Obsession. Readers of romantic novels loves it when the main leads have an obsess character towards the one he/she loves. It's really thrilling to read the part of a guy, pinning a girl into the wall and whispered words like: "You're mine." However, in real life, a love with obsession won't last forever.

"Why are you so obsess of me? (Y/n)," asked my boyfriend, Hoshi.

I dedicated my youth, dating a cute and energetic guy named Hoshi. When it comes to loyalty, I'm second to none. But I didn't notice those things I've thought are normal among couples.

"W-What do you mean?" I stuttered, digging my palms with my fingernails.

"I hate it when you always follow me around. You asked me where I am and whom I had contact with! You told me to do this, that! Are you manipulating every of my actions?! It's suffocating! This is not love, (Y/n). It is obsession."

"I am...what?"

Whether it was true or not, I was dumbfounded. During our confrontation, I remembered my mother who took her life just because dad left us with his new lover. Mom was so obsess to dad that she threatened not only herself, but also my life if dad won't come back. She's crazy.

In the end, I escaped from mom's grip and just came home when I heard the news about her miserable death.

I don't want to be like mom.

I don't want to end up like a b*tch thirsty of love and affection.

And so, when Hoshi told me about my obsession, I was so frightened. Therefore, before my situation get worse, I decided to separate our ways.

"Hey, what's up? It's been a week," Hoshi shyly greeted. He was scratching his nape, unable to look straight into my eyes.

One week after we fought, I called him to meet at our favorite milktea shop. It's very awkward, really.

"Hmmm, yeah," I sighed.

Both of us took sips on our bubble teas.

"So..." He let out a long pause. "How are you?"

'If I told him that I am not okay, will I feel great? ' worried about this, I opened my lips and lied, "I'm alright. And you? "

I found him mouthing: Eeeeeeee, as he scratched his nose. Then, his response returned, "Well I'm not."

Hearing our opposite answers, I guessed my decision is the best thing to do. Therefore, I spoke again. "Hey Hoshi, I'm sorry for everything I've done."

"Huh?"

"I think you're right. I've done many unfair things to my boyfriend. And I'm afraid we'll get worse in the future. So, let's break up."

"..."

While I was bowing my head, I was so unsure if I wanted to hear him say yes or no. I got stuck in the middle of my hesitation. But minutes later, Hoshi gave me his answer.

"Okay. If you think it's for the best, let's break up."

That's how we ended our first love.

Three years have passed by.

So far, I am living moderately with a stable job. I'm still single (and I think I will be for the rest of my life). It's not because I'm scared to love. Neither the fact that my first relationship is a failure. Certainly, this isn't a trauma, but a precaution to myself that I might hurt other people.

I rather be alone.

"Did you hear the news about Hoshi?" A friend of mine blabbered.

I hate to admit it but when I heard his name, I suddenly got so curious.

"What about him?" My other pal asked.

We were inside a new pancake shop, we always visit during weekends. Since Hoshi and I were together for five years, it's only natural that he got close to my acquitance. Well I'm sure that they talked about him in front of me because they forgot that he is my ex-boyfriend; unless they're evils.

"My husband told me that he got engaged with J&a group Ceo's daughter. It's a huge talk among businessman nowadays. They invited my husband to their upcoming wedding next month. But this morning, the couple decided to annul the wedding. They broke up."

"What?!"

Even though I am still have lingering feelings for him, I'm not really affected with this news. Hoshi and I won't be together anyway.

I took a sip on my chocolate shake. As I suck, the shake went on the wrong tube and blocked a hole in my nose. Sh*t!

"Ugh! Ugh!" I coughed hysterically and caught other customer's attention. F*ck! This is painful!

I grabbed the tissue and wiped my nose just in case a chocolate flavored runny nose ran down.

"Oh...h-hey," my friend suddenly sent me an empathetic gaze. "W-We're sorry. I forgot that Hoshi is you ex boyfriend."

"R-Right.. We didn't mean to talk about him in front of you."

Huh? Did they think that I felt bad just now because of Hoshi? No! This is a misunderstanding.

"No way! I am really okay!" I chuckled, raising both of my hands like I was sending a white flag.

But instead of accepting my earnest explanation, they patted my back and sighed. What the hell. My pride was crushed here.

My mood was ruined. I was so excited to have fun with them but I went back only with sour face.

"I was the one who broke up with Hoshi. There's no need to pity me," I sighed as I sat down on my couch.

I put my back head on the sofa and closed my eyes. As I was about to enter in my abyss, a notification sound brought me back to the world.

Getting a notification when you are single means it can be a text about work, bills, deliveries or a task from your family. With that, I checked my phone with a groan.

My eyes widened when I saw a text from an unknown number.

[I guess, I'm the obsess one because I still think about you, (Y/n)]

Huh? Who will send me this message?

There's only one person that came into my mind.

"Hoshi?"

There's a throbbing pain in my chest as soon as his name spilled on my lips. It brought me excitement!

I already made a reply inside my mind, asking: Hey, how are you?

But my smile faded because I knew it is impossible for me to do it. Aside for being unsure, it's also my will to avoid him as much as I can. So I put down my phone at the side with a sigh.

"Stop thinking about it, idiot," I whispered to myself. Battling with my chaotic mind, I heard a voice from the kitchen.

"You're home!"

Huh?

Who is it?

I'm not familiar with this voice.

I fixed my eyes towards him; a guy with pale skin, small eyes, charming smile, clear features like a white rabbit and clean cut hair. He's pretty cute.

But I don't know him.

"WHO... WHO ARE YOU?!" I stood up and pointed my phone to him as if I'm holding a defensive weapon.

"Hey," he called after making a sour expression from a beam. "It hurts that you don't remember me, noona."

Noona?

(Noona= guy calling a girl who's older than him)

If he is calling me that... then...

"D-Dino?"

His smile reappeared in a flash. "Yey! You remembered me!" He ran to me and then wrapped his arms around my frail body.

It's been so long since someone as sturdy and big has conquered me like this, I felt an unfamiliar warmth.

Blinking my eyes, I tried to recall everything about this guy. Dino is son of my auntie's friend at her hometown. We used to play together when he was young. He is that cute little kid who always follow me, give me flowers and say he'll marry me someday. Now, he's a grown up man. He is also a lot taller than me.

"I miss you so much, noona," he whispered while his hand kept stroking my nape.

"Why...Why are you here?" Is all I could ask.

"Me? Because of you. I studied a lot and got accepted in a university. Mom let me stay to your aunt's house. Finally, I achieved my dream. Now, I can see you everyday."

It will be cute to hear this if he only he's still a kid. However, Dino is now an adult. There's a lot of difference between receiving such confession from a boy and a grown up man.

So I opened my lips and said, "Dino, can you..."

"Ahhhhh I love your smell, noona." When his breath reached the nape of my neck, an electricity flowed inside my body. I felt his narrowed nose on my skin as he inhaled my natural fragrance. "It makes me more obsess of you," his husky voice penetrated in my ear.

My toes above my slipper rags have curled and my saliva became thick that I couldn't swallow it.

The moment I heard that sinful word... That thing I hate... I pushed his chest away. "L-Let me go!"

I didn't run, but here I am, catching my breath while watching an expression I never expected to see. This man that I pushed, instead of wearing an apologetic, guilty, sad or surprise face, he just lifted the corner of his lips like a beast.

I was eaten by his tyrant gaze.

"Why did you push me?" He asked. Dino raised his hand and sniffed it as if he's drown in my ecstasy. "Hug me more, noona. Like before."

I am a dangerous person. So I thought that leaving Hoshi and being alone will set me free from my own obsession. However, I met a guy who looks like me.

No.

He is more dangerous.

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