On Friday my mom takes me to the clinic and I start to panic. I look for Henley...she has to be here; I don't want my mom to go in with me. I am waiting in the waiting area when the Henley walks in. She is so pretty...I just want to kiss her right there in front of everyone but my mother would flip out. I see her and jump up, running over to her and giving her this huge hug. "Thank you for coming...I was worried you would change your mind."

"I'm here...you sure you want to do this?"

I nod and grab her hands. We walk back over to where I was sitting and sit down. "Mom this is Henley...my friend...she will go back with me."

"But..."

"Mom...please if you want me to do this...I want her to go with me alright."

"Whatever." She looks back down at her magazine.

A few minutes pass and the nurse opens the door. "Charlotte...we are ready for you now."

Henley stands up and holds her hand out for me. I take it and gradually stand up. I am so freaking nervous. I know what the procedure is...they went over everything on the last visit however when we get to the back the nurse talks to me about it all over again.

When the doctor comes in she gives me a halfhearted smile. "Ok...Charlotte...you sure you want to do this?"I nod."No one is forcing you to make this decision?"I shake my head no. Well I might as well do it...right...everyone knows what is best for me. I'm only sixteen...I don't know anything. And hell they are all probably right anyway...hell I can't even take care of myself. "Ok...I need you to sign off on this paperwork and then we will get started with the procedure."

She hands over the clipboard with the forms.My hands tremble and I feel like I am going to drop it so I put it in my lap. I take the pen in my hand and look up at Henley and take a deep breath. I hope this is the right decision...I hope I am not making a huge mistake by doing this. I scribble my signature and hand the clipboard back over.

"Ok...let's get started. First I am just going to examine you alright. Lets get you back."

I lay on my back and open my legs wide. This is so embarrassing but Henley is right beside me and holding my hand."I'm just going to put this special cream on alright...it will numb everything so you shouldn't be able to feel anything."

I don't recall anything after that because I zone out. After the whole process the doctor implants an IUD, this way I will not get in the situation again for a long time. They have Henley leave the room while I recover for the next hour. A nurse comes in a few times to check on me. They go over my stay at home care and that I should be fine to go back to school on Monday.

When it's time to go my mom is waiting for me but I don't even bother looking at her, instead I walk over to Henley and she hugs me. "You are going to be alright...I'm here for you."

"Thanks for coming." I sniff in her scent as she wraps her arms around me.

"No problem..." She says and then she has to leave.

When we get home I go up to my room and climb in bed. I cry the rest of the day. Both my parents come to my room at different times...trying to get me to come downstairs to eat but I tell them I am not hungry and please just leave me the hell alone. My phone keeps going off but I end up turning it off completely...not ever wanting to talk to anyone ever again...especially him.

I had asked him to go with me but he was too busy like he couldn't take a damn day off from school to go with his freaking girlfriend to go to a clinic to get rid of the one thing that actually connected us. I hate him...and honestly I hope that I never ever see him again...but I know he will be there Monday at school waiting to see how I am doing...like he even gives a shit.

I stay in my bedroom all weekend. My parents bring me food up to my room...but I still can't eat. On Monday morning my mom knocks on the door. "Charlotte you have to be getting up you will be late for school."

I roll my eyes and force myself out of the bed...the bleeding is still there and I have to put on yet another pad. I stand up in front of the long mirror and look at my body, placing both hands on my stomach. I think about what could have been....what should have been and my eyes fill up with tears. I slowly wipe the tears away with the back of my hand and get dressed for school.

I was right...he would be waiting by my locker. I walk over and push him gently out of the way and he steps aside. "I tried calling you all weekend...what the hell...you ignoring me now?"

I grab my Science book out and shut the locker door; I start to walk off without saying anything.

"So this is how it's going to be between us now?"I stop and look up at him begging the tears not to come. "Did you do it? Char...did you do it?"

"Yes...alright...it's over with...don't worry you have no responsibilities...no cares in the world now let me by."

He looks back at me with guilt in his eyes. "Char...you can't be mad at me for this...come on." He reaches out to touch my hand. "Come on...let's go talk somewhere."

I shake my head no...because 'lets' go talk', is actually making out somewhere and I doubt I will ever make out with him or any boy for a very....very...long time.

----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------In-clinic procedures: They will give you medicine to take that usually takes about ten minutes to help with pain. Suction abortion in the most common kind of abortion procedure. Sometimes they will put you to sleep...it just depends. To read up more on this procedure go to www.plannedparenthood.org