Can you save
Can you save my
Can you save my heavydirtysoul
Heavydirtysoul by Twenty one Pilots

I finally made my desicion and somehow I felt... lighter. Like I could finally relax knowing that I finally don't have to worry about falling in love, and trying to protect myself from my partner. I could be with Paul and know that he is my soul mate for the rest of our lives. I buried my face into his shoulder, a large grin breaking out on my face. I don't think I remember the last time I was ever this happy like this.

However... I guess there is one problem left over. My brother... I don't think he is going to take this ever well. He is going to go into lock down mode I bet. My face scrunches up in the thought of losing Paul after I just got him. I suppose Paul could sense the damper on my good mood. He lifted my chin and scanned my face.

"What's wrong? Why are you making that face?" He tells me laughing nervously. I sign and look briefly around the room spotting my white board, and I stretch over to the stand by the bed to get it. I stare at it for a second before writing 'My Brother isn't going to like this'. He stares at it in slight confusion. "Why is that? Does he not like me or something?"

I sucked in a large breath. Okay right, he doesn't know about certain things that I haven't mentioned yet. I started to get really conflicted. This is really important but I didn't want him to see me differently, like I was less than everything he had thought of me so far. I guess it's better to get this out in the open before we go any further. If he decides to leave me now it wouldn't hurt as much and later right?

I come to a compromise with myself. 'Tell me more in detail about imprints' I quickly scribble down. He looks at it then laughs in a relieved fashion, as if he thought that's what I was so worried about.

"Well basically we are literally meant to be, perfect for one another and there will never be anyone else. Neither of us will ever fall out of love. I am whatever you want me to be, your protector, boyfriend, combination I'm hoping for," he says winking at me causing me to smile again.

'Okay so... I have some things you need to know about my past. It's very long so actually I'll need you to get me a writing stick and a piece of paper so I can write it all out.'

I finish writing and hand the board over for him to read. He nods slowly and gets up and moves to the door. "I'll be back in a second with that, just stay put," he tells me sternly. I nod and with that he is gone out the door.

I frown thinking about how hard this is going to be. I wondered how he will react and what he will think of me after I tell him everything. I guess it will also be relieving to finally say the entire truth out loud. Even Jason only knew half of the truth. I closed my eyes and breathed in and out trying to keep myself as calm as possible. The faster I get this out the faster it will be over.

Super short chapter, I know. I just wanted to at least get something written and posted since it's been such a very long time. The next chapter however will be some nice back story at least so look forward to that.