I smile when I look at you,
I cry when I'm alone.

I laugh on the outside,
But I'm dead on the inside.

You see my outer shell,
You don't see what's inside my head,
What's inside my heart.

You don't know I cry myself to sleep,
You don't know the skies are always falling on my head,
Only I know what I go through.

And if I tell you, you'll comfort me,
Give me Empathy.
Empathy.

It's not what I want.

I just want someone to understand how I feel,
I want someone to truly understand how I feel.

I don't want fake understandings,
I don't want you to say you understand when you don't mean it.

I don't want you to cheer me up,
Ask me to smile.

I can force a smile,
I can fake happiness.

The only thing I can't fake,
Is pain.

I tried, trust me.

It never worked.
I'd either burble it all out,
Or I'll keep it inside my heart,
And keep it bundled up to myself.

And eventually the pain bottles up so much,
Too much,
I just turned upset and depressed.

People around me get hurt by my words,
And my actions.
And then I'm left alone.

Shut out in my room,
Shut out from the world.

People tell me cheer up,
Again,
Convincing me to come out.

They say they understand.
But it's all lies.
LIES.

The world is made of lies.
Think about it yourself,
And tell me...

Did you believe what you said?

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this chp is mostly what I think when ppl say 'I understand' to me. I mean, NO YOU DONT. I don't want to be mean, but sometimes people just DONT it. 

Hope you continue to read on!

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