All the exams are over and the semester is finally done...I made my 4.0. I have been working extra hours to make extra money and put back as much as possible. I refuse to ask him to help me or my parents. This is no one's problem but my own. I got myself into the situation after all. Yes with his help however if he doesn't want to be a part of it I for sure will not force it on him.

I take time out to go to the workshop/therapy session for new moms. I'm not sure what I am really looking for in the session because I know what I want...I want this baby more than anything in the world. I just never thought I would be trying to do it all on my own.

I park outside the building and watch a few girls go in and then I get up the courage to finally get out of the car. At least I can hear about what they have to say. Maybe I will learn a little something or at least take something away from all of it. I listen to everyone in the group introduce their selves and some even mention age. Not that it should even matter...we are all going to be moms.

However I never realized how different we all can be. When it is my turn I give a light wave to everyone looking my way."Hi...I'm new here. I'm Sadie and I go to the University. Anyway...I guess you know why I am here." I look down at my tummy and place a hand on it to tap it lightly. "I'm having a girl...and I guess the reason I am here is because I have no clue on what to do...or how to even be a mom...but I know that I want to be. It's just Anthony...the father...doesn't want any part of it."

I hear a few of the girls say 'ooohh' and some sigh like they know he is just a typical guy and maybe he is but I think he is just scared.

"I don't want to force him to be and I won't. I already told him that I can do this all on my own...heck I don't even want child support...I mean if he can't be there now why later and if you can't be there completely why even bother." I think back to the times when my own parents would fight and argue over stupid shit and I just don't want to have to go through that.

"Seriously...girl it's very expensive to take care of a baby...you sure you don't want him to at least help out?"

I shake my head no. "I have a small job and I have been saving money. I already know that I will have to take the fall semester off but I have it all worked out. I don't need his help."

"Wow...sounds like you got it all figured out. You know I thought the same thing five years ago and now I have three and one on the way." The one lady states as if I plan on doing this all over again like she did.

I try not to judge her...but I wish people would not judge me thinking I am going to d the same thing...nope...no way..."Oh...this is it for me." I smile back politely to her but she only smirks in return. I ignore the attitude.

"Yeah...and how old are you...you better get better birth control the next time around because you have to have at least two kids and be over twenty-five before they fix you hence...why I'm here now."

"Oh...well I guess I will be getting better birth control or just not have sex period."

After the session everyone breaks away and goes along their way. I walk out to my car not sure that this session really even done anything for me. Maybe I will come another night but for now I just want to go home. There is a light knock on the door. I look up to see a young girl looking back at me...actually she looks about the same age as me. "Hi...can I help you?"

"Hi...I'm Henley. So you go to the University here?"

"Yes...do you go there?"

She looks down at her stomach and lets out a laugh. "I wish...I should be like all my other friends but here I am. The guy left and went to college...I'm having a boy."

"Sorry to hear that....funny how guys just assume they have no responsibilities you know. So you got names picked out?"

"Oh...of course...Morgan Shane...I just came up with it you know...how about you?"

"I have been playing with names, it's just I'm not sure you know it's such a difficult decision." I smile back at her.

"Well I better get going...I just wanted to say hi and it's usually not like this so I hope maybe you can come back out...maybe we could even meet up afterwards."

"Uhm...ok...sure...maybe...yeah that sounds great." I tell her as I watch her facial expressions. I don't even really know her and she wants to hang out with me.

On my way home I think maybe she is just lonely...I would be if all my friends up and left to go to college and left me home. I wonder if she even has any friends and come to think of it I wonder how her parents took the news of being pregnant at such an early age...messing up her whole like. Mine were not thrilled at all but I'm sure they will get over it in time.

At the red light I look at the car beside me and there are two kids in the back and one of them is making faces at me and giggling. I wave and make a silly face back. I can't wait to see what my little girl will look like. The light turns green and I move forward only to turn my head in the other direction to see bright lights crashing into the side of my car.

I feel the impact...the car swirling around in circles before flipping upside down. I try to open my eyes to figure out what the hell just happened...I try to force myself to look around me but all I see is blinking lights and then darkness.