I felt a hand running over my hair making me push towards it as I smiled happily and allowed my eyes it flutter open only feeling more happy and guilt in my body as I saw those calm blue eyes staring at me.

I sat up with a groan seeing him help me then sit down beside me " How you feeling" he asked slightly sad and I just rubbed the back of my neck " Um better" I said looking at him with sad eyes " Im sorry" I said remembering the whole night clearly but he just smiled at me.

" You were right I shouldn’t be so hard on you and yeah were not dating but it doesn’t mean I don’t like you" he said giving me that damn smile, I felt the blush go over my face " don’t look away" Jon said grabbing my chin and making me look at him before I could look away.

" Is it true" I asked seeing him take a deep breath " Yes Evan I was a horrible person but that doesn’t mean it's who I am now I've changed and well your helping me but it's confusing I never thought I could be happy again" he said taking my hands in his.

" What happened to you" I asked feeling heartbroken for a moment " Something I want to forget that’s why I never talked to you about it" he said resting his head on my chest which shocked me but I slowly ran my fingers through his hair " I just it still hurts me Evan I changed after that day and I want to go back to when I was happy" he said and I felt a warm wet spot on my chest.

" I... Let me just show you" he said leaning up showing the tears that were very defined on his face " Give me one day please don’t hide or ignore me give me one full day" he asked desperately and I gave in hugging him " Havent you learned I can't stay mad at you" I said feeling his pull me closer.

" Im scared Evan ok you want me to be honest im scared because I see how pure you are and I don’t ever want anyone taking that from you so yes I'm going to be an asshole to you but after last night seeing how badly you just wanted to be happy I felt like shit" he said and I rubbed his back " Its ok I forgave you the moment I opened my eyes but I'm sorry as well" I said.

He pulled away from me and smiled " No I needed that" he said grabbing my hands " I've missed you" he said grabbing me and pulling me on top of him.

I looked down into his caring eyes and thought back to what Jack said, I smiled leaning down watching his eyes close so I smirked and licked his nose.

His eyes shot open playfully " Really" he questioned and I smiled " Oh your going to get it" he said and I laughed jumping off him watching as he wiped his nose staring at me " Oh what's this your actually playing around" I said cockily smirking at his more intent stare.

I ran out of my room and down the steps with him following me so I ran towards the kitchen and grabbed a spoon hiding it while he walked over to me slowly, once close enough I smacked it on his chest getting a confused look and a soft chuckle " A spoon Evan really" he asked and I nodded my head running out the back doors.

I started running through the woods laughing as I heard him following me but then I didn’t hear him so I turned around little worried " Jon" I questioned and heard the leaves shift around behind me so I turned around seeing him rise from the ground in mist and grab me.

I yelled as he nuzzled his nose in my neck " JON" I yelled at him since it tickled, he turned me around quickly then connected our lips while he pushed me up against a tree.

We started making out more until he pulled back leaving me wanting more while he pantted, his eyes looked up at me while he smiled " Why do we have so many freaking back and forths with this" I said placing my head against his chest still in his arms.

" Not sure but I'm glad it's with you" he said softly making my heart race, I pulled back staring into his eyes and I just couldn’t take it anymore I grabbed his face kissing him passionately this time and to my surprise he did so back holding me so gently.

After pulling apart he smiled at me  " Enough of these extreme changes please" I asked just wanting to be calm and get fully lost in him and I now know how badly I do " Only if you'll love me and me only" he said showing slight fear in his eyes.

" Of course" I whispered placing our foreheads together feeling his heart beating stronger " tomorrow be ready in something nice" he said as I felt his minty breath ghost over my face " Nope I'm going to be in pajamas" I said smirking at his smile " Fine by me" he whispered staring into my eyes while I got lost in his world.

I know things have been so drastic between us but I'm tired of it I want him like Jack has Mark... like Juliet has Romeo... I just want to break him open and see just what all he can give me in the form of love from the small things to my first time with a guy I want him and after all this and letting go I finally see he's been all I've ever wanted so I'm not doing this anymore it may time but I know I need to be patient with him.