Dino's Pov

You are my wife.

Everyday, you woke up so early to prepare our breakfast.

"Good morning Dino," you greeted wearing the sweetest smile ever.

My work uniform was ironed well, and my co-workers  couldn't help but to get jealous of how you make my lunch box oh so great.

"Welcome home Dino," the most gentle voice that soothed me after a long hours working.

You listened to my rants, and nodded though you could not understand all of it. At the end of conversation, you'll pat my head and say, "You did a great job today." Then a cup of coffee or hot chocolate is on the way.

I always admire how you can stay calm even if I shout in frustration. There are nights  that your silent tears hummed with the cold wind, I knew you were lonely. But the way you look at me shows happiness, that I couldn't see any traces of your pain. How can you be so vulnerable?

"Thank you Dino," you never forget to say this after I gave you a gift, I praised your work or I said how pretty you are.

There are times I cried on your shoulder, then you just hug me so tight and listened to my sobs as if it was not a chatterbox but a music to your ears.

You are my wife.

As time passes by, I knew that you are the greatest woman I want to spend my whole life with.

You are my wife.

Before I close my eyes at night, I confessed to myself that I am slowly falling in love.

You are my wife. That's why... I want to end this. Because being my wife is a misery.

The more I discover how great you are, the more I fell in love, I regretted that day that we both signed that arranged marriage paper. I regretted the day when we both promised not to fall at each other. I regretted how a perfect woman like you got stuck in my life.

I love you. The secret I couldn't tell. It might be the wrong key to unlock your cage. That's why, I'll promise to keep it to myself until my last breath.

Now I am walking towards our room, dragging my feet with a divorce paper on my hand. My hands are trembling, and I am doing my best not to let this tears behind my eyes, knocking to fall down.

As I gently put this paper, I imagine my life without you; how lonely I could be, how I'll cry your name all night, how maybe I'll regret I'd set you free and how much I learned I deeply in love with you.

Big part of me wants to back out. But no! You don't deserve my selfishness! I must set you free!

I put the divorce paper with my signed above the table. But before I left, I nudge a small book and it fell on the ground. I never have an intention to open it, not until I noticed that it was not a simple book but a diary of your life.

Peeking on your thoughts was my dream.

I know this isn't right, yet I want to be selfish just for tonight, because it could be our last.

Your diary is neat, and it seemed you didn't skip writing on it. It started at the time after we got married. I've read how much nervous and scared you are in this married life. You wrote everything you've learned as  wife: how to cook, how to ironed clothes and how to take care of the plants. It's cute.

Your diary always start by "Dear Diary"  and ended with "Let's do our best tomorrow. FIGHTING!"

However, when I turned on the next page, my eyes just stuck on the new word on how you start your journal.

"Dear Dino,

I don't know why I suddenly thought of writing for you, instead of my diary. Maybe because I little by little got aware of this changes on me. I really wanted to say this to you, but I feel so shy.

Thank you for giving me a flower today. I lied to you that it was my favorite flower. Mom told you a different thing, lol. But I think I'll change my mind. It will be my new favorite flower.

You know, my heart was beating so fast as you handle this to me with your sweet smile. I don't really know why. Maybe, I ate too much I got indigestion?

Anyway, thank you. I'll treasure this.

Let's see each other tomorrow! Bye bye!"

You...

You wrote a letter for me!

I continued turning on the next pages and it was all letters for me!

"Dear Dino,

Hey how could you suddenly get the cup behind my back while I was washing dishes?! I really thought you are going to back hug me. Tsss~"

I remembered this. That night... I really want to hug you behind your back. But I hesitated a lot. So I just got the cup and walked out.

"Dear Dino,

I saw you with a girl at the grocery shop. You were holding her grocery items. Who is she? Well, I am your wife but I guess I don't have the right to get jealous. I mean, we are not a real couple. Argh, whatever!"

It was my cousin. I helped her that day. Then I saw you and about to help. But a man walked to your side. It seems he is a friend of yours and helped you instead. That was the first time I felt a heavy feeling inside my chest. Right, I was jealous.

"Dear Dino,

I don't know what to day today. I... OH GOSH, I am crying again."

"Dear Dino,

Are you happy with me? Or do you regret marrying a person you didn't  love?"

"Dear Dino,

You are...  my husband. I feel happy whenever I see your smile. You gave me strength when I want to give up. Dino,  I think I... I..."

"Dear Dino,

I love you."

My tears just fell down. 

Never I thought  I'll see this word. Never... I thought we will feel the same. Never I thought...  that you'll love me.

"Dear Dino,

I don't want to be selfish. Marrying you is the best thing that happened in my life. But I don't want you to stuck with me. I want you to find true happiness with someone you love. That's why I decided that... I will... set you free one day.  You are my husband. You are my love. You are the greatest person I've met. But let's break, happily."

You wrote this yesterday. And at the last page I saw a divorce paper you put inside your diary.

My tears keep falling. And falling and falling.

I just couldn't calm myself.

Until the door opened so I quickly put your diary back to it's place and hide the divorce paper I placed above the table.

"Dino?" You called as you peek.

The only light that are opened is the lamp, I guess you won't notice how wet my eyes are.

"Y-Yes?" I answered with my cracked voice.

"Dinner is ready," you responded..

"Okay, I'll  go now."

"Hmm. Ahh, after dinner, I have something to tell you."

You are going to give me the divorce paper right? But sorry, it's too late.

"Hmmm, before dinner, I have also something to tell you," I said, walking towards you.

"Sure! What it is?"

I stood in front of you, and I saw you your eyes widened when you saw my tears.

"D-Dino?"

"My wife."

"Huh?"

"I love you. I really really really... love you."

And we both cried out while looking at each other.

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End.