawn was there, and now I was leaving Shawn here. That was the worst thing, this was the worse thing.

I sit on my floor, everything is in boxes, not a single thing on the walls, not a single clothing item in my closet.

I was left with my own thoughts, was this really what I wanted, where I wanted to go, what I wanted to do? I have been dreaming about oil school since I was 13, but I was leaving everything behind.

"Hey," Shawn said as he stood in the doorway.

"Remember when I made you help repaint my room because my parents wouldn't."

"Yeah, you spilled half a can of paint on yourself."

"I didn't even try to blame you because I knew it was all my fault."

"Well, I have never seen anyone literally-."

"Is this my fault?"

"What? Nothing bad is happening Julie."

"I am moving Shawn, that's bad."

"That's life, and please don't remind me." Shawn chocked

"I have too, I leave in an hour."

"Julie."

"... Sh- Shawn." I said as a tear rolled down my face.

Shawn walked over to me and wrapped his arms around me as he dropped himself to the floor.

Tears ran down my face, Shawn buried his face into my shoulder, I knew he was crying too, I knew he didn't want me to leave, but he never once asked me to stay. He knew if he asked, I would stay, I would give my dreams up, to stay ... if he asked.

"I don't think I want to go."

"You have to."

"Why."

"Because you will never forgive yourself if you stay."

"Shawn, I am regretting leaving."

"You won't. I am always going to be here, that school, and your spot won't be. I am going to be here when you come back to visit your family, I can easily be contacted, I can't beat the shit of douche bags for you, but I will take a plane if I need to."

I laughed Shawn's comment as I wiped a tear from my cheek. Shawn was looking at me,

"I hate leaving," I said

"I know."

Shawn leaned in a softy kissed me, then smiled.

"Just like when were 11." He giggled

"Not really, then was more of hello, that was a goodbye."

"It was more of a ... I'll see you soon."

"Just ask me to stay."

"No, I can't. We both know that."

"Shawn."

"Jule, you're going to be okay, fuck you're going to be great. I am going to be okay too. Everything will be okay, trust me, I have never lied to you."

"I know."

"Julie." My mom walked in with tissues in her hand

"Yeah?"

"Your dads here to drive you to the airport."

"It's already been an hour?

"Afraid so." She whispered

I stood to my feet then smiled at Shawn as he stood as well.

"I guess this is It best friend." He said

"I guess," I said holding backers, but clearly failing

"I'll see you soon."

"Promise?"

"Have I ever lied."

I hugged Shawn as tightly as I could, smiled once last time, then walked out the door.

The photo of Shawn and over 2 million likes on his instagram .... ❤️❤️❤️
Basically I just wanted to thank everyone who has stuck with me and sent me messages ❤️❤️ I am sorry I haven't been updating. College is keeping me really busy, but thank you ❤️❤️