His face was pretty. Like a gentlemen yet threatening at the same time. His face is lined in with gold lines around his face, barely noticeable but, it shimmered.

He tilts his head. "You seem confused." He says lowly.

I couldn't speak but only nod slowly.

He looks down, at his palm as it starts to glow. A light shimmering gold exploding in his hand as it starts to surround us in pure gold. Then, it shifts into something. Shaping itself into its form.

The gold turned into a meadow. With the bright blue sky, trees in the distance and a field of flowers everywhere.

Behind me was a wooden bench, I sat on it look up a head to the field when the man was standing there.

A lot has happened lately, I'm not sure how to react anymore and just let the peaceful surroundings comfort me.

He starts to walk towards me, the ruffling grass against his boots as he approached. He sat on the other side of the bench as I only took a flower from the ground and feel the soft petals.

"You seem awfully peaceful." He says, his back leaned with his arm spread. I don't take my eyes off the flower as I laid back. "Honestly, a lot has happened today. I'm not sure how to feel anymore. If it's a dream or not." As I feel the petals, I grip on one and pull, letting it sway to the ground.

"... you seem torn." He says, his eyes still fixed on me. I let out a chuckle. "Yeah, I do look fucked don't I?" I snicker as I scrunched my nose with a grin. "A way to put it. How are you?" He starts up a new topic.

I slowly look at him. "I think I've summed up what had happened." I say boringly. He smiles a bit letting out a small laugh, a smile that I can remember. "Alright, let me start again. A part from today, how was your past days, weeks, months or years if you'd like to add." He looks at me eagerly, waiting for a response.

I look at him then the flower. "Years back... it was more fun. Less trapped inside your own world. It was more carefree and laughable back then. But, now... I feel lost." I look at him with the lack of emotion.

He looks down then brings his hand near. It glows again but, less brighter and more subtle. Shapes start to pop out of his palm as it comes towards me and around my head, as they turn into butterflies and fishes around me.

"Would you go back to the years?" He asks. As I pay attention to the small creatures. "Yes." I say simply. "We're you more happy?"

"Yes."

"Did you love someone back then?"

"Yes."

"... would you give it your life to go back, when you were happier, free and loved?" His voice goes lower.

A bundle of emotions start to ball up as I choke on some tears. "Of course." A single tears falls.

"As you wish."

A loud snap goes around and the landscape starts to be consumed by darkness, coming closer and closer to us.

I bolt out of the bench, looking around me as it only kept getting closer and faster. I look at the man sitting calmly on the bench. I try to rush over to him and hold him but, I fall into the dark amiss as I watch him fade away from my vision quickly.

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I gasp loudly, sweating bullets as I breath heavily, clenching my chest.

I look around my surroundings to find my room. Noting abnormal.

Still trying to steady my breath and drenched in sweat, I growl. Going through my hair and grabbing the roots of it, feeling very anxious and angry.

"I'm tired of having these thoughts." I say with a low growl as I got out of bed and get myself cleaned up.

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Hi, I know I've been gone for months 🤡 and this is low-key bad

And this is probably only one of my proud works of a fem reader boon I've made so cool-

I try to update as much as I can

Also I am getting back on track with MX so fuq ya