I was so mad, the blood was now trailing down my arms from my hands and knuckles as the environment around me was damaged.

I swung forward again with hate in my mind and guilt in my heart as I repeatedly punched the tree with all my might getting stronger with each hit.

Soon enough you could see electricity flowing from each contact my fist made to the tree it was shocking but I kept doing it as the waves burned further into the tree soon enough cracking it in half as I backed away and watched it fall to the ground in a roar.

I felt it rumble under my feet as I looked around still not satisfied with myself I couldn't get that image out of my mind and the way Jon treated me hurt because were not dating... he doesn't open up to me... what are we.

I gritted my teeth and started hitting the ground as I screamed in anger, there was thunder all around me and the world started going dark as tears ran down my face while my mind tried thinking things over but I kept getting flashes of the blood.

Soon enough I found myself curled up against a rock with my knees to my chest looking around as the world flashed in and out of blood.

" STOP" I screamed at the sight of a person to bloody to recognize they have just started showing up " Stop" I said shaky as my words became less audible " Stop" I whispered looking down at the ground seeing my body glowing.

I looked up seeing that person standing there so I ran at them only to go right through the body and fall on the ground, I pushed myself onto my back as I watched them walking away.

I sat up screaming as I gripped my head and the world around me started to go back to normal and that's when I truly saw the damage around me, I got onto my feet and ran my fingers over my knuckle marks in the tree and I felt the sting of tears at my eyes.

" I can never be normal can I" I asked to myself with a huff furiously whipping the tears from my eyes refusing to cry as all those toughts entered my mind again so I walked over laying down in a patch of flowers luckily still alive.

I have been advoiding everyone but Tyler hell I even skipped school which gave Tyler extra homework that I felt bad about but he wouldn't let me argue which hurt me more inside because it's my responsibility and why not do it my life is shit anyways.

I laid on my side pulling my knees to my chest crying softly I couldn't understand what was going on and I just so badly wanted to but yet again I have no one to tell me so I snuck into the library and took books trying to find out what all I can do that's partly why I'm out here I wanted to test my powers but then all the pain took over.

I started feeling bad destroying the beautiful world around me so I struggled to breath just hoping to find a place of peace but the only thing that could calm me was Jon but he won't even open up to me yes we talk now but is that all I am good for does he not care to ask me out or even take me places.

I rolled on my back trying to catch my breath as I watched the world around me collapse and that's when I got a glimpse of Tyler's hurt eyes and so I pushed off the ground running back to the house I need something right now.

It took me a little while but finally I burst through the door seeing Tyler's shocked face due to the quick loud noise of the door bursting open but once he noticed my eyes he got up in which I ran at him collapsing into his arms crying as he held me from falling.

" Hey what's wrong" he asked moving me over to the couch where we sat down " Ok well um Blue and them all stopped by earlier while you were out she brought more tea" Tyler said grabbing my hands and holding them firmly.

" Can you make me some" I said in between breaths watching him nod and get up to go over and grab a cup ready to heat up the already made liquid, Blue said it's a calming tea and it has been helping me but I find myself needing it more and more with each break down I have which is scaring me.

" Here" he said kneeling in front of me handing me the cup which I took gladly and gulped down half of it before taking a deep breath " Wanna get cleaned up" Tyler asked holding a hand out which I gladly took letting him lead me to the bathroom where he sat me on the toilet and ran a rag under water.

" So how did you do this" he asked calmly crouched infront of me slowly dabbing my knuckles " I just" I struggled to say but decided it was best to stay quiet " It's ok" he said rubbing a hand over my knee sending calm waves over my body which made me cry more.

" You don't have to" I choked out hearing him chuckle " You're my little brother and I'm here to help you this is nothing I've done this all your life Evan it's fine" he said calmly while I just relaxed into his arms allowing everything to slow down.

I felt my phone go off and I pulled it out while Tyler started to wrap my hand.

-Jack

Party is tomorrow night I haven't seen you in school to ask if your still coming but I hope you are and if you need to talk call me, Bye babes.