I, Yoon Jeonghan, has fell in love with my girlfriend after a month of dating her.

"You're cute. Let's date."

"Okay."

Our relationship started when I asked her out one day and she agreed right away. I am a person who enjoys short time relationships. Thus, when I thought of dating (y/n) just because she's cute, I expected that we won't last. People call me cheater but nah, I don't think so. I never cheat while dating someone, but I do date another person quickly after recent break up.

Being with someone for a long time is boring, that's what I believe. Therefore, I always seek for excitement in every woman I date. Dark past? Trauma? Family affairs? Some might assume I experienced at least one of those for me to end up this way. But actually, I'm just a simple guy with humble background and normal household. It's just a bonus that I was blessed with good looks. Anyway, to make it short; I date for enjoyment.

But like as they said, Life is full of Karma.

"I'm sorry, I am late again," I said to my girllfriend, (Y/n).

That wasn't the first time I got late in my appointment with her, and even with my past women. Maybe because I was not really sincere. However, unlike them, (Y/n) reacted differently.

"It's okay."

It's okay. Whatever I've done, she never gets mad. Therefore, I decided to date her for few more days due of my curiosity.

"My baby, I love you," I lied.

(Y/n) looked straight at me and answered, "Thanks."

Naturally, whenever I said this to other, they'll reply, 'I love you too~' But again, she exceed my expectation. As the day goes by, I realized this: '(Y/n) doesn't like me at all.'

So I asked myself what could be the reason she's with me. (Y/n) once said that she likes my handsome face, but her expression that time didn't show any hint of being attracted. When I kissed her, she doesn't look happy even if she never declined. It was as if she's seeing me not because she likes me, she seek enjoyment or she's bored.

It's more like she's doing this because she has too... That it is her responsibility.

Therefore, to regain my falling ego, I did my everything to make her fall deeply for me.

"Oh? You have something on your lips," I said before I gently wiped her lips.

(Y/n) stared at me and replied, "You too." She leaned closer and wiped mine using a tissue.

During my first seducing plan, I had a guess that it'll fail the moment I felt my heart skipped a beat when she wiped my lips. It wasn't daring, actually. But her gentleness, her calmness and her innocent touch got me.

The next time...

"I forgot my umbrella," I pouted my lips. We were both standing in front of the library while watching the heavy rain poured from the grayish sky. "Should we use yours together?" I put my arm around her shoulder.

"You don't like it when you get wet from rain, right?" she checked.

"Of course!" I answered. "So, let's stick closely... I mean super duper close so I won't get we..."

"You can use mine," (Y/n) said after putting her umbrella on my hands.

"Huh?"

"I can share with my other friend later. Besides, I'm wearing jacket." Then she suddenly ran under the rain before I could stop her.

Mouth opened, I watched her blurry back fading as she zoomed away. But unexpectedly, she turned her head to my direction and shouted, "Be careful! The road is slippery! It almost got me just now!" After shouting, she ran again.

(Y/n) is the kindest, purest and weirdest woman I've ever met.

"Just where did she come from?" I laughed by myself. Sometimes, I thought she's an alien who doesn't know how the world works. But sometimes, she's more like an angel who came from above in order to change the devil inside me.

In the end, I failed on seducing my own girlfriend. Instead, I was the one who was caught in her web.

News travelled quickly, that I, Jeonghan, is dating the same girl for a month. It is a miracle since I usually date for just a week. But knowing (Y/n)'s personality, I doubted she'll be happy to hear it.

One day, on my way to school, I met someone familiar in front of the gate. It isn't the school's main gate and it isn't everybody's favorite entrance so few use that; it include (y/n) so I decided to take the same path, hoping I'll bump with her by chance. But that certain day, when the sky was clear and the weather is warm, a catastrophe happened.

"Look who's here," a girl greeted me. She's one of the women I dated before but I couldn't recall her name. However, I won't forget her face since she's the hardest to dealt with after break up.

"Why are you here?" I asked, shoving the necklace I wanted to give to (y/n) as a present into my pocket. " As far as I remembered, your school is in the opposite side."

"I feel proud that you remembered, despite dating tons of women before," she sarcastically laughed.

"It's because you once threatened me that you'll end your life if I don't get back with you. I vividly remembered the school I was called to come just to stop you from jumping."

She rolled her eyes and approached me.

"So what now?" I interrogated her intention.

"I heard you're dating someone for a month already. What's happening? Is this for real? Are you really ready to settle with just one woman?" she mocked.

'Ahhh. I know. She felt insulted that a trash person like me has finally changed.'

To be honest, when she asked me those, I wasn't really sure of my feelings. It's true that I couldn't imagine ending things with (Y/n), but I hesitated if it is right to call it love.

"Who's the unlucky girl? I wanted to see her."

"If you come here to make her jealous, don't bother. She probably won't," I chuckled.

"Oh really? But sorry, I'm not here for that." Next, she showed me a picture of us after we spent a night in a hotel. "I came here to give her a good warning. To show her what kind of sh*t you are."

If I'm the old me, I wouldn't even care if she saw this picture. However, I felt scared at that moment. I feared my future if I let her discovered my pasts. What if she leaves? What if she despise me? What if... I cannot hold her hand anymore?

I was desperate to avoid any possibilities of those nightmares.

"That..." I uttered, clenching my fists. "Don't show it to my girlfriend. Please," I begged while bowing my head.

I heard a mockery laugh that I already expected to hear. But I stayed still; cause I know I must.

"Yoon Jeonghan begged? The man who didn't apologize to me, has begged?" she asked.

I swallowed my pride as I looked back. "What do you want? What should I do to stop you?"

The b*tch looked far before she diverted back to me. "Kiss me," she asked.

I knew it was too foolish to do what she asked. But I can't waste time. If (Y/n) arrived, then it's the end.

So while clenching my fists, I did what she wanted. I kissed her with anger, with the thought that I'm the most stupid man in the world.

Then, when I pulled away and looked on my side, I remembered that the world hates stupid guy like me.

"(Y/n)?"

She was watching me kissing another woman.

Yet she calmly answered, "Yes?"

"L-Let me explain. Well, the thing is..."

Before I could explain my sh*t, she raised her hand and said, "It's not a big deal. See you later." Then she walked away like nothing happened.

My heart ached as I watched her walk. I couldn't breath.

'Right. She doesn't like me so she won't care,' I laughed pathetically at myself.

"What was that? I was surprised. It turned better than what I wanted," the girl beside me even laughed.

When I looked back with teary eyes, she freeze. Smiling while tears fell down from eyes, I chuckled, "Happy?" I wiped my eyes then entered the gate.

Because she caught me, because I don't think I can face her again, I was ready to end everything. I was ready to free her from a sh*tty man like me. And I was ready to let her meet a better guy.

I thought I was...

But love hits me hard.

I still couldn't let her go, especially when I saw her hugging another man in the library.

"Okay. Let's break up. But we will only part under one condition. I will date different girls while dating you. I will kiss another girl, hug her or even sleep with her. Then, if you get jealous, we will break up."

When I said those, it is probably because of two things:

First, I was hoping that I could use that time to be with her for few more days.

Second, so when she decided to date a man she really likes, then I will be the only bad guy from our break up. People won't point fingers to her, but will only despise me, the cheater.

However...

If the man she's starting to like is someone who is already engaged, then...

"Our condition..." I murmured after I stopped her by holding her wrist. "Our condition for breaking up is when you feel jealous because of me. Not because of another man. So this isn't valid. We can't...break up yet. You can't break up with me, (Y/n)."

...Then I rather keep her by my side than let her end up with a man who's shittier than me; even if it means I had to play the bad guy role.

Everyone in the cafeteria is watching us on edge. No one breathed, not until I stood up and pulled her out of the dining area.

(Y/n) and I arrived outside while holding hands. When we found a place where we can be alone together, I loosened my grip. We stayed still there, wordless. And somehow, I couldn't find the right words to say now that it's just the two of us. My arrogance attitude left and only the embarrassment remained.

"Even if you..." It was (Y/n) whose response has returned.

I gulped as I met her lifeless gaze.

"Even if you date another woman, it isn't a big deal for me," she said.

"..."

"Even if you kissed another person, I thinks it's okay."

"..."

"I always thought you have the rights to do what you want behind my back."

"..."

"But Jeonghan, for the first time, you made me feel frustrated."

"..."

"Yet I also feel apologetic for being this way. It's new feeling for me."

"That you are liking another guy, instead of your own boyfriend?" I managed to reply, even if my throat is on fire.

This time, it was her who didn't answer. She bowed her head and gawked at our feet.

"You..." I heaved. "You think it's okay for me to date whoever it is but you feel guilty just for liking another man in secret?"

Her silence spoke a loud yes.

"So you wanted to end our relationship because you thought it's your fault?" I asked.

She wasn't saying anything while folding her fingers one after another. Her pale lip turned red as she kept on biting it; I am worried it might bleed soon.

"Listen," I sighed, then put my hands on her shoulder. "In this relationship, I am the bad one."

"..."

"When you saw me kissed another woman, you should kill me right away."

"..."

"When I introduced you those girls I used to make you jealous, you should curse me with all your might."

"..."

"And also..." I lifted her chin.

Our eyes met.

"If I'll do this after everything I've done, you should push me away."

I bent down and let our lips collide.

The warm air went hotter, as my breath mingled with her and my eyes went wet. I pulled her nape closer, forcing my tongue to go deeper than just staying at the seam of her lips.

But before I could penetrate at her trembling soul, (Y/n) pushed me away just like what I recommended she must do.

"Yoon Jeonghan, I..."

Our eyes met again after she halted.

The second she lifted her eyes, I failed from stopping these damn tears of mine.

"But even if you hate me," I sobbed. "Don't go." I caressed her cheek, giving my warmth. "Don't leave me."

I tilted my head and claimed her lips once again.

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