-Emmaline's Point of View-

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From the moment I watched Jasper walk into the library I could see he was lost in thought. He mindlessly walked as his brows were pulled close together, also, Jasper is always prepared and right now he walked in empty handed for our study session.

"Jasper, over here." I called out, I could tell he would've just walked passed the table had I not caught his attention. His face seemed to lose it's tension as he stepped up to the table.

I allowed myself a small smile at his expense, here is a clearly smart guy yet he seemed to confused. "D-did you bring your book?"

I watched as he glanced down and then instantly realized that he hadn't brought anything at all with him.

"I'm so sorry, I'll be right back."

He began to panic.

Now I felt bad, he clearly wasn't himself right now and I wanted to calm him down so I reached out and stopped him before he could leave by placing a hand on his forearm, "No it's okay, we can share mine."

I moved my hand to the chair and pulled it out for him, he nodded to himself and took the seat.

"Is everything alright Jasper?" I was concerned for my new friend.

I mean sure he's normally quiet and reserved, but there was something about his current state that told me there was something else going on.

He looked at me for a moment as if trying to decide if he should open up or keep whatever it is to himself.

"Uh it's nothing."

The latter won out.

"You sure?" I asked softly, I hope he knew that he could trust me.

He silently nodded, "why don't you get out today's homework assignment and I can help you from there."

I gave him another look, I know something is up with him but I can't force him to tell me so I went ahead and pulled out the homework.

After going over the same historical dates over and over I seemed to finally get it, I finished up my paper and looked up to tell him I was all done.

But I saw his upset face and tight posture, then I noticed his hands were clenched and one of them was holding my now broken pen and ink was getting everywhere.

"Okay seriously Jasper, what's up, I know I haven't known you very long but I can tell that something is clearly upsetting you."

"Nothing's upsetting me." He stated.

I folded my arms over my chest and lifted one eyebrow as if to say 'oh really' then I motioned to the destruction that was my pen in his still closed fist.

He carefully followed my gazed and I watched as he realized for the first time that he was holding a broken pen.

"Oh..." He began.

I could tell he was getting ready to apologize and run off to the restroom and I couldn't let this guy leave here in a clearly angry state. I reached into my purse and pulled out a small pack of Kleenex tissues and a little container of hand sanitizer that I had picked up at bath and body works.

"Give me your hand." I instructed.

"It's alright I'll wash my hand when we finish up."

Seriously, was he still trying to worry about history, I gave him another look "Give me your hand." I demanded.

He slowly opened his hand and dropped the pieces before turning in his seat to face me.

I grabbed his wrist and left some space in between us just in case the liquid decided to drip, I squeezed a hefty amount of hand sanitizer onto his hand before grabbing a couple of tissues to help rub the ink away.

"Now tell me what you're so pissed off about." I demanded gently and continued working on his hand. I could be crazy but this hand sanitizer was making his skin extremely cold.

He sighed, "you shouldn't cuss, it isn't lady like."

I had to smile, he sounded just like my late grandpa, "I never claimed to be a lady." Then I looked up at me him, "plus I don't do it front of my Momma or Daddy."

He smiled.

It was the first time I had seen him smile all day before he let it fade away, "My girlfriend." He said.

Girlfriend

My insides turned and I had stopped cleaning his hand, but I tried to act normal, I mean there's no harm in cleaning a friends hand right? And that's what we are, friends, just friends. But the thought didn't sit well in my head and my stomach reacted the same again. But I couldn't let him see I was having my own internal battle, not while he was opening up so I silently and slowly continued.

"Well maybe I should say my ex-girlfriend" He ammended. "Just this morning I found out that she's moving to be with another guy."

I wanted to smile as my insides suddenly felt better, in fact instead of tightening angrily they seemed to flutter about, but then I look at him, truly seeing that he wasn't the Jasper that I had first met. His face was hard, his eyes were dark gold and almost brown even, and he seemed to be tired as he looked like he hasn't slept in days. "You're still in love with her."

He nodded, "we were together for so long I can't even remember how long it was now. But one day she said she wanted to stop seeing me, I assumed it was because she had found someone else and even though it hurt, I could never deny her happiness even if it isn't with me. So I let her go, but then she tried to be friends with me, and while I wanted to be with her I decided to take what I could get, even if it is just her friendship. Now she's leaving and I don't know when I'll see her again, and this time there is someone else involved."

He was lost in his words, his head was down as he seemed to replay the entire thing in his head. Then he finally looked up at me, I felt so sad for him. Had he been anyone else I would have jumped up and hugged him trying to warm his spirit up, it took a lot to restrain myself from doing that to Jasper.

"I haven't told my siblings or anything yet, although I suspect Edward knows, but I'm scared. I'm scared of being alone, of turning back into the person I was before I met her."

"I'm sorry you're feeling this way." I offered softly.

He shrugged like it was nothing.

"I don't know this girl but she's completely absurd to just give you up." To say I was mad for him would be a little understated, I hate girls who can just toss guys away. They end up turning such nice guys into douchbags and jerks. "I am sorry that this has happened to you but I know that you won't be alone, you have such a large family and me, we're friends and I will help in any way I can."

"Just letting me vent helps." He admitted. "I can't talk to Carlisle and Esme they'll just worry. And my brothers will tell me to move on while my sisters, well they were extremely close to her, almost like sisters themselves."

I noticed that he doesn't call his parents Mom and Dad, although he introduced me to Mrs Cullen as his Mother. Then again she did tell me Jasper and Rosalie are her husbands step siblings or something like that.

"Well we can talk whenever, here give me your phone."

He reached into his back pocket and pulled out his iPhone.

I slide my finger along the screen and noticed he was one of those guys that doesn't alter the phone at all, he even used the preset backgrounds. I also noticed (as I put in my information) that he only has 13 contacts.

"I've given you my cell number as well as my address, you can call or text any time or if you need to you can always drop by my place," I smiled. "Marta makes the best comfort food."

He smiled once more then I informed him I was finished with my homework and I also surprisingly got all the ink off, which is lucky for him because when I bust pens (not nearly as violently) my fingers are stained for days.

I thanked him as I gathered my things.

"It's no problem, I guess I'll see you tomorrow?"

I turned and looked at him. We were standing now, I was always very impressed with his height.

"My family will probably all be there to watch Nessie's tryout." He filled me in.

"Oh, of course." I quickly blurted out, "off the record I know she'll make the squad, although I do hope she isn't afraid of heights because she'll have to be a flyer, she seems too small to carry anyone."

He chuckled "she's stronger than you're giving her credit for, I've seen her take down Jake before."

"Can I ask you about that?" I asked as we walked out of the library together, "are they, um, Ness and Jake-"

"Together." He cut me off and smiled, "yeah."

"And Emmett and Rosalie?"

He nodded, "so are Edward and Bella."

At that my mouth opened, while I haven't really spent much time with Edward I have encountered Bella on a few occasions and she just seems so reserved, like even more reserved than Jasper, at least he talks to me. Then I wondered, if all the "siblings" are together I wondered if Jasper had ever been with Alice, but to be honest they seemed to be just regular siblings. They talk to each other, not overly touchy but also no bitterness between them so they couldn't have possibly been together.

I shrugged my shoulder, "that's cool."

"That doesn't bother you, doesn't make you want to run for the hills?"

Now I laughed "who even says that?"

We found ourselves laughing at each other before we heard a light throat clearing. We stopped and found Alice standing there smiling at us.

"Oh hey Alice." I greeted her.

"There you two are, we've all been looking for you for the past hour or so." She stated.

I looked at my iPhone and saw that Jasper and I had in fact been in the library for just over an hour.

Alice walked over to me and linked her arm in mine, "come along, I want to have a slumber party and you must come." She insisted with her gorgeous smile on full display.

"Okay," I agreed "but I'll have to be up bright and early for the tryouts tomorrow."

"That's fine." She stated while she waved her hand as if to brush my words away. "We'll all be up anyways for Nessie, but tonight I want to get to know you, you seem so perfect."

I blushed "I can assure you I am anything but perfect."

"I like you Emmaline," she said as we walked a little ahead of Jasper now. "And I can't tell you like him."

I was just about to ask who she was referring to when she looked back at Jasper. My face flamed.

"Alice, Jasper and I are only friends. Plus he's only just getting over someone and I hardly know a thing about him." I insisted, but my head was conflicting with my insides as my heart pounded at her pointing out what I can't admit to even myself.

Yes Jasper is very handsome, and his gentle and studious ways make him extremely attractive to me. But like I said, I don't even know him.

"Trust me when I say he's worth giving a shot, and I knew the girl personally I know she did what she did out of love for Jasper. It might be hard to understand but I'm sure one day you will understand."

I couldn't believe that his own sister was taking sides with his ex.

Alice seems nice enough but that alone seems a little weird to me. Also she is extremely decided for someone so young.

We reached everyone near my car and I saw it was only the Cullens, none of my friends were here any longer.

"Slumber party, tonight in my room."

"Emmaline's invited right?" Renesme asked.

"Of course." Alice smiled, "that's if she wants to come."

"Yes Emma, please, it will be so much fun and I haven't had a slumber party in ages." Renesme begged.

I looked into her gorgeous face, "I'm pretty sure I can make it." I somewhat agreed. "I just gotta check with my parents first."

They all seemed to understand.

"I should get home if I plan on coming over." I said before bidding them all farewell. I pressed the unlock button on my keychain and then as I reached out to open the door another hand got to it before me.

I looked up and couldn't help but blush now, it was all Alice's fault. Jasper gave me a friendly smile as he opened my car door for me, "drive safe."

"T-thank you." I stuttered as I got into the car, he closed the door and I started up my car, with a last smile and wave at the Cullen clan I reversed and took off.

"Damn it!" I cursed as I drove home, this was exactly what I didn't want to happen. Jasper and I were just getting somewhat closer as friends, now I'm not gonna know how to act around him.

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A/N:

Cell phone contacts:

-Carlisle

-Esme

-Alice

-Emmett

-Rosalie

-Bella

-Edward

-Renesme

-Jacob

-Garrett (Kate shares a phone with him)

-Tanya

-Eleazor (Carmen shares a phones with him)

-Peter (Charlotte shares a phone with him)

-J. Jenks