Author's Note: This chapter is a little graphic and may be hard to take in. If need to skip the chapter I understand...it will be talking about having an abortion and may be a little harsh how it is done.

It's been over a week and he still hasn't taken care of whatever it is he says he's going to take care of. Not only that but he hasn't even really looked at me either. So this can be a good thing or a bad thing. Good because he hasn't been to my room all week...thank goodness. But bad because I feel that he no longer loves me. I'm not use to having him act this way towards me.

I head out to the next class. I am the youngest one here. I fidget in my seat and feel like I am going to vomit any moment. We all go around the room introducing ourselves again. I guess they do this each time. I lie about my age...thinking that if I tell them that I am only thirteen that they will kick me out. I just need to know what is going to happen to me. I need to know if this is going to kill me or should I just end it before it ends me.

Everyone is talking about how their body has changed so much and morning sickness and weight gain...all the boring shit. I just want to know what does it mean 'to take care of it.'So when it comes back around for me to talk that is what I ask. "What does it mean to take care of it?"

The lady over the session looks at me with a concerned look. "What do you mean honey...take care of the baby when it gets here?"

"No...now...my dad says not to worry that he will take care of it. He knows this guy and they can take care of it."

I watch as she looks around the room to the other women and they all stop to look at me. "Honey...it sounds like he wants you to get rid of it...to have an abortion."

"Does it hurt?"

"Uhmmm...well...everyone takes pain differently. It also depends on how it is done. Calie...is this something that you want?"

I shrug my shoulders. "I don't know what I want...but it doesn't matter whatever he says goes."

"Excuse...me...I'm actually a lawyer and Calie...it's your body...he can't force you to have one."

I start to cry because these women don't know my dad...yes he can force me and he will. I have no say so in anything that happens to my body."I got to go...he doesn't even know that I am here." I stand up and run out the door.

By the time I get home, he is already there and I am sure he has already had a few beers too many since there are several around his Lazy man recliner. I avoid him and go straight to my room and thankfully he ignores me as well all night.

The next day, I had hoped that he was going off to work but he comes and kicks his foot into the door forcing it open. I jump and hurriedly sit up in bed. "Get dressed....lets go."

I don't ask questions. I stumble out of bed and put on sweat pants and a t-shirt. I slip on my shoes and hurry by his side. I get in the car and he heads out of town. I thought we were going to like a doctor's office or something but we end up downtown in this location that I never knew existed. I look around to see if where I am...noticing the nearby places.

"Get out...come on now." He orders.

I get out and we walk up to this run down building. When he opens the door there is this long hallway and I follow him. I feel like I am one of those scary movies and something really bad is about to happen. The hallway has a few doors on each side and the walls are pealing like crazy and the smell kind of reeks like it hasn't been cleaned in years or maybe something just died up in here.

When we get to the end he bangs on the door and it creeks open to this guy that is a little younger than him but has traces of grey hair shinnying through here and there. He puts out his cigarette on the floor. "Come in." he voice is a little hoarse probably from all the years of smoking.

My dad walks in and then I follow closely behind him.I feel like a little kid again being afraid and shy, not wanting this guy to even look at me.

"So this is her? Well here honey take these two pills." He hands me the pills and a bottle of water.

I look down to see two different size pills and think I really shouldn't do this. "What are they?" I ask looking up at the guy.

"It will make you feel better...in no time you will feel like new again."

I look at them in my hand again and shake my head no. I have no idea what they are planning. My dad nudges me and glowers. "Take the damn pills Calie...or I will force them down."I'm not sure I like the sound of forcing something into my mouth so I pop them in my mouth and drink half the bottle of water. "Now...it wasn't all that bad was it?"

I shake my head no.

"Now we wait." He tells my dad as he lights another cigarette.

So they sit down on the couch and watch a ballgame on the TV. I roll my eyes and sit down. I have no idea what the hell we are waiting for.However...within the hour I feel so sick. "Dad...I need to use the bathroom?"

The guy points the way down the hall. I run in there and by the time I hit the door I start to puke. What the hell did they give me? Pain shoots through the whole lower part of me and I have never felt so bad. I feel my pants get all soaked...when I look down there is blood everywhere. I start to panic...oh...no...what is happening to me...I'm for sure going to die. I stumble down the hallway towards my dad...I know he is going to be pissed off at me because the blood has soaked through my clothes and I'm not sure if I have gotten it on any of the guys stuff but he only smirks when he sees me.

"Dad...we need to go...I need a doctor...I'm dying..." I gasp between words and I am crying like a baby. I am in so much freaking pain.

"Well...looks like its working." The guy gives my dad a shit eating grin, then takes another puff of a new lit cigarette.

My dad looks over at him and huffs. "I want it all taken care of...now. I already paid you too take care of all of it." Then he grabs the cigarette from him and takes a long drawl from it and hands it back over.

The guy stands up and walks over towards me...he grabs me by the shoulders and turns me back around to go down the dark hallway. In the back room there is this table almost like one you would see in the doctor's office...I have no clue why this guy would have it but he does. "Pull your pants down and hop up on the table." He orders.

I shake my head no...there is no way that I am doing that. I don't even know this guy. I start to scream and my dad walks into to the room.

"Calie...we already started the process...just do it. It will all be over soon."I freeze up, so my dad helps pull down my pants for this guy to look at me. I try to sit down on the table but there is so much pain coming from my stomach as I double over. My dad helps me lay back again and this guy reaches over to grab some type of metal object and I have no idea what he does but when he is all done with me I am lethargic and feel like I can't move at all.

My dad picks me up and carries me out the door.He puts me in the back seat where he has already placed plastic down on the seat covers. I lay down on the seat and cry all the way home. I feel like I am dying; the pain is so unbearable and I have never felt so out of it in my life. I know this will be the end of me and no one will ever know what happened to me.

---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Information/ Abortion Pill:

1st pill is called Mifepristone- this stops the pregnancy from growing. Some may feel nauseous and start bleeding right after taking it

2nd pill is called Misoprostol- you can take it right away or within 48 hours of the first one. It will cause bleeding and cramping to empty out your uterus. This usually takes 1-4 hours after taking Misoprostol. And can last 4-5 hours.

Should be authorized by a real doctor and follow up to make sure that you are alright. Also most all states require at least one parent to give permission to have an abortion. Unlike Calie's dad...he was more afraid of going to jail for rape of a minor...so he found a way to get rid of it.