It's another interesting update guys and like before, be warned of this chapter. *Maturity is needed. Don't attack me in my dream tho😂❤

Dedicated to _iseoluwah_ she's a crazy being that has been on my neck all week and I love her for her boldness and open-mindedness.
Ise take kiss🤭😘😘

And, I'm afraid it'll hurt when I finally fall down.
'Cause the weight of my world's is in the palm of your hands now.
-𝓙𝓾𝓼𝓽𝓲𝓷𝓮 𝓢𝓴𝔂𝓮 𝓯𝓽 𝓦𝓲𝔃𝓴𝓲𝓭

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"You have to open your eyes sweetie. I'm not gon' take advantage of you in an intoxicating condition like this." My eyelids flutter open as his candy hot breath whooshes past my skin. My face morphs into sudden mortification at his words.

Wait...what?

I suddenly realise Tobias lips were not on mine. Instead, his lips brushed the corner of my lips lightly. As light as a feather's touch.

So he didn't kiss me?

You've got to be kidding me!

I groan out in frustration while his face holds an impassive look. He hesitantly removes his hand from inbetween my top - where I initially put his hand on my cleavage.

So he doesn't find me attractive right? That's it. I know.

I should have known someone like Tobias would feel disgusted by me. Come on, he is my senior in school and my friend's elder brother.

How pathetic can I get?

"Umm, it's fine really." I mumble, feeling dejected while my whole body is literally on fire - the urge to be touched badly. His hands cradle my face as he strokes my cheek gently and I almost melt under his touch but the overwhelming and immense feeling of guilt, that I might do something I would regret for life, manoeuvres in.

So you finally got your senses huh?

My brain retorts in sheer mockery. I mentally cringe at what I have turned to - just in a couple of an hour I am already throwing myself at a guy.

"I want to pee so can you please-umm..like, excuse me?" I wade off his hands from my face though I am craving for it TERRIBLY. His honey eyes sparkles under the blue neon lights that streams On the dancefloor. I gulp audibly and avert my weary eyes from his burning gaze.

Tobias is the perfect definition of honey, fireworks, candy and fantasy island. The combination sounds crazy to a normal human bieng ‐ but then, that is how I can view him in my mind perfectly.

He gives off this mysterious aura of bubbly humor and ballistic energy. To top it all, he speaks in riddles and proverbs. He is infact, a perfect definition of enigma in conundrum. I don't think I can ever understand him. Ever.

"Are you okay?" His words jolts me from my sinful reverie, causing me to nod somberly at his question.

"I just want to use the bathroom. Excuse me..." I trail off and shuffle my feet awkwardly. Even without meeting his gaze, I know his honey lited eyes are boring holes into my body and that alone causes goosebumps to rise in my pores. His hands that are hanging lazily on my face, slowly makes their way down to my arms and he gives them a gentle squeeze before releasing me.

"Should I come?" The words sounded so absurd at the moment. Like he wants to follow me to the toilet? He realises his slip up as he chuckles nervously and paves way for me to pass without muttering a word again.

I didn't waste time as I strut all the way to the stairs, clumsily knocking people over and swaying unsteadly. My whole body is literally on heat. I can feel it erupting into hot passion and flames.

My head is becoming fuzzy with every passing second and I struggle to reach the guest room that I slept in when I came here last. At least I can remember the room.

Hallelujah.

Twisting the knob with agitating hands, I realise the room is the same as the last time I left it. The tangled sheets on the floor and a wheezing sensation of my faint perfume scent mixed with Cedarwood and pine, hits my nostrils that instant.

"This is my villa Aramide. You can't tell me to get out as you please."

His voice. I can hear it replay in my head in a sensual tone. Clear as a crystal waterfall and bright as day. I imagine Jamal standing at the same spot he stood on that day, as he mocked me for being afraid of his cat. I unconsciously clamp my legs together as I reminisce on how close we were. The feel of his bare hands on my exposed back and thighs. His breath that caressed my nape that day. His grey eyes th...

Aramide stop this!

I slowly pick the messed up duvet on the wooden floor to fold it neatly on the bed.

Why was this room not arranged when I left?

Maybe...he left it like that to remember the moment we had.

Which stupid moment Aramide??

I groan in frustration wondering why, where, when and how I started imagining stupid thoughts of us...together under the duvet on the bed.

Aramide stop!

I grab the nearest pillow and stuff it on my face whilst screaming loudly. The only sounds that come out is a muffled scream - of course the pillow is swallowing my frustrated and sickening scream.

"Soliloquising when you wake up. Hmm, and I thought sleep-talking was the only weird thing you do."

His voice again! I think I am having all these memories of that day cause I am in the same room it happened right? I quickly toss the pillow back to the bed and enter the adjourning bathroom with shaking legs. My temperature has risen incredulously high and I can't even find my phone to contact anyone.

I should have allowed Tobias to follow me.

I stumble towards the bathtub and lie inside it, with gushing water filling it slowly. Maybe the cold water will cool my high temperature down. It slowly rises with every ticking of the time and it drenches my clothes and body the same time. But still, it doesn't cool the forbidden heat that is pooling inbetween my legs. My hands on their own accord, moves southward and I slip my hands into my panties.

I feel like a trash.

I feel like a downtrodden girl.

I feel impure.

I bite inside my cheeks as my body becomes reckless and weary. I've never felt this way before...this is all new. My head pounds as if a sledge hammer is being slammed into my cranium. A gut-wrenching scream escapes my mouth and I arch my back off the bathtub. My mind is no longer on the running tap water as it overflows the bathtub.

This ache is too much.

I slowly step out of the bathtub and slip with a thud on the squeaky floor. The pain I am feeling is double and I ask myself repeatedly, is this the consequences of shutting Ayo down? Or this is my punishment for tricking Derek and Kiki? The floor is covered with a special type of marble tile so it didn't hurt that much but then...

I slowly crawl to at least call for help but my throat is throbbing badly. Nobody is coming to my aid so I finally give up and rest on the soaked bath mat--my wet clothes and body, sticking on the floor and the water still overflowing from the bathtub.

This is it.

I am dying for real.

And the worst thing is that, my eyelids refuse to close. I am still hyperactive as I have never been in my lifetime. My body is so hot, my core is pooled with heat and my body feels over sensitive.

What is happening to me?!

I hear a distant sound of camera shutter sound followed by snares and jeers from distant voices. It sounds like jumbled nonsense until I can sense a presence in the bathroom.

"Hey ghetto girl," My head is too messed up to recognise the voice. And I slowly take in the form of the person standing in my front. Glass diamond heels, ripped white jean, white crop top that showcases a flawless belly and taking in her face steadily - Cheryl. Why am I not surprised?

No shit sherlock.

"Ge..get out of m-my wayyyy." I manage to utter the words as I hold onto a random steel bar to steady myself to my feet. She doesn't reply as she turns the head of the flowing tap off and faces me back with a smirk. A shisha pen is placed inbetween her index and middle finger. She sits at the edge of the shower tray crossing her legs and taking a hit from the glowing shisha pen.

"You see, I thought you had sense. But well, seems like you're dumber than the most moronic human on earth." Splatters of vapour like rising steam, emits from her mouth as she says the word disdainfully.

"I warned you Aramide. I really warned you from onset. You know I am not a girl of ink and paper, neither am I a girl that bluffs like an empty barrel," she slowly gets up from her position and sashays to where I am standing. I slump on the wall for support, feeling trapped.

I can't escape this. This is my fate.

"I specifically warned you that no damn soul should know you are a Bolanle." Is she mad? Please do not tell me that is the reason why she is threatening me. How can I keep that as a secret for so long? And as far as my memory can take me, it is only Kiki, Jerry, Jide, Jamal, Isoken and snr Tobias that are aware.

She tsks and blows a puff of the shisha steam on my face. I choke and start coughing. Shisha isn't that bad I guess cause it doesn't smell terrible like weed and cigarettes.

"Time to suffer the consequences." She finishes in a high pitched tone and my stomach churns badly. Deja vu of how my mother poisoned me and said similar words like this, strikes me hard like reality and I stare at her ridiculously wondering if she poisoned me too.

"Don't get ahead of yourself ghetto girl, I didn't poison you for the record." I heave in relief but my mind still tells me, that what she has in stock is something much more wicked and life wrecking. "But...." she trails of and does a whistle call.

Making the whistle call, someone walks in majestically and I turn to stare - Mayorkun? You've got to be kidding me! His eyes holds a mischievous glint when he stares at me lustfully and I am left to gape at his retreating form. He goes behind Cheryl and holds her waist from behind.

Okay...

Cheryl smirks back to spin on her feet and stand on her tiptoes to lock her lips with his.

...Jesus Christ of Nazareth!

This is...am I witnessing incest live? My two cousins making out? I choke on my saliva and fall to the ground due to my over heating body that is getting weak with every passing second. They eventually stop their deep throating while Mayorkun spanks her on the butt. She winks at him and crouches down to my level again.

"You must be thinking, oh my gosh she's making out with our cousin. Don't worry love it isn't your business at the moment but then..he would take care of you." With a final hit from her shisha pen, she stands up to whip out her iPhone and positions it in a video recording form. Mayorkun struts to where I am and slowly places his hands on my hips.

"I love this outfit on you. Really. " he says with a smirk and I am too weak to fight back. Moreover, his touch is what I need. Anybody touch at the moment would be fine. "I can see every inch of you through this soaked white dress. Hmm sexy as fück." I gag in my head wondering how my life became like this. Uncle Makanaki son - my cousin Mayorkun, is as worse as his father.

Cheryl giggles by the corner and I am left to wonder why I can't scream, why I can't shed a tear, or why I can't fight back. His hands comes up to knead my breast through my soaked dress and I unconsciously mourn out. My whole body is still over sensitive so a single touch moves me. My nipples harden beneath and I arch my back.

"You like that huh?" He asks with a mock smile on his face. I swear I felt like slapping him but my body has other plans. I continue to mourn as his touch turns aggressive.

"Get to the main deal love." Cheryl urges and Mayorkun removes his hand slowly and grips my thighs as he kneels and encircles them round his waist.

"Pl-pleaseeeee..." I plead with my last strength as he unbuttons my gown slowly.

"Please what?" His voice is husky as he brings his face closer to plant kisses on my neck. "Should I touch you here? Hmm?" My gown is completely undone and my strapless bra and panties are on full display. So his hands slip into my bra to fondle my bare nipple.

I badly wish I could tell him to please leave me alone, but my mouth always have other plans.

"Yes..there!" My voice comes out squeaky and Cheryl laughs wickedly saying something like; "Such a slut."

My eyes roll to the back of my head as I feel a sharp pain wreck my spinal cord.

"I knew the effect of the drugs will hit you hard hun." That is Cheryl again and it seems she is not done as she comes closer to video us well. "This video only comes out if you associate yourself with the Triple-J and Tobais. Kindly stay away from them and all will be fine." She smacks her lips in a thinking mood and speaks cheerfully again. "By the way, Lizzy says hi." She flicks her hair over her shoulders and crouches to the ground level.

Wait..Lizzy? as in the same one that was expelled from CIGs because of me? The one that ordered girls to drown me in school?

"I don't need to see him going down to business with you but since I have the initial video on my saved files, you know what will happen hun. It won't be good if you disobey me again. Or else..." she waves her phone in the air and laughs like a Cheshire cat. She grabs Mayorkun face and kisses him deeply as he momentarily removes his hand from my chest and grabs Cheryl's butt before she giggles and smacks him on the chest.

"Incase you have not figured it out, I love Tobias and I'll do anything to get him that is why I am dating his bestfriend - Christopher." Her words turns emotional for a moment and my head is too fuzzy to comprehend her words. She dusts imaginary dirt from her body and attempts to leave before speaking again.

"Teach her a lesson she won't forget." And with that, she leaves only I and Mayorkun in the bathroom.

So this is how I would lost my virginity? To my cousin? On a bathroom floor? When I'm under the influence of drugs?

I feel like the dirtiest slut on earth. He regrabs my waist and leans down to remove my bra. I close my eyes wishing for sleep to come - I don't want to feel the aftermath pain. I don't want to see how he'll take advantage of me neither do I want to feel excited while he's raping me.

I'm fucked up for real.

"I'll take care of you Aramide. I will." His voice sounds sober and a flicker of sympathy flashes past his eyes as my bra finally comes off. I slowly crave into sleep and dreamt of a certain lonely girl that was drowning in the pool of her own blood.

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My head hurts.

My body feels like it has been thumped upon by a stampede of crazy people.

My limbs are numb.

I think my soul has been sucked out of my original body...and my vision is dancing in blinding darkness.

I hear voices faraway...

Agitation, tension, worry, spews of curse words, soberness, heated atmosphere and fear.

Where am I? Is heaven not supposed to be free from bad energies like this?

"You took my sister to a fücking party! Don't tell me to calm down! Don't tell me to fücking reason like a normal human being when my sister was found in a bad state. A freaking elite party??! What the hell was y'all thinking? Huh?!"

Ayo? Is AY here? Ayo I'm sorry for not listening to you. I sniff and try to open my eyes with all power..but to no avail.

"Calm down Mr.man or you might get ejected from this hospital premises." A calm and feminine angelic voice says. I smile within - she must be angel Gabriel's wife.

"You do not understand the fücking gravity! Do you?! I didn't tell my guardians because they have too much on their plate already! It was a random friend of hers, that told me about her lifeless body in that party..an-and then..."

My elder brother voice is toning down with a notch and it doesn't take me a minute to realise he is crying. "I rushed all the way from Ibadan...we had to lie to uncle Tee that she is having a sleepover. Nothing should happen to my sister Doc..she's all I've got..." he sniffs and moves till I feel his breath on my neck.

"I miss you Aramide. I miss you big-headed annoying sis. Come and tease me again. Come and be sassy for this big boy again. Come and be sarcastic like ever. Heck, steal all my hoodies and basketball shorts..I don't mind I swear..I don't! Come and warn me to stop being a pervert...come and roll your eyes at my stupid words...come and scream about your favourite celebrity crushes...please come back to me..to us, Millicent."

"Yo man, it's okay."

Jerry!

I wince and try to do anything...anything to get out of this dark world. And alas, my eyes finally blink open from blurry to clear vision - little by little. After taking in my serene I notice Ayo buried his head on the crook of my neck, a female doctor holding an iPad with a stethoscope on her neck. The others are lost in their thoughts as they are clearly frustrated. Kiki, Isoken, Jide, Jerry, Kwesi, Tobias and Jamal.

...Jamal is here?

And the first thing that creeps into my mind is to scream. Trust me it isn't funny when my scream jolts everyone into chaos. I scream because my body is on fire and I scream because I've been warned to stay clear the Triple-J and Tobias's pathway.

"GETOUT! FÜCKING GETOUT OF MY LIFE!! I HATE Y'ALL! I HATE Y'ALL FOR MAKING ME SUFFER!" The doctor is momentarily startled as she immediately calls for backup nurses and doctors. My friends - they all look shocked out of their wits and shattered. But I don't care.

The doctor kindly ushers them out as my breath contracts.

"AY stay.." my voice is strained as the doctor tries to keep me firm. I feel a needle peirce on my neck and I feel drowsy in seconds. Only Ayo stays with the doctors and nurses working on me. I see the tears glistening on his eyes and he smiles weakly and plants a kiss on my head.

"Tramadol and spanishfly. That is what they gave to her in the party. Tramadol makes one to be hyperactive and then Spanishfly made her horny. I think the dose..." I shut off every word and squeezed Ayo's hands as he listened to the doctor's words intensively. He spares a quick glance at me and I mutter the only words that could come out.

"Sto-stop crying big baby. I love you Ayomide. I love you." And with that, darkness invades my world like an accustomed thief that comes to steal, kill and destroy.

《A/N》

Okay y'all should give me time to cry first..😭😭😭😭💔

This is one of the hardest chapter I had to write but then...who else thinks our girl has suffered too much?

And Lizzy never gave up..did she? She planned with our dear Cheryl😪 I can't imagine having a wicked cousin like Cheryl. Like WTF??! Who the hell sleeps with their cousin? I've always hinted that Mayorkun was bad news though.

So we don't know if our Aramide was truly raped or not...and um kids be careful. Party scenes are something you have to at least be careful about. Spanishfly is a drug that makes girls to be super horny. IT IS BAD! and Tramadol to top it? Oh God that's a terrible combo. Be careful guys..I know a friend that had both combo..it's very bad😭💔

So I don't want to say anything again...my lips are sealed and my fingers are crossed.

Do you think Aramide will survive?

If she ever survives, will she be able to avoid the Triple-J and co forever?

Questions upon questions that we would soon know about. Kindly VOTE and COMMENT if you loved this chapter. Don't make me visit you in your dreams y'all😏

-Jasmine ️©️