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My eyes can only stare at Sam but he does not look at me, rather his eyes are on the man that is standing there. "Thank you, you are dismissed" Sam says and then the man bows and leaves and closes the door. Sam then looks at me and his grip on my hands tighten but not enough to hurt me. He's looking at me with a hard look, but I can tell that it's not directed at me. Then he lets out a sigh. "I did not want you to find out in this way" He says with a sad tone.

I can only look at him, confused. That man had been clear and it was not like he was confusing Sam with someone else. Even through this confusion that I feel inside me, I don't feel my heart breaking. In fact I feel better. As if some weight has been lifted off my shoulders but that doesn't even make sense at all. This secret was not mine but somehow I'm relieved that it's out in the world and while I'm still shocked I can't believe that I'm actually all right with it. I like it now that it's out.

I break my hands away from his and I gently put my hands on his cheeks and caress them. Then I give him a smile as I lean in and capture his lips onto mine. His lips are so soft and as much as I want to kiss him forever, I do break the kiss. I had only given him a light peek on the lips. I then look into his eyes and once again smile at him. I'm all right with this secret which is out, I'm not hurt by it. I like that it is out rather.

"When were you going to tell me you're a King?" I ask him softly. I remove my hands from his face and take his hands. I see that he's a bit shocked that I had given him a kiss but I can also see in his eyes that he did enjoy it and he even wants to do it again. I do too. His lips on mine is the best feeling that I've ever felt in my life and I want it again and again and again. He sighs. "I don't know. In truth, while I am the King, I do not live in a castle and I do not rule" He tells me.

I raise an eyebrow at him in confusion. He is a King. But he doesn't rule? Now I'm even more confused than I was before. I don't really get it that much. He chuckle. "Don't worry, I'll explain it all to you later. For now I need to have a little chat with that man and when I come back, I'll tell you. I promise" He says to me as he holds my hands. I know for a fact that he's telling the truth and that he's going to tell me.

I give him a smile. "All right. But I am going to hold you to your word" I tell him. He gives me a smile as well as he embraces me in a hug. "I will be right back" He whispers to me. I nod and then he breaks the hug and stands up from the bed. He leaves the room. While I'm let alone with my thoughts. Who would have known, King Samuel? The name does suit him and a title. It's suits him even more. I realize that I'm proud of him, I really am.

While I'm alone I think about it more, until the door opens and I smile. He's here. I gasp as I see that it's not Sam that enters the bedroom, it's my sister, Katherine. My smile falls right off my face when I see her. She closes the door and gives me a smirk, an evil smirk. I can feel it. Seeing the girl that I grew up with like this does make me feel pain inside my chest because I feel like it's my fault that she's like this, but am I really to blame? I do not know.

Then I notice that in her hands, she's holding a knife. A very sharp knife. Combining that with her look, I realize that she is up to no good and that I'm in danger. I stand up from the bed and try to get away from her. "So, you refuse to die on your own. Well, there are others ways. I just hoped that I would not have to take such measures" She speaks. Her tone is so dark that I don't even recognize it, in truth I don't even recognize this person that is in this room with me.

"Please, Katherine. You don't have to do this" I speaks, allowing someone else but Sam to hear my voice. I find that I need to speak. My heart is pounding inside my chest from fear. No one should ever fear another family member, least of all a twin sister but I feel it. I feel so afraid of her. I wish that Sam were here for I know that he would not only protect me but make me feel safe and take away that fear that I feel inside me, he can do it. Katherine however only chuckles.

She takes a step towards me and she has that knife which she swings around. "After all that I did to gain a title, you're the one that gets a King. Oh, who would've known, the sad little Tatianna was a lie to snatch a King? How many times have you had to open your legs to get him to even notice you?" She asks me with that dark look. She walks even closer to me and I back away. I look at her with tears in my eyes. "Why are you doing this?" I ask her, almost breaking on the inside.

Katherine walks over to me and while I'm trying to back, I bump into the wall where I can't even get away from her. "I watched you get everything our whole lives. You even had the future Alpha at your beck and call. He loved you from the moment he saw you. And I hated it. I had to watch you gain all the attention. Even our mother's last words were to protect you. It was always about you. Tatianna this and Tatianna that. Not anymore. Now it's my time" She says. My eyes widen when she says that.

She had been with our mother when she died and that really had broken her down and Katherine had been in so much pain after her. I always thought because she had to watch our mother die before her eyes that she was in pain but perhaps that was never the pain that she felt. Rather the words that our mother had said. "It was always you. But then I saw a loophole. I could take everything away from you and have it as my own. Why else do you think your Mate became mine?" She asks me, amused by my fear, I realize.

I shake my head. "What did you do?" I ask her slowly. I stare at her with a shocked expression on my face. She truly is someone else which I can't even understand. So different from the girl that I grew up with. She had told me not that long ago that she wanted me dead and she truly did not want me, she hated me. Then she was going to kill the Alpha. She laughs. "The day that I met a Warlock, I knew that if I traded my own soul, I could have everything that I wanted and I did get it" Katherine says.

Traded her soul? What does that even mean? I don't get it. When I should be fearing her and what she can do, I'm actually afraid for her. Because even when there is only anger in her, I can see that there is sorrow within her as well and I find that I feel for her. I truly do. Even after everything that she has done. "That is until you scored even bigger than I did and I realized that the only way to get everything that I wanted was to get rid of you" She then speaks.

The way that she said it makes me truly think that she is heartless but then I remember that she traded her soul to some Warlock. I did not even know that those existed, I know that there are magical beings in the world like Werewolves but I had no idea Warlocks existed. "Katherine, please put the knife down and we get talk about this" I say to her. Trying to reason with her. I can't believe that she doesn't have a soul, because I have to believe that she has one and that it's not gone.

She's going to be better, I know it. I have to believe that she's going to be all right. "You're pregnant. Don't do anything that would harm you baby" I tell her. A child is innocent in all of this and it is not at fault for the things that have happened. She laughs at me. "Don't worry, my child will live and it will be the Alpha one day because I carry a child with Alpha DNA inside it. While you will die. I will watch as you die and then I will take everything that you had" She says.

Katherine stands in front of me and swings the knife at me, I let out a yelp when it graces my stomach. I move away from her to the sides as I try to run away from her. "Please don't do this" I say to her. I feel the pain but it's not that much and I can tolerate it after everything that I've been through. "When you're dead I will kill the King and then I will take his crown and become Queen of the world" She says and laughs so coldly.

This anger rises within me just by the thought of her harming Sam. I glare at her. "You won't hurt him, I won't let you" I tell her darkly. I will rather die than watch and know that Sam would be hurt in any sort of way. I will do everything that I can to protect him. She laugh as she walks over to me. This time, I don't back away from her. She really has pushed my buttons this time. When she said that she would harm and kill Sam, I feel something snap within me and I know what I need to do.

I need to fight back. After all the pain that she has brought to me, I need to finally stand up for myself. Sam had been right. It's only I that can move on and get better and the way to do that is to fight back and finally stand up for myself, and only then will it not haunt me and I will be able to move on to a better future with me and Sam together. I need to do this on my open and I know what I need to do, I can't believe that I did not know before.

"And what are you going to do to stop me? You're weak. Nothing but a small girl that can't even fight back and that cries when she's shoved. Such weak little girl that you are while I'm the future Luna of this Pack and soon to be Queen of the world" She says. I shake my head. "I may be weak and I may cry when my heart feels so much pain, but there is one thing that I have that you don't" I say to her as I walk towards her.

Katherine smirks at me. "And what's that?" She asks me. This time I do smirk at her as I walk closer to her, not even afraid of that knife that she has in her hands. I'm not that afraid of her for that matter. Because I know that when I have been hurting over the last days, it has been Katherine that has been in pain as well and she has been hurting just as much as I have. "I have kindness and I have a heart that tells me that love is the strongest force of them all" I tell her.

She once again just laughs and gives me a dark look. "Love? You really are going insane. Love is nothing but weakness that will slowly kill you" She tells me but I shake my head. I walk over to her and I put my hand on the knife. The balde does dig into my skin and the blood has started to flow but I don't care for that. I don't even notice that much nor do I feel that much pain at all. Any pain that I do feel, I ignore it as much as I can as I look at her.

This shocked look comes across her face when she stares at me and the knife that I hold by the blade. "Love isn't weakness. Perhaps to you it is but in truth it isn't. I know for a fact that it is powerful. It wasn't until I felt the love inside for Sam that I realized that I'm much stronger than ever. And not because he gave me strength but because he showed me that the strength was already inside me. He helped me bring it out" I say to her as I take the knife away from her.

I throw the knife away so that it can't hurt anyone else. "I may not be able to beat you nor will I hurt you now that you carry a child. But, I won't let you hurt anyone else. Not Sam and not the Alpha and not even Nik nor your child. I will make sure that you do get the help you need. But, let me tell you something, Kat, my whole life I've tried to be like you. You've always been strong and you've always been better than me at everything. I admired you, so much" I tell her.

"Our whole lives I watched you be able to befriend anyone and they liked you right away. You were friendly to everyone and you were a sun. I really did love watch you joke around and speaks our mind, you had opinions about everything and never let anyone tell you otherwise. I wanted to be just like you. Not the one that I am, with only one friend and a loser. I admired you more than anyone. You were always my role model" I say to my sister and it is the truth in its purest form.

Katherine looks at me with that shocked look on her face as her smirk falls right off her face. And for the first time in a long time I really see a spark in her eyes. The that she's shocked, I walk over to her and I do the very thing that I know that we both need. I hug her. I wrap my arms around her and I hug her shocked body, and I close my eyes as I do so. "I forgive you" I say. Not because she needed to hear that, but because I needed to say them.

She is stiff but I don't care because I needed this. Then when I do let her go, I back away from her. "Now there's just one thing that I need to do" I tell her. "Tell the Alpha of everything that you did" I say and then when I was about to walk away from her and go towards the door, I feel something sharp stab me in my stomach. First the shock takes over me and that is all that I feel, until I look down and that is when I see the end of a blade within my stomach.

I feel her head near mine as she breathes into my ear. "You're so weak. Thinking that a hug will fix all of our problems. No! I came here to kill you and I will not leave this room until I know that you're going to die. And won't worry, your King won't feel much pain either when I take his life as well and when I am Queen, I'll make sure that you're forgotten. It would be like you never existed at all. It was always I, who was supposed to be superior while you were meant to die" Katherine whispers into my ear.

Then I feel that she twists the knife in my stomach which takes my breath away where I'm unable to even breathe. I gasp trying to catch my breath as I feel the pain start to take over me. This pain is somewhere between all the pain that I've felt before but at the same time it's somehow much worse. Because this time I'm actually bleeding to death and when I have been dying before, I feel worse than ever. Perhaps because it was my own sister that stabbed me. She then pushes me down towards the ground.

On the ground I slowly turn towards her to see that she's holding another knife in her hands, a smaller one. "You really think I did not come prepared?" She asks me. The way that she's looking at me, I can really see the hatred in her eyes. My words did not even mean that much to her, in fact they did nothing for her. Katherine lets out a dark chuckle as she bends down near me. "When you're gone, I'll make sure that everyone you've ever known will suffer" She says to me and then she stands up.

"This Pack will burn while I take the world" She says before she walks out of the room and closes the door. Leaving me here on the floor with this stinging pain that runs through my entire body. The agony is so much that I can barely even more. The breath is taken away from me and I'm having a hard time even breathing nor getting any air into my lungs. I gasp as I hold onto my stomach. Trying to stop the bleeding and do something to free myself from this pain that's inside me.

The agony which is flowing through my veins is like electricity which is cracking through every atom of my being and it makes me feel this intense pain that does not go away, it comes and goes in waves but with each wave it becomes stronger and stronger. I let out a scream from my throat as I try to move. My body does not wish to. These black dots have started to take over my vision. And while I feel pain inside my stomach, I feel also pain inside my own heart for it is my sister that does want me dead.

She tried to kill me. Katherine had actually stabbed me. My vision is becoming limited but slowly through the blackness I can see Sam. I have no idea if my mind has just created him there or if he's actually here with me. I lift my hand up and through the pain I try to touch him too see that he's real. When my fingers come in contact with his cheek, I know that he's here and I smile a bit when I see him because I know that he's here with me and he's able to take away the pain.

Only by touching me, and I can feel his touch on my skin, all the pain just leaves my body. And while I can still feel that my life is slowly slipping away from me, I know that I can feel him. Sam is here with me and he's someone that I love. My heart feels nothing but love for him and I know that I have fallen so deeply in love with him that not even words are enough to explain the feelings that I feel for him, they are so deep and so intense yet even love cannot save me now.

Sam is saying something, but I cannot hear it. I see that his lips are moving and I can see this sorrowful look on his face but I can't hear the words that he's speaking. And perhaps I don't have to hear them, when all that I need is to feel his arms around me. They make me feel safe and make me forget all about the pain and just focus on him. The future that we could have had together. Which I know would have been the best one ever.

I would have made him so happy, just as he would've made me happy. In my mind I can see the future that we would've had together and we would have had so much fun. And the love between us would become stronger with each and every day that passes by. I just hope that Sam is able to live and move on after I'm gone. I feel the life leave me and I know that it won't be long until I'm gone. When I'm gone, I really wish that Sam will find his happy ending and live the life that he wants.

I feel him lift my body up and hold me close. I don't pay that much attention to that as I'm so lost in his face. The darkness is taking over me and it's doing so very quickly. I need to savor his face and his eyes for as long as I can. I may not know what will happen after I die, but I do hope that I will be able to keep my memories of him with me. Because in some hours that he has been here with me, I've felt more happy than I've ever been in life.

He was able to bring me peace and make me feel all right. He brought me love and happiness and so much joy. The way that he has made me feel is what I will cherish forever and I hope that I will be able to bring that with me to the next world. When I stare into his eyes, which are looking at me, I see that there is fear inside them and sadness and so much love. I look up at him and I give him a small smile. "D-don't be afraid" I manage to say to him.

He looks down on me and I can see a tear slip down his cheeks. It lands on my chest, but I give him look that says to him that he doesn't have to cry. It breaks me apart that he would be crying because of me, I want him to find happiness and I love him enough to let him live the rets of his life with someone else. Even if he loves someone else, I will know in my heart that he will find someone else. Even if that shatters my heart beyond anything else.

I take a last breath and with my last breath, I say the three words that I know we both need to hear and I know that because I have told him the truth, that everything is going to be all right. I know that my heart will be at rests and while the pain is gone, I'm able to say those three words. A tear slips down from my eye as I finally open my mouth and say what I have always been afraid to say to him from the moment we met. "I love you" I whisper to him and then the darkness swallows me whole.