In front of me was the door of his apartment.

My mind tells me to knock, but my hands were hesitating. I'm nervous, I hadn't seen him from a month. "Hello? Is anybody home?" I called.

It freaked me out when the door suddenly opened, and a tall looking, gloomy figure appeared. "Oh, J-Jin! What brings you here late at night?" He must be surprised.

"Ayeon! Let me stay over! It's been a while since we last saw each other!" I beamed and gave him a tight hug.

"I get that, but why so sudden?! And stop being so clingy!" I chuckled when he frowned and glared at me. "Anyway, come in." He said before closing the door.

Now that I'm already inside his apartment, it's a bit messy. There are tissues and beer cans scattered everywhere, and his clothes were all over the floor. The kitchen stinks, too. He's not washing the dishes, this is so unhygienic!

"Come sit here, sorry for the mess." Ayeon smiled awkwardly.

"I bought some lasagna on my way here, let's eat! It's been a while since we did this."

"Y-Yeah..." He muttered.

I can't hold it in. This really keeps on bugging me. "So... did the whole town decided to dump their trashes here?" I asked sarcastically.

"That's so mean! I'm just busy with my work, that's why I'm too tired to clean, you get it?! Stop complaining!" He even uses lame excuses like this? Pathetic. "Enough with that, let's talk about you! What's up? Blah... blah... blah..."

I'm dizzy.

I can't hear what he's saying.

"Jin? Are you alright?" Ayeon raised his hand to check on my temperature. I wasn't able to avoid him. "You're burning flames! Why didn't you tell me sooner?!"

"It's only due to the cold phenomenon, no need to worry about me! Let me use your bathroom for a minute." I didn't let him say another word and just ran. I want to avoid it as much as possible.

Making him worry about me is the least that I'd want, he's been through a lot before. I'm not helping.

"Where did I put my painkillers?" I tried searching for it inside my sling bag and found 2 pills. I drank one to calm myself down while resting my arms on the sink, looking in a mirror.

How long can I continue living like this?

That moment, I was about to get back and talk to him when I noticed something shiny on the floor. It was a box cutter. And a small tint of blood was on it.

My eyes started to get blurry, and I immediately lashed out to him just to confirm.

"Jin, I've prepared us some hot cocoa--huh?!" I grabbed his hand rashly and raised his hoodie to see if I was right, and it is. "What are you doing?!"

"Why did you... started cutting again?"

He halted, looking away. "I... I can't help myself! You can't blame me! Just... Just forget about this!"

"But we already made it this far... You told me you'd stop... Don't do this to yourself!"

"You think I'd be grateful for this?! You think you're so great just because you helped me once?! Stop being such a hypocrite already!" Ayeon's words struck me like a lightning, and my heart kept on bleeding, as if it was suddenly fossilized. "You... don't know anything... You have family, you have friends, you have many opportunities abroad... and I have none. That's why I envy you." You're wrong. You're wrong. You're wrong. You're wrong.

YOU'RE WRONG!

"Let's just sleep..." I mumbled, and walked towards his room. "I'll sleep on the sofa. Goodnight."

"No! S-Sleep on the bed instead! You have a cold!"

"I'm fine, goodnight." I reassured.

Then again, as if the time was in a hurry, it's already morning. I didn't try to wake him up, I also made breakfast for him before I left his apartment.

I called Kiel first to pick me up in the train station, and we're now heading to the hospital.

To be continued...