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"So, as the new - and hopefully last - Mrs. Adam Grey, I think I get to make a wish." Patricia says into the mic before she looks at me, "And my wish is to hear Maine sing the song she's been writing for the past two days. The song she probably finished this night in the hotel room."

My mouth falls open. she wants to hear me sing! Now?! I'm not made for the spotlight - let alone sing in front of 399 guests. Fuck.

"Maine, would you do that for me?" she asks me with puppy eyes.

I fake smile

"You owe me this one, Maine." she whispers to me.

I look at her confused.

"Because I haven't said a word to him, although I'd really like to rip his head off." she whispers into my ear before she smiles to me.

I sigh and roll my eyes. "Fine. everything for Mrs. Grey." I mumble smiling as i get up and walk over to the piano, which stands in the middle of the dance floor.

Fuck! I can't perform this song. Not that song. Not....I sigh, it's her wedding day. I pull myself together before I let my fingers combine a melody to which my voice find the right words. Well, his words rather.

I can't buy your love, don't even wanna try
Sometimes the truth won't make you happy
So I'm not gonna lie
But don't ever question that my heart beats only for you
It beats only for you

I feel his eyes burning it's way into my back as he probably recognizes the song. The song he helped me write.

I know I'm far from perfect

Nothing like your entourage
I can't grant you any wishes
I won't promise you the stars
But don't ever question that my heart beats only for you
It beats only for you

'Cause when you given up
When no matter what you do, it's never good enough
When you never thought that it could ever get this tough
That's when you feel my kind of love

And when you're crying out
When you fall and then can't pick
You're heavy on the ground
When the friends you thought you had haven't stuck around
That's when you feel my kind of love

You won't see me at the parties
I guess I'm just no fun
I won't be turning up the radio
Singing baby you're the one
But don't ever question that my heart beats only for you
It beats only for you

I know sometimes I get angry and I'd say what I don't mean
I know I keep my heart protected, far away from my sleeve
But don't ever question that my heart beats only for you
It beats only for you

'Cause when you given up
When no matter what you do, it's never good enough
When you never thought that it could ever get this tough
That's when you feel my kind of love

And when you're crying out
When you fall and then can't pick
You're heavy on the ground
When the friends you thought you had
Haven't stuck around
That's when you feel my kind of love

'Cause when you given up
When no matter what you do, it's never good enough
When you never thought that it could ever get this tough
That's when you feel my kind of love

I stop playing and hear clapping seconds later, filling the ballroom, which was silent for a couple of seconds after I stopped playing. I smile, although I'd rather cry. I pull myself together once more before I rise from the music stool.

I walk over to  and Patricia and hug them both.

"Congrats, you two." I say to them smiling before I walk out of the ballroom.

I need air. Air to breath. I need time. Time to heal. I need......HIM.

The tears roll down my cheeks as I walk down the thin beige colored hallway.

"Maine!" I hear his voice calling my name.

I continue walking. Walking away from him. away from my broken, but yet beating heart. It rips me apart. with every new glance, with every smile.....With every touch he's ripping me apart into fucking thousand pieces.

"Maine, Wait!" he calls again as i continue walking the elevator.

My heart beats heavily under my chest as i try very hard not to cry. But I can't. I can't hide these feelings. The pain. The frustrations. The anger.

"Maine," he says as he reaches me. I feel his hand resting on my shoulder as he turns me around.

"What?!" I nearly yell at him.

"I think we should talk."

"There's nothing to talk about!"

"Yes there is."

"I have nothing to say to you."

"But I have." he says as he holds a door open. A door to his bedroom?

Surprised. I walk in. A simple hotel room. No suite. So not Richard Faulkerson like.

"I don't think we should be doing this. I don't think we should be talking to each other. I mean, we both know how this is going to end. You still be you and I will be me. Two persons who don't belong. Two fucked up souls. And it's clear that you will never be able to return these feelings I have for you. I mean, if you don't want me then-" his lips stop me from talking. Gosh, I never want to miss this feeling again. His godlike lips on mine.

"Damn it, Maine, you really need to learn when to close your mouth and listen." he says in a strict voice into my eyes.

I gulp. Is he hot or cold on me now?

"I won't change because you want me to. I can't change because of the feelings you give me."

Feelings?! I'm giving him feelings? But it doesn't matter. He won't change. I stare into his eyes. He is silent. He doesn't say anything more.

I nodd. "If that's all then I should go, Mr. Faulkerson." I say into his eyes before I turn around, trying hard not to cry in front of him. Gosh, being with him is breaking and fixing me at the same time. How can this be wrong and yet.....RIGHT?

His hand on my wrist to stop me, "But I....I can take baby steps." I hear his insecure voice saying.

I turn around, still feeling the goosebumps he's giving me by touching me. "Baby Steps?" I ask him confused. What the hell is he trying to tell me?

He took a deep breath, showing me the fear in his eyes. No, the insecurity rather. The fear of not knowing how will I react. "You broke up with Irina?"

"Yes." he says briefly, "Because she didn't have the same sparkle in her eyes as you, when you look at me."

I open my mouth, but nothing comes out of it. He's making me speechless. As always when he says the unexpected. When he chooses the risk.

"I broke up with Alexsandra."

The Florida relationship.

"Because she doesn't have the same smile as you when you smile at me." he says into m eyes.

So there's six now. Six relationship he has at the same time.

"And then I ended the relationship with Aubrey."

Australia.

"Because she doesn't kiss the same way you kiss me." he says into my shocked eyes, "And then I also decided to end it with Rebecca."

Germany. That makes four. Four in total.

"But I can't give up on the other four....."

"Baby steps." I say into his eyes, smiling like a five year old.

He nodds, "Yes. Baby steps. Have a little faith in me and a little patience, please. I'm really trying, but I can't change overnight."

He's trying. Trying to change for me. For being with me.

"So don't run, please." he begs me.

I sigh, "You may be trying but....Trying is not enough for me, Richard. I want you for myself or not at all. I can't share you, don't you understand? I can't bare you being with other women! It doesn't matter if it's seven or four!" I say to him, feeling the tears building in my eyes. "As egoistic as this may sound, but I need you for myself. For only myself."

"But I..... I'm trying." he says helplessly.

I nodd, "I know. And I appreciate it but....Trying is not enough. Not under these circumstances." I say to him before I make my way out of the hotel room.

"Maine......" he whispers as I pass him.

I close my eyes, "Don't. Please, don't do this to me. It requires so much strength of me to walk away from you right now.... I choose you, but you didn't choose me."

He nodds, giving me the sign to leave him again.

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