I have been working extra hours and trying to save up money. I know taking care of her on my own is going to be a challenge but I know I can do it. I have to do it. The semester is almost over and I am finishing the semester with a 4.0. I wanted to start back up in the fall however I am going to have to take the semester off and start back up in the spring. Even though I am due in July...I don't think I will be ready to go back in August and I can't afford to miss that many days in the beginning.

My friends meet me after work and we go shopping for more supplies for the baby. "Sadie...you got to get this." Britney holds up this adorable pink dress with baby flamingos on it...it is too cute.

"How much is it?"

"It's only ten dollars but its fifty percent off...that's a great deal don't you think?" She holds it over my stretched out stomach.

"Sure...put it in the cart...come on I need to grab another pack of diapers and wipes."

"Really...more...don't you have like a room full already?"

"Yes but you can never not have enough. I will be off work for a while and I would hate to run out."

"What about Anthony...isn't he going to help out?"

"I told you already... I don't need his help. He said something about child support...but honestly...if he can't be there for us then I don't want him around at all...and that includes child support."

"So you are really going to do this all on your own?"

I let out a light laugh. "Nope....auntie Brit...you are going to help me."

"Am I now?"

I nudge her as I reach over to grab a pack of diapers and toss them in the cart. Today's total was only a little over a hundred...I look in my wallet and I still have a little over fifty dollars left to last me till the next pay check. I'm hoping to work as much as possible within the next two months so that I can save up more. Britney helps me load up the bags in the car and then we head out to eat.

We decide to eat at a local diner and grab a cheeseburger and fries and I just have to have a double chocolate milkshake. I dip my fries into the shake and she stares at me. "What."

"You got to be kidding me...that is so gross." She snarls her nose at me.

"Whatever..." I take another bite and snarl my nose back up at her. She rolls her eyes in return. As we are sitting there we watch people come and go, mostly people that live close by...mostly college students. A few wave at us and two even ask me how I am doing before sitting down. I watch them sit down and talk under hushed voices and I know they have got to be talking about me...the smart girl who got herself knocked up. I roll my eyes and dip another fry into the thick shake.

"So...Sadie...are you ready to get out of here?" Brit asks me as she keeps looking behind me. "Don't look...let's just leave...like now."

I see the look on her face and I know she said not to look but I just have to. I turn to see Anthony...And not just Anthony...he is with another girl. Suddenly I feel really sick...mad...angry. What the hell.

She reaches out for my arm to stop me from getting up but I don't let her stop me. I get up and walk right over to his table. He looks up at me with a smile...thinking that I am probably the waitress but the moment he looks into my eyes his smile falters. "Sadie...."

I glare at him and turn to look at the girl he is with. She is freaking pretty...skinny on top of that. I use to be skinny a couple of months ago...but now I look like a cow...ok...maybe not that bad but that is how I feel. I look back at him and with the shake that is still in my hand I do the only thing that comes to mind...I dump the whole thing on top of his head and watch as it pours down his face and all the way down his shirt...soaking up the double chocolate shake.

"What the hell...."

I don't say anything...instead I turn and walk out the door, Brit follows after me. Before we get into the car Anthony reaches us. I turn to see the shake still dripping down his face. "What the hell was that for?"

"You...just...you..."

"Sadie...she is just a girl from class. She dates Michael...we were waiting on him to show up."

I look over at the doorway and the girl is standing with Michael and they are talking back and forth and watching us. I guess to see what I am going to do next...the crazy pregnant girl. I feel my face heat up; I know it is turning shades of red from embarrassment.

Brit shrugs her shoulders and mouths 'sorry'. I start to cry because my hormones are all out of wack and just seeing him with another girl really pisses me off even though we are not together any more. Even after he explains who she is...I am still jealous.

"Sadie...I'm not seeing any one. I told you that I just want to finish college and get a good paying job. I want to make money to help you out."

"I don't need your help." I tell him flatly.

"Sadie...what the hell do you want from me. I'm trying here. But you can't just burst out and do crazy shit like this because you see me out with friends."

"I thought you were seeing her...ok...I'm sorry."

"If I was seeing anyone it would be you...I...admit...I still love you...you know."

I cover my face and start to cry and he pulls me into his chest and wraps his arms around me. God I miss his smell...I miss his touch and his warm embrace. I just don't know why he can't be with me the way that I want him to be with me. When he let's go he kisses me on the forehead and heads back to his friends.

Brit looks at me with a shrugs her shoulders. "I'm sorry...I just assumed..."

I stop her... "Don't worry about it...it is bound to happen sooner or later. Hey I really got to go pee...she is pushing hard on my bladder."

I turn to go back into the diner even though I really don't want to face everyone looking at me. I hurry through straight to the bathroom and relieve myself. I look at the back of the door and there is this printout of this therapy session close by. I snap a picture with my phone just in case I might need to go for moral support. Maybe just talking to someone else that is in my shoes will understand what I am going through.