Esme lunged forward grabbing Keith's arm. Her hands shook as she screamed, "help me get him up!".

Kaya grabbed Keith's other arm and they both dragged him up to safety.

Keith's limp body rolled slowly over as Esme tried to support him, "you're okay now" she sobbed holding him tight.

Keith laid still barely able to move. Life had beat him so badly he forgot how to stand up. He trembled violently as he found the strength he didn't have to move.

Kaya wiped away her tears putting on a brave face, "let's go before they start asking questions" she whispered nudging him.

The ship was unusually quiet, it was empty and hallow like his body under the velvet sky. The ocean roared and yawned peacefully below covering the earth with it blues.

Keith said nothing as he followed Kaya. His legs and body moved stiffly, like a plane on automatic he moved robotically. Somewhere over the ledge he had lost his heart.

Kaya's hand trembled as she led her husband back to their cabin so they could talk privately.

Heaviness wrapped around the room like slave chains around their neck. There was so much that Keith needed to process tonight.

There are several synonyms in the English dictionary to describe Keith's heartbreak but nothing was more powerful than his tears.

Keith paced around the room quietly as Kaya took a seat. No one spoke as they accessed the damage.

Kaya sniffled holding her head down, "I'm sorry" she whispered unable to look him in the eye.

Tears spilled over like spoils in Keith's hazel eyes as allowed himself to feel, for the first time since he had heard the news.

His eyes twitched as he grinned angrily, "IM SORRY?! THAT'S ALL YOU HAVE TO SAY?" he screamed kicking over a basket.

Kaya flinched startled by his anger.

Keith pointed at himself, "do you know how it feels? Do you know what a corroded heart feels like? Do you know how much you've hurts me?" he sobbed.

He fell to his knees like a king who had fallen from the stars. At this moment he was afraid to be a man who cried, emotions rocked his soul nauseously as he glared at his wife.

All Keith felt between the shivering stab of betrayal brushing him until he felt numb. Under all of that was anger.

He covered his face to hide the rivers that poured from his daunting face as he broke down.

"Kaya who are you?" he asked devastated, crawling over to his wife.  He laid his head on her leg, "why couldn't you have been honest?" he hiccuped between sobs.

Keith was shattering in his anguish, it felt like someone had taken a metal bat and smashed his rib cage in with one blow, leaving bones and fragments protruding out of his ice red heart.

His deep slow breaths were like a dreamy sadness that wavered with calmly and eery mist. It felt worse than physical trauma like every bone inside of him was breaking.

He felt tender, vulnerable and pathetic for being a fool in a game he could never win.

Keith's hazel eyes opened widely letting the rivers of hurt and misery flow down his nose and onto his lips. He coughed and wheezed like an old dog dying next to a soldier. The sadness was like a good Sam Smith song, playing on an endless loop within his mind.

Keith swallowed hard to keep from choking as each moment became more and more excruciating to think about.

"Keith please, I never meant to hurt you. I just knew that if I told you, you would leave me," Kaya babbled on.

Keith stood up backing away slowly, shaking his head in disbelief, "So lying and cheating is better?"

He wailed holding his chest. It felt like he was sitting in a bed of sharp pins as he bled out his cares profusely.

Kaya nodded, as she crossed her, "My sophomore year of college I was diagnosed and once my ovaries were removed I knew that no man who wanted children would ever want me. Then I met you and we started dating and you told me that no matter how much you loved me that was your dealbreaker, and I loved you to so I lied and used my anxiety disorder as an excuse to why we would never have sex because eventually you would figure it out" she confessed.

Keith's mind was blown, he had so many questions, and none of them made sense at the moment.

"I made a mistake and I'll be paying for it the rest of my life. I was in such a dark place when I met you, and you showed so much love. I couldn't bare to tell you the truth." Kaya confessed.

Kaya cried for the scared little girl whose life was beautiful and simple before all this.

She cried for the intense pain she still felt today, and the way she had spent everyday wishing her body matched her mind. She hid her scares well, but love seemed to hurt the most.

Keith hugged her, his huge strong arms passionately crushed her frail body as their tears meshed into one, "I would have still been right here K, that's not an excuse for what you did" he sighed.

Kaya pushed him away grabbing a vase near the window and then she threw it against the floor watching it break.

"I can't have kids!" Kaya screamed emotionally.

The glass exploded with a big, "bang!" and the crystal pieces fell to the floor.

Kaya pointed, "Don't you get it? I am broken. I have always been. You are experiencing heartbreak for the first time. Do you know how many times I've loved?

Do you know how hard it was being in relationship after relationship, and every partner walking out when I told them, my truth? It's been pure hell...you have no idea.

Kaya was spinning in her own cycles of madness reliving all of her deep rejections again and again.

Her hands trembled as she cupped Keith's face, "then you came along, and for the first time I believed in every little girl's fairytale. I believed for a second that I was worth love. I couldn't let you go, you were too good of a high. So when you asked me to marry you, I said yes."

I lied to you because I will never be good enough for you" Kaya broke down, "I lied because you were the only person that gave me a reason to breathe, exist, and have a purpose.

Kaya peered into Keith's watery eyes, "tell me the truth would you have married me if I told you my secret?" she asked firmly.

Keith took a deep breath, "no" he whispered.

Then the world ended with a bang that was more like a sad whimper.

Kaya stumbled back feeling the pain of his debris, as the truth came out like cannons and gunpowder.

She nodded looking up quietly at the ceiling trying to catch the tears, " I knew that I was being selfish but I loved you. Then we moved too fast, and I couldn't look back. I had to commit to the live and I figured that eventually if I married you you would change your mind about wanting kids.

Keith cornered Kaya grabbing her angrily, "I would have taken that stupid! I never planned to marry anyone after you. DON'T YOU KNOW THAT'S HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU? If you had cancer than I would be your chemo. If you were dying then I would want to be the earth you lay on when it's all over. Don't you understand? that I would be your fears, or whatever is closest to you,...just to spend forever with you! " his voice boomed as disappointment cracked the ridges of his heart.

Kaya banged on his chest angrily as she screamed, "let me go! JUST LET ME GO!" she squealed.

Keith cried harder, his eyes scrunched in agonizing pain as he blinked through blind tears, "I can't" he gasped rubbing his hurting chest.

Kaya turned away, "I knew you would that's why I couldn't allow you too. You've always deserved someone who isn't as messed up and as broken as me. I couldn't let you carry this burden alone, it's not fair that you sacrifice your dreams for our love" she hiccuped.

Keith looked blankly at Kaya, "now I'm just as broken as you" he pointed out.

Kaya slowly grabbed her things, the pain was like a dense fog, it protected her from seeing what was on the other side but couldn't help her get out of the sinking hole she was in.

Keith's eyes were red and swollen, but nothing was worse than the distorted look of torment on his face, it was as if he was breaking all over again, "We just need counseling. We are still new to this right. We will be fine" he repeated to himself.

Kaya shook her head grabbing her stuff, "I love you Keith and know that I am so sorry. I didn't mean to touch you with my poison" she whispered slipping out like a phantom, "I hope you find the love you deserve one day, but it can't be me. I break things, I break people...." Kaya's words trailed off as she remembered her grandmother's words, "I break..." she sobbed.

Keith ran to the door, "baby don't leave! Let's get through this vacation. It's late we just need to sleep" he begged.

Kaya shook her head sadly, "Go to Esme" she encouraged patting him gently, "When this vacation is over, I'll move my stuff out of the house" she sobbed tugging at her finger until her band came off, "this is for you" she trembled handing him back the wedding ring.

Keith whimpered like a hurt puppy, "please" he wailed, "pppppppppllllllllllllllllllleeeease!" he cried out.

Kaya planted one last kiss on his forehead, "I need to be better than this!" she sniffled, "I need to fix my life so I can save you just as much as you have. I love you so much!" she said pouring out her heart.

Kaya left she didn't care where she slept tonight, perhaps she would never sleep again. Just looking at the way she had hurt Keith made her regret everything. She quietly closed the door behind as a cool breeze greeted her.

To Kaya's surprise Corey, Nana and Esme all stood around the door looking ghastly pale and tired.

Corey shook his head disappointed, "so much for honesty?" he asked, his tongue sharp with judgement.

"We weren't eavesdropping we swear! we just needed to check on him and accidentally heard everything" Esme explained.

Kaya laughed because there were no more tears to dry, "he needs you, Esme, go and comfort him tonight" she smiled wearily looking at Nana and Corey.

Corey stood speechless looking at the stranger he use to call his friend, "you can stay in our extra cabin for the rest of the trip" he said emotionless, "then after that, you can leave Nana and me alone for some time" he said hurt.

Kaya shrugged her shoulder wiping her nose, "would I'm sorry help?" she asked between fresh tears.

Corey wrapped Nana in a blanket, "sorry for what?! You didn't cheat on me? You just kept secrets, lied, and pretended to have a sickness for what damn reason?! I'm your best friend you should have never had to be fake with me" he snapped.

Kaya reached for Nana's hand, "I pretended to be sick because any ailment was better than the truth. I was so afraid to tell my husband so I made up things to distract him" she sighed "please Nana forgive me?" she begged.

Nana looked at her with bright eyes and smiled warmly, "who are you dear?I don't remember if we've met before" she asked.

Kaya walked off briskly, it was too much for her, she now understood what it meant to be so afraid that you hurt the people you love.

Keith crushed the ring angrily in his hand, sweat dripping down his face with cold shivers. Nothing felt real anymore, and just every time he allowed himself to breathe little sharp pains seared his heart, and stole the air in his lungs.

"Nooooo!" he snarled angrily as he punched the wall. Then he crumbled into a heap of tears as he realized that everything was lost, "God please help me!" he cried out with shaking hands.

A soft hand touched the nape of his neck pulling him in for a warm embrace, "let me hold you up, while the world is falling apart" Esme said shushing him.

The sweet smell of peaches lingered on her lips as she pulled him closer.

Keith pulled away startled, "no," he said firmly, although he felt as weak and defenseless as a baby bird.

"No what?" Esme asked soothing his chest as she held his hand.

Esme wiped away his stray tears with her soft lips, grazing his smooth ripped abs with her soft affections. Her womanly body submissively trapped him his weakest moments, while her raspberry lips pleaded for just one kiss.

Her hands patiently ran down his arms, until ever hair stood up and he was forced to notice her flushed rich olive skin through her satin dress.

"No, don't stop," Keith groaned through the murky water colors of his brown eyes.

Authors Note: Does anyone feel sorry for Kaya now? And can anyone handle any more bombs dropped? because there are a few more :) comment, vote and share please <3