Hi! I'm not sure if I'm going to be back permanently, but I recently logged on and found this "gem"! (the cringe and embarrassment is catching up to me) It would be a waste not to publish.... (this draft was written in 2016 LOL) I feel more mature now haha.

Suprise, suprise! enjoy, my dudes.

You go through the same routine every single day, without fail. You stare intensely at the mirror, painting over your "flaws", and shaming yourself into believing that you need this.

"_____! Are you coming over here? We're all waiting..."

It's Misa. You can't help but compare yourself to her; she's everything that you're not: a stunning coquette who's world famous.

Sure, you love your job as a detective but wouldn't it be grand to feel gorgeous for once...

"I'm coming! Give me a sec!" you yelled back. You liked to work in your room, secluded, so it wasn't unusual for you to yell across HQ. "I'm here. What's up?"

The room fell into silence as eyes lingered on you, all over your body, and looking into your soul...

Why was everyone static? They're probably judging you.

You watched as Mello looked you down head to toe. "Hey darling, why're you so dolled up?"

"Mello please!" You blushed, looking away, catching the eyes of Matt.

"Oh, zip it, Mello. Get a room." Matt turned to you. "You alright there, sport?"

You looked at your feet and sighed. "Yes."

You turned around to sit on the couch next to Matsuda but was stopped by someone's face. You nearly ran into L, standing like a statue, blocking your path.

"I- uh..." you stuttered, watching as L raped over your body with his eyes.

He walked around you in a circle, studying your body and paying close attention to your face. You just stood awkwardly. Seconds passed that were only filled with silence.

L looked at you, his eyes widening the slightest bit... "_____... are you wearing makeup?"

The annoyance started bubbling up in the pit of your stomach. Muttering to yourself, "It's just a one time thing... it's not like it's unusual."

You felt L's fingertips gently caress your cheek as he whipped a small portion of foundation from your face...

Near seemed to be intrigued by the sudden occurrence of events and came closer to observe the power of makeup.

"Why does this have to be a big spectacle? Why can't I just be myself?" you stormed off to your room.

L turned towards Light. "Was it something I said that upset her?"

Light shrugged. "I dunno."

***

You heard a knock on your door.

"Go away," you said between sniffs.

"_____, you know that I'm coming in whether you agree or not," L responded, opening your door and coming to find you curled on your bed.

You looked at him in shock. "What if I was naked?"

L remained still, maintaining a relaxed posture. "Then I'd see that that was the case on the surveillance camera."

L waited a few seconds, admiring your shock once again before replying, "I'm only... joking... _____. Hmm. How are you feeling?"

"I hate everything about myself."

L came over and balled up on the bed next to you. "You're mascara is getting smeared.. you should take off your makeup before you stain your shirt."

"You'd hate how ugly I look."

"Can you just- Hmm." L thought a moment before proceeding. "_____, I've never seen you with makeup on before so this first time caught me by surprise... makeup is a manipulator that fools even me. Some people are so skilled at applying this... makeup that they can even change the bone structure of their face... of course, this is only an illusion."

You took into consideration the fact that the only thing L does all day is stare at his computer all day.

lmao I'm just gonna publish this because I'm too lazy to finish it