Ive been stabbed by you
And there are no stitches that can stop the bleeding.
So I'll lie here,
Wanting you to come back,
But also needing you to go away.

I'm lying here
Bleeding out.
Every moment, it gets harder
To open my eyes.

There's a hole
Where you used to be.
The sad thing is,
Is that id let you kiss me and hold me and hug me
All over again.
And I shouldn't because you weren't good,
But I would.

Maybe because you were, are, my first love.
Maybe because I'm not over you.
Maybe because of everything that I felt while we were together.
Maybe everything combined.

But you can't be back in my life.
You can't.
I can't let you.

And it kills me,
But you killed me.
I've cried too.many tears because of you,
Even before we broke up.
I've felt too much pain,
Caused by you.
But I don't hate you anymore.
And if I don't hate you,
Then I have to love you.
Those are the only two things I feel.
So please just let me hate you.
I can't handle loving you again.
Even though I do, I can't.